Phrases for Life , Updated Saturday, November 2nd 2002
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a preface:
Faliseus: this web page is called, 'phrase for life', because it's filled with many of my quotes,
Faliseus: ......and each thought borrowed from the unconscious:-)
Faliseus: one last note about the page, it's filled with wisdoms, advice on art, writing, people, love....and perspective
Faliseus: and the nice thing about my site, is, if ANYTHING in there, is 'in question'......then I will take criticism very openly
If you truly feel that you need to, then, Go Back Home
Faliseus: I don't suggest printing this page, because no copy is a solid copy, just as no soap opera character can really die, because..... like a writer.....I keep writing.......
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"Don't let anyone tell you that you’re wrong just do what you know is right in your OWN heart"
that was the 'SEED' planted by my father that grew into the ROOT that it is today
and
"Aim for the heart and you'll always hit your target," it's my ‘ROOT’ phrase
and
All the rest of the advice are just ‘BRANCHES’ from those roots that ‘stretch’ to the different areas of the heart in KNOWING.
Faliseus: this thing is what I'd like to think of as 'the painting of my mind'
Faliseus: always building onto it 'Life’s Twisted Spine'
Faliseus: and yes,
Faliseus: I know,
Faliseus: it rhymes:-)
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84.) LOVE????????
“the way you feel when you fall in love”
Faliseus: yes
Faliseus: the feelings that GUIDE to the expressions of love
“love is an instinctual feeling”
“so that we will reproduce”
Faliseus: LOVE is not lust.
Faliseus: LOVE is the 'comfortable feeling' around EVERYTHING
“same thing”
Faliseus: if you can’t love yourself,
Faliseus: then you can’t love anyone else.
Faliseus: REPRODUCING,
Faliseus: is just a BI-product of love.
Faliseus: it's just something that makes us GROW and BUILD
“but look how it ties in”
Faliseus: you’ve only been talking about lust
“how do we know love exists?”
Faliseus: first off,
Faliseus: love.....is a concept and/or feeling.
Faliseus: believed to be built in our minds, and believed to be felt in our hearts/spirits.
“explain”
Faliseus: we don't 'know' or 'see'... love, but we just have to believe it exists.......
Faliseus: then we get into the 'definition' of that belief.....
Faliseus: love itself is a feeling, unmeasured and unseen.
Faliseus: the ‘action’ of love.....is.....faith.....in.....life.
Faliseus: (read #70 My Definition of Faith)
Faliseus: ‘compassionate expression of love’ is untouched expression for another, showing mercy or respect or hospitality or charity
Faliseus: an example of compassion would be helping a friendship grow by letting that friend KNOW that you care for them and their welfare
Faliseus: or helping a stranger with their bags
Faliseus: ‘affectionate expression of love’ is having or displaying warmth or affection,
Faliseus: an example of affection would be patting someone on the back, a kiss on the cheek, a hug, being playful
Faliseus: and ‘passionate expression of love’ is to be as 'one', with powerful emotions. Being passionate is being full of deep emotion in your actions
Faliseus: an example of passion can be two romantic lovers in an embrace ‘filled with deep emotion‘ or another example can be you doing your favorite hobby while ‘filled with deep emotion‘
Faliseus: the action of love has the feeling and emotion behind it, guiding it
Faliseus: the action of love is faith...in life.
“do you think humans can survive without love?”
Faliseus: that's the same as asking...."can we survive without forgiving?"
“I don’t know”
Faliseus: and I say, no, we can't live without love......because forgiveness is a part of faith, and if we didn't have forgiveness.....then we'd all be dead, because we couldn't forgive ourselves.
“hmm, I see”
“how do you define sex/love?”
“(in your aspect)”
Faliseus: sex and love are tied together, but they're two different things.....
Faliseus: sex....is lust.....but what is the 'purpose' for that lust???
Faliseus: is the purpose to build? or is it to forget building?
Faliseus: if the purpose for the sex is to build, create, then it's helping to love.
Faliseus: if it's to forget love, then it's only destructive....and it's only temporary recreation which can lead to hate if you do it too often
Faliseus: anything (except for love) can be used to hate and destroy.
Faliseus: fear and doubt keeps us from love....to love an image, is to love a deception, to have faith that there's a spirit beyond that image, is the pursuit of that true beauty.
Faliseus: vision is love...deception is not.
Faliseus: the sheer amount of sense I make to myself and complete strangers just astounds me:-)
Faliseus: almost to the point of confusion and loss of purpose
Faliseus: then I get that feeling in my heart that I believe I share that reminds me that I'm alive and not crazy but in love with those whom I'll hope to always love.
Faliseus: as much mental capacity that I may ever convey, one thing has remained true.....the feelings always guide me
to the top85.) Personal Definition Contrast: KNOWLEDGE and IDEAS
Faliseus: knowledge is just fact
Faliseus: ideas are UNSEEN CONCEPTS
Faliseus: knowledge is found and SEEN
Faliseus: ideas are made and imagined IN THE MIND
“so you’re saying if no one had an idea for the phone.. that we would still have it”
Faliseus: the phone was made
Faliseus: from an IDEA ‘reflecting on’ the knowledge of electronics
“yes.. but a lot of went into making the phone was found”
“exactly....”
Faliseus: knowledge is the BASE for everything that is manmade and is working
Faliseus: but
“you just said it.. ideas are made... “
Faliseus: right
Faliseus: that’s what I said
“and so was the phone”
Faliseus: and I meant that
Faliseus: right
Faliseus: what I'm saying is,
Faliseus: KNOWLEDGE was the BASE or ‘inspiration’ of that 'idea'
Faliseus: that 'idea' was just a branch or ‘reflection’
Faliseus: from the base
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Faliseus: define articulate
“no, you know what it means”
Faliseus: actually:-) I don't know what it means
“well look it up”
Faliseus: it could have a different meaning to you
Faliseus: there is no such thing as a universal dictionary, because we've all got our own definitions and interpretations for other people’s words
“to me it means being clear about what you are trying to communicate”
“yeah well, I think you knew what I meant”
Faliseus: thinking and knowing are two different things
Faliseus: assumptions are what drives the world to misunderstand each other
Faliseus: and a misunderstanding is a property of hate
“cool”
Faliseus: so, I'm always about....'reminding the knowledgeable'...because we all forget
Faliseus: the reason I ask ANY questions, is because I want to UNDERSTAND:-)
“I don't get it but whatever”
Faliseus: a man that will ask very few questions is more capable of hate and corruption, because he is more capable of misunderstanding
Faliseus: take your time when you read it over
Faliseus: and ASK MORE QUESTIONS about it....THEN it will make sense:-)
Faliseus: we all need to understand each other
Faliseus: otherwise this whole world will fall apart....and become a nightmare
to the top86.) Simply Put, WEBSTER is an IDIOT
“oh here is something for you to consider (Webster’s definition) of 'believe' 1. to accept as real or TRUE 2. To credit with veracity 3. To think: suppose......even the dictionary.. shows it as having two meanings”
Faliseus: I don’t care what Webster says unless he's talking to me himself
Faliseus: because definitions ALWAYS change
“well you said be simple....”
Faliseus: look up the word ‘KNOW’
“and universal....”
“so that everyone knows....”
“well Webster’s is a resource for the world”
“a set standard”
Faliseus: and how many people know how to read?
Faliseus: and how many people know how to talk?
Faliseus: MANY more know how to talk.
“ ...okay.. we will...”
Faliseus: I don’t care what someone COULD do
Faliseus: I care what they're DOING
“To believe to be true.. that’s what it says”
Faliseus: IT says
Faliseus: but what is what it MEANS?
Faliseus: to SEE the FACT to be true is what I"M looking for
Faliseus: otherwise Webster is an IDIOT
Faliseus: because to BELIEVE has 3 definitions
Faliseus: KNOW should be ‘to SEE the FACT to be true’
Faliseus: having 3 different definitions as knowledge?
Faliseus: that wouldn’t be SOLID
“ ...well lets see what else they say.. that was just number one”
Faliseus: #1 SHOULDN’T be in there
Faliseus: there should ONLY be 1 definition in there
“To have understand or experience of“
Faliseus: okay
Faliseus: I'll accept that
“ ... that’s what I don't get about you... you’re so one sided....”
“It seems...”
Faliseus: but #1 needs to be CUT from that dictionary
Faliseus: I've got all the sides
Faliseus: I stand firm in my knowledge
“if you did.......then wouldn't you try to see the good and bad of that definition..”
“not just the bad...”
Faliseus: many people can’t understand that because they don’t see it all the time
Faliseus: BAD shouldn’t BE in something GOOD
“.....what do you mean...”
Faliseus: if you DIDN’T focus on the bad,
Faliseus: then we WOULDN’T SEE the bad
Faliseus: and we'd just THINK we were doing GOOD the whole time
Faliseus: you said it yourself,
Faliseus: “analyze the good and the bad in things”
Faliseus: I just analyze the bad
Faliseus: if you were eating cereal,
“exactly... because.. hey bad has been around forever...”
“Adam and Eve...”
Faliseus: and there was a hairy mole inside the box,
“with the fruit”
Faliseus: if you were eating cereal,
Faliseus: and there was a hairy mole inside the box,
Faliseus: but ALL you saw,
“and I do agree.. there shouldn't be bad in good.. but there is.. it’s just a fact of life”
Faliseus: was the cereal,
“yes... go on....”
Faliseus: then wouldn’t you be eating that mole cause you didn’t FOCUS on it?
Faliseus: a TANGIBLE idea is NOT a fact of life
Faliseus: tangible things I can work with.
“yes...but... that’s a good philosophy... however it’s not... practical”
Faliseus: so that they are adjusted to fact.
Faliseus: if you’re 'practical' all the time,
Faliseus: then you'll get ran over by the stampede
Faliseus: if you’re HONEST and FACTUAL and PURPOSEFUL,
Faliseus: then people will look at you and 'understand' facts,
Faliseus: and NOT opinions
“yah, lost me on that one...”
Faliseus: they'll focus on your heart
“stampede.....”
Faliseus: every other 'practical' person out there joins together in a stampede
“okay... I think you misinterpreted.. what I mean by practical...”
Faliseus: they're DRIVEN by 'practicality' and 'assumptions as to what's ‘right',
Faliseus: instead of 'knowledge' of what’s right.
“I mean.. that in regard to the mole and cereal and life.. there is BAD.. it’s a fact...“
“okay.. I agree with that...”
Faliseus: but?
“in life.. we have to say...“
Faliseus: lay it on me
“yes there is bad....but we have to just accept it and move on”
Faliseus: do we have to settle with the bad, or can we CHANGE it to be RIGHTFUL and GOOD?
“you can't say that there isn't bad... because there is.. being.. realistic...that’s the word I was looking for”
Faliseus: and I 'haven’t' said that there ISN’T bad
“no.. you don't.. you don’t have to accept it.. you’re right”
Faliseus: right
Faliseus: I'm saying though
Faliseus: bad should be CORRECTED
Faliseus: invalid or untrue things should NOT be marked TRUE or FINISHED
Faliseus: that’s false advertisement
“you said.. many people can’t understand that cause they don’t see it all the time”
Faliseus: BAD shouldn’t BE in something GOOD
Faliseus: falseness in our 'practicality' is falseness in what we're looking for, when we look for the truth
Faliseus: "I stand firm in my knowledge"
Faliseus: many people can’t understand THAT cause they don’t see it all the time
Faliseus: BAD shouldn’t BE in something GOOD
Faliseus: good is good
Faliseus: bad is bad
Faliseus: you’re either a lover or a hater
Faliseus: not both
Faliseus: because our brains are selective, but our brains can be deceived into hating something we're supposed to 'love'
“okay.. maybe you know in your heart that things are so black and white...”
Faliseus: I DO know
“I don't feel that to be true”
Faliseus: I have shown that.
Faliseus: you need to expand your knowledge of it though
Faliseus: it's a simple concept to have,
Faliseus: but a VERY hard one to settle with
“of what life...”
“?
Faliseus: everything
Faliseus: to be simple about things
“...what concept.. “
“....?”
Faliseus: to be simple about things
Faliseus: simple AND true
“oh okay...”
“yes.. I believe some things are simple..”
“a lot of things are.. “
Faliseus: all things are when you see the roots of it.
“and I agree that a lot of things are made into a lot more than they are”
Faliseus: I see roots to LOTS of things
Faliseus: right
“yes.. but life isn't the roots...“
“it’s everything that has expanded from that”
Faliseus: yes it is.
Faliseus: if there wasn’t life,
Faliseus: then what would there be?
“our country is a perfect example”
“okay rephrase...”
“life isn't JUST the roots”
Faliseus: why is life not the roots?
Faliseus: why is life not JUST the roots?
Faliseus: if we weren’t born,
“it is.. and so much more.. that’s what makes some things not so simple”
Faliseus: then what would we be?
Faliseus: life is simple to me because I can accept it's simplicity
Faliseus: life is complex to others, because they only WANT to BELIEVE, THINK or ASSUME that it's not
“here me out”
Faliseus: I've got to get some sleep.
“it will just take a sec”
Faliseus: ok
Faliseus: shoot
“In my life situation right now.. I have a stepmother.. who according to my sister.. see I don’t KNOW this to be true... pretty much moved in on our family when I was three”
“in that time period she has treated us like crap...had an affair on my father...”
“and yet she wants to know what she is to me...“
Faliseus: ok
“how is that simple.. to say... “
“actually you know what..”
Faliseus: she is some one to talk to
“I answered my own question”
Faliseus: what?
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: see how simple things really are?
to the top87.a) NO Ending to Life’s Twisted Spine
“no one seems to care when I try to kill myself.”
"no one has stopped me from suicide. I might as well just try it and get it over with."
Faliseus: I'll stop you
Faliseus: I'll be there always
Faliseus: I will show you how to love life, just by being there.
Faliseus: my words will touch your heart
Faliseus: one thing to do, which is the best thing to do
Faliseus: to ‘learn to live’
Faliseus: is to let your tears out.
Faliseus: The only way to stay alive is the only reason to stay alive
Faliseus: Live to love
Faliseus: Love to live
Faliseus: Strive to love
Faliseus: Love to strive
Faliseus: To those who have lived and have strived are those who have love
Faliseus: and have FULLNESS.
Faliseus: To those who have done nothing and gave nothing have an empty heart
Faliseus: and find NOTHING in their search.
to the top87b.) PARAPHRASE of No Ending to Life’s Twisted Spine
“I want to kill myself”
Faliseus: life is full of problems
Faliseus: either way you look at it
Faliseus: you’re going to have your good days and your bad
Faliseus: but what good does it do to focus on the bad
Faliseus: lately, there might’ve been some bad
Faliseus: but there's good
Faliseus: yesterday I asked myself a question,
Faliseus: "is the sun going to come out tomorrow?"
Faliseus: and guess what...
Faliseus: it did
Faliseus: life’s bout growing from the ground up
Faliseus: it's dirty around the soil
Faliseus: but once you've seen and felt the warmth of the sun
Faliseus: you're strong, healthy and beautiful and you'll only grow stronger
to the top88.) WHY DO WE FEAR??
"Why do you feel humans fear"
- “difference and diversity in others instead of appreciating and accepting it?“
- “or anything for that matter“
Faliseus: just in case you were going to ask,
Faliseus: the catalysts to all fears, in my experience, are: assumptions, doubts, thoughts
Faliseus: and
Faliseus: the 'ABSENCE OF' knowledge, faith in learning, listening and understanding/knowing
Faliseus: "Why do you feel humans fear anything"
Faliseus: because they fear: death, change, instability in what they're used to, SOCIETY'S POPULAR JUDGEMENT and it's effects on them, heartfelt feelings, a false sense of security, being wrong, being right........
Faliseus: 'OVERALL', they fear the END RESULT, being: the mystery of what they don’t know is going to happen to them,
Faliseus: 'BECAUSE' they choose to accept the catalyst of all fears instead of facing them with FAITH.
Faith, in learning, listening and understanding/knowing and FORGIVENESS in brotherly love.
to the top89.) I FEAR THIS
“what are you afraid of?” ”you fear anything?”
Faliseus: two things I fear the most
Faliseus: ‘MYSELF’
Faliseus: and
Faliseus: ‘GOD’
Faliseus: faith fills all my fears
Faliseus: while losing faith in understanding things, you gain fear
Faliseus: faith is in between learning and understanding
Faliseus: “the only thing we have to fear is FEAR itself”
-Franklin D. Roosevelt
to the top90.) I DON’T KNOW FEELINGS
“but two examples of confusion are you say you know who you are as a human being, because you don't know feeling”
I know who I am as a human being, because I strive to know what I don’t know (don’t know feeling) and to ‘KNOW FEELING’ is to ‘follow the heartfelt feeling’ to learn to know different heartfelt feelings as they come and understand where they‘ll lead me and what they‘ll teach me.
Feeling to move, I move, feeling to speak, I speak.
I ‘don’t know’ ‘when-how-who-where or what’ to feel because God is my pilot. I know who I am as a human being because I follow my heart to it’s PURPOSE. Clarification in life and someone to talk to in the end, through UNKNOWN FEELINGS.
“I would think knowing feelings is a requisite to self-actualization”
thinking and knowing are 2 different things, instead of saying, ‘self-actualization’ please K.I.S.S. and say ‘talking about ourselves’
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here’s something from my phrase for life paper........
‘you don’t like thinking either’
Faliseus: thinking HURTS
Faliseus: knowing is EASIER
Faliseus: why would I want to hurt myself?
Faliseus: knowing is something that doesn’t hurt to me
Faliseus: so naturally
Faliseus: I prefer to KNOW
Faliseus: ideas, in my experience, are made of thin air.
Faliseus: knowledge, in my experience, is made of hard rock
see #11.) ‘COMPARISON: Thinking and Legos’
see #52.) ‘Keep It Simple Stupid’
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“and even more importantly control of those feelings”
For one, feelings just COME to us. No matter what we do. From the point where they FIRST start and we have CONSCIOUSNESS of them is where we can attempt to CONTROL them.
see #60.) ‘COMPLETE SELF-CONTROL’
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FEELINGS in general, just ‘come to us’. We cant stop what we don’t know is coming to us.
“The other confusion is your use of loving/love/loved and hating/hate/hated. Why do you use these three when two shouldn't be used?”
I’ve used those words for flexibility in its application to OTHER scenarios (past, present and future)
to the top91.) Personal Definition Contrast: ’THINKING’, ’BELIEVING’, ‘KNOWLEDGE’ and ‘TRUTH’
“What is the difference between thinking and believing? “
see #58.) ‘Definition Dispute’
what is your definition of thinking and believing?
‘Thinking’-an unsupported idea, an assumption, a doubt, a worry
‘Believing’-having faith in something that I don’t see and not doubting it’s truth
I know where I stand as a human being because I stand faithful in God. Not THINKING about God, but remaining Believing in God to love and guide me.
“Would it have made a difference if I had stated, "I believe knowing feeling is a requisite to self-actualization"? “
it all has to do with YOUR definition of believing
in MY definition of believing you would be saying:
“I ‘have faith in something that I don’t see and not doubting it’s truth‘ because SEEING feeling is required for speaking of ourselves”
and ‘FAITH in something that we DON’T see’(believe) and ‘SEEING’ (knowing) would be in the SAME sentence CANCELLING OUT each other, making the sentence void.
“Are you implying that ideas are fool hearty and unimportant?
Ideas that are built upon knowledge are important. As knowledge is a base, ideas are the rest of the structure.
see #85.) ‘Personal Definition Contrast: KNOWLEDGE and IDEAS’
“What is knowledge?”
knowledge-something that is there because we’ve seen it
“Isn't knowledge someone's interpretation of truth?”
No, because truth is FOUND through believing, knowledge is SEEN through seeing.
“What is truth?”
Truth is something we don’t know yet but will soon find.
“Is science truth?”
No, science is just the best idea we have of the truth.
We are no closer to finding the truth than the Greeks and the Romans were with slings and arrows finding out how the planets revolved around each other.
“Must truth be proven for it to be truth?”
Truth is something we must find through faith in what we don’t know.
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see #54.) ‘Blind and Deaf but Seeing the Truth’
to the top92.) Materialistic Moron
Faliseus: stand in the fire with your coffin
Faliseus: you'll be destroyed
“no”
Faliseus: yes
“it’s fire proof”
Faliseus: YOU
“it would protect me”
Faliseus: WILL
Faliseus: BE
Faliseus: DESTROYED
Faliseus: by the FIRE
“no”
Faliseus: why not?
“fire can’t penetrate my coffin”
Faliseus: DESTROYED
“well, I hope you come to your senses and get a coffin before they get rid of the end of the year clearance”
Faliseus: DESTROYED as the stubborn mule you are
“Used coffins are 1/2 off”
Faliseus: destroyed as the materialistic moron you are
“what’s destroyed?”
Faliseus: you and the coffin
Faliseus: materials
“nah, not with the warranty”
Faliseus: warranty
Faliseus: BURNED
Faliseus: in the fire
Faliseus: DESTROYED
“nah, I'll keep a copy in my coffin”
“which is flame proof”
Faliseus: which will be DESTROYED
Faliseus: can you touch your coffin?
“no”
“sure”
Faliseus: was your coffin assembled?
“no”
Faliseus: your coffin was assembled
“it was born like every coffin is”
Faliseus: then a POWERFUL EXPLOSIVE can touch your coffin JUST as you can
“no, its under warranty”
Faliseus: burnt in the fire
Faliseus: my heart will live forever
“so will my coffin and you can’t see past your heart that’s giving you wrong info friend”
“well, goodnight, my coffin says it’s time to go”
Faliseus: running to the fire so soon?
“what”
Faliseus: I've touched your coffin with explosives
Faliseus: and have seen it explode
Faliseus: and be destroyed
“really it’s right here”
Faliseus: it will not bring you to higher places
Faliseus: just lower to the ground
Faliseus: in the fire
Faliseus: you will not see the light of day
Faliseus: only the darkness of your materials
“I see it all the time”
Faliseus: that will destroy you
Faliseus: in its embers
Faliseus: you will be crushed
“my coffin can use the HOV lane”
Faliseus: as an insect runs to the ground
Faliseus: YOU,
Faliseus: will have NO WHERE to run
Faliseus: but TO THE FIRE
Faliseus: DESTROYED
“nah, fire proof”
“well good night”
Faliseus: I have warned you already
Faliseus: joke about life
Faliseus: and it will be a joke
Faliseus: and YOU,
Faliseus: WONT be the one laughing in the end
“why, because I have a coffin”
Faliseus: it will be the great liar that has thrown the wool over your eyes
Faliseus: HE will be laughing
Faliseus: and
Faliseus: YOU
Faliseus: will be BURNING
Faliseus: you will scream
Faliseus: and no one will hear you
Faliseus: you will run
Faliseus: but nothing can save you
Faliseus: everything will be pain
Faliseus: and nothing will be relief
Faliseus: the fires will haunt you for eternity
Faliseus: and he will STILL,
Faliseus: be laughing
Faliseus: as you FOOL yourself now
Faliseus: he is smiling behind the veils of his lies
Faliseus: and
“who is, my coffin?”
Faliseus: as you fool yourself now,
Faliseus: you will NEVER see what will become of your life
“well I’M out”
Faliseus: you have given everything to a heart of tin
Faliseus: cold
Faliseus: nothingness
Faliseus: you’re burnt
Faliseus: I've warned you already
“I’m out”
“ok, I'll take it into consideration”
Faliseus: at least now,
Faliseus: you CANT say I DIDN’T warn you.
Faliseus: considerations are NOTHING
Faliseus: fire is quicker than a consideration
Faliseus: a DECISION is made
Faliseus: you CHOOSE the fire
Faliseus: or you DON’T
“ok, I have to go”
Faliseus: the fire
Faliseus: my heart speaks of it’s heat
---was a conversation copied WORD for WORD a couple of days BEFORE the World Trade Center collapsed. A message that was preached to someone about ‘hell’, online.
to the top93.) Names and Meanings: Shorter is Closer
"What's in a name?"-Shakespeare
it's easier to be as universally defined as God is in control of the universe. When they say "the one true God" they MEAN, in your definition, O. O. B.
When I say God, I mean "the one true God". So it's transitive in definition, but when the words are LONGER, they are just FURTHER away from the heart and it's like they're 'untouchable' or something.
That's why I keep it simple and say God (no abbreviations or anything), because God is close to my heart as I remain faithful in him as he touches my heart every second.
"What in
your words is the nature of God?"
Brotherly love, to love all through Jesus, the great teacher and son of God chosen to free us from
our sins and faith in God to guide us to love and fullness of the heart.
Here’s why the other ’sects’ of ’Christianity’ fight...
For one, they are NOT Christians because Christ is NEVER a fighter. He’s just a LOVER and a FORGIVER.
see #41.) ‘The BLACK HOLE of Pride’
They're not 'happy' or 'satisfied'. They're just brothers fighting over who gets to ride in the front seat of the car.
Me... I'm just happy that I get to RIDE in the car. God is the pilot and will punish those brothers for fighting if they cannot forgive each other.
"the Lord is my shepard and I shall not want" -that is a matter of happiness
An example:
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“I’m right” “you’re wrong”
Faliseus: There’s 2 things you can believe on this earth. You can believe you’re right or you can believe you’re happy.
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see #5.) ‘The Meaning of Life:’
see #7.) ‘Perfection’
see #8.) ‘ALIVE’
see #23.) ‘Forgetting Things’
see #26.) ‘Pressure on Earth’
see #27.) ‘Swaying Young Tree’
see #28.) ‘My BRACE’
see #33.) ‘God’s Smile for God’s Work’
see #50.) ‘Jesus Loves Us ALL’
see #63.) ‘HOW I KNOW’
94.) WHO Jesus Prayed To
“If it's the difference between God and Jesus it could be helpful to think of God as the trinity. Three parts making one God. These parts consisting of God the father (Jehovah), God the Son (Jesus), and God the Spirit (the Holy Ghost). They are three parts of the same God.
When Jesus prayed, He prayed to His Father, God/Jehovah, because, while on earth, Jesus was separated from his Father for the first time, ever (see Genesis chapter 2 "let US make man in OUR own image").
His praying was like one of us calling our parents. We do it to show we love them and are thinking about them and that is, in a large part, the purpose of why we still pray today. He also prayed because He led His people by example. And, unlike some other religions, His people refers to anyone who cares to believe in Him. Hope that helps.”
-Ryan H.
to the top95.) SORROW
“I’m sorry”
Faliseus: no worries
“okay”
“okay”
Faliseus: you’ve got to learn to limit the amount of times you say you’re sorry
Faliseus: because it's a waste of life to say you’re sorry
Faliseus: time is precious
Faliseus: sorries are meaningless
Faliseus: just live life
Faliseus: don’t be sorry for it
Faliseus: sorries make us feel sorry and sad
Faliseus: how often do you see me say I'm sorry?
“I don‘t know”
Faliseus: that’s part of the reason I'm happier and ‘chin-up’ all the time
“why”
Faliseus: because I stray from sorrow for my actions
Faliseus: even when I'm bored, out of my mind and tired of things but ‘hopeful‘,
Faliseus: I still don’t say I'm sorry
Faliseus: I'm just being myself and I cant be sorry for that
Faliseus: it's good advice for happiness if you ask me
Faliseus: instead of being SORRY...
Faliseus: be HOPEFUL and ASK for ‘forgiveness’
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“sorry *laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: one thing I'm SICK of hearing is those girls that are always sorry
Faliseus: I don't understand it:-)
“alright *laugh out loud*”
“I guess I'm like that”
“do you want to know why?”
Faliseus: yeah
Faliseus: :-)
“well at least the reason why I do it, is because I'm afraid of what someone would think or scare them and I want to be polite”
“and I guess I say I'm sorry a lot, but of course the more mistakes you do the more you say sorry”
Faliseus: politeness, isn't through sorrow, unless someone has died, then that's respectfulness
“I don't know how to explain it, I just do it for some reason”
Faliseus: politeness, is LIMITING the amount of opportunities you have to SAY you're sorry
Faliseus: that way, when you SAY you're sorry, it MEANS more
Faliseus: because you say it less
“true”
to the top96.) What PURPOSES You Don’t UNDERSTAND to BELIEVE
"But I have to state that man wrote the Bible."
It doesn’t matter HOW it was written. It matters WHY it was written. To me, the Bible, just like any other book, is a book of reference. It‘s a book that offers ideas that can teach you ways to live WISER.
The bible explains ways of how we can live a healthier and happier life. I give credit where it is due.
"I admire your faith, but the idea of three separate things all being
referred to as one is nonsensical to me."
"Maybe I'm blinded by my skepticism,
but the idea that Jesus can be equated to God, come on. One begat the other."
God, the father, we have not met. Jesus we have met and should know very well.
Metaphorically, Jesus is everybody. Brothers and sisters alike, struggling against the unfaithful for a common vision, simple, blind, faith and happiness. The Holy Spirit is the thing that flows through us when we pray and miracles happen. Idealistically, I see the holy spirit as God's hand and Jesus as the older wiser brother or as a ‘role model‘.
God's ways are not our ways. We don’t understand how God does things and I'm not going to worry about asking God until I get to heaven. Until then, I'm going to rely faithful in my brothers and sisters, to guide me to heaven. Makes sense.
"Jesus’ message is wonderful, but to believe that the only way to an
afterlife is believing that Jesus is the Messiah or the son of God, I might have to side with the Jewish faith on this one."
Jesus IS the son of God. We’re ALL sons and daughters of God! He was flawless and loving on earth and he gave us some foundational good ideas on how to live to be more content.
Either way you look at it, you'll be going to an afterlife. Hell is real. I fear going there. Hell is made up of the fires of doubt, guilt, pain, hate, desire (ect.). I believe it’s as real as you make it. It’s as real as you aren’t prepared to accept the fact that it is.
I stray from doubt by believing in, my brothers and sisters, to keep me from Hell by giving me Comfort and Company.
I stray from guilt by having faith that, my brothers and sisters, will always carry me in the right direction if I fall and ask them to help me.
I stray from pain by remembering what, my brothers and sisters, have went through to love me and praying for them to help me recover.
I stray from hate by remembering what, my brothers and sisters, have taught me about love in their life on Earth.
I stray from desire by remembering all we need is love, my brothers and sisters are there always for me.
"I'm sorry Jeremy, I'm
feeling mean-spirited and argumentative today because of what has happened
in New York City."
Having faith in my family keeps me calm always. They are in my heart and I can be controlled by no rage. The looks that were in my eyes BEFORE I knew simple blind faith are NOT there anymore and all there is a happy, faithful, loving person who doesn't reject his best friend and only PROMOTES what he has done for me through my testimony.
The idea that we REJECT someone so close, after depending in them for SO LONG
....that is truly heartbreaking. To receive what you‘ve asked for, then you are not thankful and accepting of the memory of the family who’s raised you, is like asking for your grandfather to be beaten and forgotten, as he watches your back in heaven.
To REMEMBER is to LOVE. To HONOR is to LOVE. To RECOGNIZE is to HONOR. I recognize the memory of my family as I love and honor them to teach me wisdom.
We ALL forget.
To go alone is FORGETFUL and not a wise thing, but to go with witnesses and family is to remember. Together we stand and fighting we fall. The humbled are the great teachers of all wisdoms, HUMBLED before God, in order to be content and happy.
The God of True unconditional love and True life. The ONE TRUE GOD.
to the top97.) People Are STUPID
Faliseus: war is dumb
Faliseus: people are dumb
Faliseus: but a person is smart
Faliseus: problem is
Faliseus: persons listen to people
Faliseus: and you have the final result
“yea it is.....but we have to defend ourselves and its clear that we won't get anywhere by talking about it”
Faliseus: I've heard many things but they all remind me of the 2 ends--
Faliseus: I'll either live happily or die foolishly
“what do you mean”
Faliseus: the possible 'draft'
Faliseus: sometimes I wish I wasn’t a man
“ohhhhh..........please don't talk about that I have two brothers“
Faliseus: I have a brother and a sister
Faliseus: the thing about this country we've all been missing is communication
Faliseus: fear of what’s bad
Faliseus: and misunderstanding of it
“well I have 6 sisters but I don't think that they can be forced to fight”
“yea I know”
Faliseus: because we've never talked about what was bad and explained it
Faliseus: misunderstandings cause all of the world’s grief
Faliseus: because the world doesn’t have a heart
Faliseus: they've got a head
Faliseus: hearts have faith
Faliseus: heads think and assume things partially and imperfectly
Faliseus: the mind is made to destroy itself
Faliseus: but
Faliseus: the world doesn’t have it's heart in it's head
Faliseus: so there's hate and misunderstandings there
Faliseus: and NO FAITH or LOVE
Faliseus: people are stupid
Faliseus: a person is smart
“well of course, because the heart is where is the soul is and the soul lives on even after the brain has finished working”
Faliseus: schools emphasize on the 'powers' of the mind
Faliseus: but they FORGET the powers of love
Faliseus: through our great tragedies, like war and times of worry,
Faliseus: minds forget to remember the heart
Faliseus: hearts remember the people that make the mind
Faliseus: “prayer
Faliseus: and remembrance” from the heart is LIFE
Faliseus: Forgetting about life is DEATH
Faliseus: “Prayer and Remembrance” is important EVERYDAY of LIFE
to the top97b.) PARAPHRASE of People Are STUPID
Faliseus: people are stupid when grouped together
“that’s not nice”
Faliseus: that's why I always tried being the loner
Faliseus: it's the truth
Faliseus: social groups are always trying to 'cut' people from the 'club'
“oh?”
Faliseus: yes
“never thought of it that way”
Faliseus: that's why they're 'grouped'
Faliseus: not together, but apart
Faliseus: but after school, when they all split up,
Faliseus: they aren't very good at meeting new people, because of it
“oh?”
“hmm”
Faliseus: if you think about it, yeah
“I guess I have never really thought bout it that way”
to the top98.) FALSE Sense of Security
Faliseus: one thing about 'security'....
Faliseus: there's no such thing as security
Faliseus: we may FEEL ‘insecure’ or we may FEEL 'secure'
Faliseus: but there's no such thing as BEING secure on earth.
Faliseus: there's a guarantee of love though
Faliseus: through faith
Faliseus: people shouldn’t be RE active in fear
Faliseus: they should be PRO active in 'no' fear
Faliseus: something is there whether we 'see' it or not
Faliseus: but we can't be afraid of it
Faliseus: we've got to understand it and be open minded.
to the top99.) Kill the Bastards
“I know, but you have to agree”
Faliseus: I don’t agree with judgement of the people
Faliseus: it's easier to swat flies with honey than it is with vinegar
Faliseus: the only thing that comes out of me is hope and love
“uhh”
Faliseus: vinegar stings when it's poured out
“na-uh, it stinks”
Faliseus: as our target isn’t something that is near us
Faliseus: we're using the wrong weapons
Faliseus: the real pollution is what comes from the mouth
“not necessarily”
Faliseus: what we say is what pollutes the air
Faliseus: what we do is what we say and are trained to think about
Faliseus: I'm never trained to think about war
“well, don't you think it's necessary now? they used weapons, we can't just sing a happy song to make them go away”
Faliseus: I think of building, hope and love and spread that message and have that focus.
Faliseus: to focus on eliminating terrorism is a good thing
Faliseus: but to focus on hating the people is a bad thing
Faliseus: "hate the sin but love the sinner"
Faliseus: don’t hate both
Faliseus: "forgive them, they know not what they do."
Faliseus: of course there's a lesson and a price to everything
Faliseus: but don’t drop to someone else's level
Faliseus: that’s what people want when they want a fight
Faliseus: turmoil
“you are to easy on people, you need to show anger, the world isn't heaven you know”
“we can't all be innocent and not do anything”
Faliseus: and it isn’t hell either
Faliseus: I keep in mind that everything I throw comes back to me in the end
“they fricking attacked our country, they deserve everything they are getting and will get”
Faliseus: let me ask you something...
Faliseus: have you ever made a mistake?
Faliseus: have a misunderstanding with someone?
Faliseus: do you deserve to die and be hated because you've done such a thing?
Faliseus: as Germany was the prime location for WW2
Faliseus: we don’t hate the Germans
Faliseus: we've forgiven them
Faliseus: we're fighting for peace
Faliseus: not to hate someone
Faliseus: the reason we were attacked is because THEY hated US.
Faliseus: and THEY thought WE 'deserved' everything we got.
Faliseus: to hate a hater isn’t going to solve anything
Faliseus: to eliminate hate and love a lover through peace and tranquility is.
Faliseus: our fight is for peace.
Faliseus: that’s why I don’t hate
Faliseus: I care in a wise way
Faliseus: Love isn't worth fighting over.
Faliseus: It's worth fighting FOR.
to the top100.)DON’T Kill the Bastards
Faliseus: to end another person’s life w/out giving them time to LEARN from their mistakes and time to ASK for forgiveness....
Faliseus: is irrational.
Faliseus: we all deserve something for our mistakes
“I just don’t understand why someone must have the need to slaughter innocents”
Faliseus: but the one thing above all we deserve is a LESSON.
Faliseus: "forgive them, they know not what they do"
Faliseus: but to TEACH and UNDERSTAND is a POWERFUL tool against corruption and irrationality
Faliseus: don’t kill your answer
Faliseus: learn from it
“yes”
“justice must be served, but so must education”
Faliseus: I've strived for wisdom all my life
Faliseus: one thing I've known is that you must learn from your mistakes and ACCEPT them and ask only that you’re FORGIVEN for them
Faliseus: to build in the future
to the top101.) WRONG and RIGHT Don’t Exist
“it’s ALWAYS worth looking back, reflecting on your own life to see where you went wrong”
“and then try to go right from there on”
Faliseus: ‘misunderstood’ or ‘misguided’ are words I like to use instead of 'wrong'
Faliseus: because when you use the word 'WRONG' it's like you can’t do anything after that
“true, the context of its definition is limiting”
Faliseus: when ‘understanding’ and ‘guiding’ are constants
Faliseus: as LIFE is a constant
Faliseus: right and wrong are end results
“they are”
Faliseus: I was never wrong and I was never right
Faliseus: but I STRIVE to be right
Faliseus: guiding and understanding closer to righteousness as my end result
Faliseus: God is the judge of mistakes
to the top102.) Aim PAST the Stars
Faliseus: Most people say,
Faliseus: "AIM for the stars."
Faliseus: I say,
Faliseus: "Aim PAST the stars."
Faliseus: One of my popular phrases,
Faliseus: "It's good that you're a step ahead, but I'm a whole STAIRCASE above you."
Faliseus: Great motivation of faith in my steps.
Faliseus: AIM for what you CAN’T see
Faliseus: Wouldn’t you agree?
Faliseus: I like a challenge
Faliseus: because it just makes things EASIER for me to do in the end.
Faliseus: it's like 'believing' that you can do something that's 'never' been imagined and not just aiming for a visible goal, but going for something more grand
to the top103.) TOO Awesome Dude
“you’re awesome dude”
Faliseus: you don’t know HOW many times I've heard that
Faliseus: and how many people have ran from me and came back
“;-)”
“really?”
“why?”
Faliseus: yup
Faliseus: because they were overwhelmed by TOO MUCH KNOWLEDGE
Faliseus: 'doubt' starts forming in the mind
“true,”
Faliseus: people just 'forget' what they've learned.
Faliseus: they're just FOCUSED on their MINDS,
“or other parts..”
Faliseus: and 'not' their hearts.
Faliseus: sometimes I'm too good to be true w/some people
to the top104.) To BECOME a Great Person
Faliseus: it all comes with aiming PAST the stars and remaining humble with an open heart
Faliseus: not COMPARING yourself to something, but OVERSHOOTING what’s visible
“to be an amazing person ... hmm... you’ve got something”
Faliseus: drive and an unreachable goal
“unreachable ... I don’t know ... nothing is unreachable if you try hard enough”
Faliseus: to be PERFECT and to be WISE
“and you obviously have the drive”
“and desire”
Faliseus: it's impossible to do those things in life
to the top105.) Strive for TRUE wisdom
Faliseus: that's why the best always changes
“perfect doesn’t exist”
Faliseus: right
Faliseus: my goal is perfection
“*laugh out loud* :-)”
Faliseus: and wisdom
Faliseus: wisdom doesn’t exist
Faliseus: it's the STRIVE for wisdom that we know
“your goal isn't in existence ... however, if you believe you are perfect than you are”
“wisdom does exist . i beg to differ on that one :-)“
Faliseus: not necessarily
Faliseus: no one is TRULY wise
“perhaps it is the strive that is wisdom”
Faliseus: but to STRIVE for something
Faliseus: and to BE something
Faliseus: are two different things
“true”
“but you must have one to have the other”
Faliseus: I've looked into this deeply and had MANY arguments bout it
“you must have the strive to BE ...”
“:-)”
Faliseus: STRIVE to be
Faliseus: but never BEING
“but who is to say we never reach the BEING?”
Faliseus: not a state of being
Faliseus: right
Faliseus: but in the process
Faliseus: we STRIVE
“in the process yes ... but don’t most processes have a conclusion one way or the other?”
Faliseus: yes
“so if we strive and strive and strive, we eventually BECOME :-)”
Faliseus: Absolute wisdom is when you're perfect
Faliseus: right on
“absolute wisdom is subjective“
Faliseus: what’s subjective again?
“what you think is absolute wisdom may be different than what I think is absolute wisdom“
“wisdom is”
“it is the eye of the beholder kind of thing”
Faliseus: wisdom is life
“how you experience one thing is different than how I experience it but who is to say who is right or wrong?”
Faliseus: wisdom is KNOWLEDGE of ‘how to live life’
Faliseus: no one is right or wrong
Faliseus: just 'mislead' or 'misunderstood' or on the PATH to being right
“life is BEING ... life is REAL... there fore, wisdom must be real”
Faliseus: TRUE wisdom is something we haven't seen yet
Faliseus: wisdom is real
“it’s only your perception of things”
Faliseus: but TRUE wisdom has yet to be taught
Faliseus: I'm speaking fact though
“how can you decipher what is TRUE wisdom and what is not though”
Faliseus: TRUE wisdom is something that has lasted the tests of time
“so it exists then”
Faliseus: birth to burial
Faliseus: TRUE wisdom is something that we don't know while we're alive
Faliseus: we only know wisdom here
“hmm”
“interesting”
Faliseus: regular or unleaded wisdom of life?
Faliseus: impure or pure wisdom of life?
Faliseus: FALSE is Temporary and Changing
Faliseus: in the Process
Faliseus: TRUE is Absolute and Pure
Faliseus: as the End result
“than how can you say TRUE wisdom exists? because if we die ... and go where ever, you know ... how do you know it exists if we never know it while alive”
Faliseus: impure/false wisdom is something that we can have but can change
Faliseus: pure/true wisdom is something we have that is the end result that DOESN’T change
“:-) you captivate me :-)”
Faliseus: the OVERALL wisdom and STRIVE for it into death
Faliseus: to believe in TRUE life after death
Faliseus: TRUE wisdom
Faliseus: "aim PAST the stars" to reach it
Faliseus: those who say they ARE wise are ‘ignorant of the truth’
to the top106.) Definition of the Right Person
Faliseus: my definition of the right person is.....
Faliseus: someone that is Comfortable and not Overwhelmed, someone that is Content and not Worried, someone that is Open and not Closed
“good definition :-) you have done an incredible amount of searching”
Faliseus: Most people I’ve met were Overwhelmed, Worried and Closed to by my personality and character
“you know what you want”
Faliseus: 20 years
Faliseus: I want what I need
Faliseus: I don't always know what i need
“and you need what you want :-)”
“no one does”
Faliseus: I don't need what I want
Faliseus: a WANT is more expansive
Faliseus: a NEED is something narrowed and accurate
“very true”
Faliseus: I want to be narrowed and accurate
Faliseus: I don't narrow myself to be more expansive
Faliseus: so I want what I NEED
Faliseus: Not need what I WANT
to the top107.) GO into the House YOURSELF
Faliseus: we don't know for sure
Faliseus: words are the handle of the door to the heart
Faliseus: a stare into the eyes is a stare into the window
Faliseus: but you can't see everything through a window
Faliseus: you've got to open a door with the words
Faliseus: and step in the home
Faliseus: we can't just look at the house all day and wonder what's going on in there.
Faliseus: we've got to knock.
Faliseus: good
Faliseus: keep in mind,
Faliseus: that when we go into the house
Faliseus: we've got to see more than the living room:-)
to the top108.) ANXIETY
“but no one understands the extent of my anxiety”
Faliseus: I've got anxiety
Faliseus: all I can do is hope with it
Faliseus: worrying is NOTHING compared to hope
Faliseus: ‘HOPE’ makes you feel BETTER
Faliseus: ‘WORRY’ makes you feel DOWN
Faliseus: when you ‘hope’ for someone to come to you...
Faliseus: they see that you 'feel better' that you’re a 'happy hopeful' person and they want to talk to you.
Faliseus: when you ‘worry’ for someone to come to you...
Faliseus: they see that you 'feel depressed' that you're a 'sad hopeless' person and they want to STAY AWAY from you.
Faliseus: I know all this because I've went through this MANY times.
Faliseus: worry is like a repellent of things we wish to love
Faliseus: the longer we wait, the more wise and appreciative we become and the stronger relationship we form.
Faliseus: you’ve just got to be happy with what you've got
Faliseus: and hope for the best
Faliseus: what will worrying do for you?
Faliseus: “focus on your work and your reward will come to you at the right time”
Faliseus: you need a focus, that’s all
Faliseus: "to get away from emptiness, you've got to come closer to fullness"
Faliseus: Learn to love your work
Faliseus: and it'll feel excellent to know that you love your work
Faliseus: AND you love your reward.
to the top109.) Questions Behind CLOSED DOORS
“GOOD BYE! I‘m LEAVING NOW!! and I mean it!!”
Faliseus: the doors you close are the doors you'll never be able to open
Faliseus: a WEAKNESS
“why is that a weakness?”
Faliseus: close this door and you'll be WEAK to me and my presence
“why would I be weak to some one I don’t know?”
Faliseus: open the door and you'll LEARN how to be STRONGER
Faliseus: because we are afraid of the things we DON’T understand
“I couldn’t agree with you more”
Faliseus: asking questions behind closed doors...
Faliseus: drives us to rage and MORE misunderstanding,
Faliseus: many people only hear what they WANT and not what they NEED
Faliseus: solid proof is THERE
Faliseus: they just cant ACCEPT it
Faliseus: funny and sad
Faliseus: sometimes people don’t want proof
Faliseus: sometimes people just want a chance to tell someone they’re wrong and laugh, instead of being SERIOUS
Faliseus: BUT here’s some PROOF:
Faliseus: miracles
Faliseus: the FIRST spark of life
Faliseus: WHAT IS LIGHT?
Faliseus: WHAT state of matter IS FIRE?
Faliseus: WHY are the faithful happy and fulfilled and the non believers hateful and despaired?
Faliseus: sometimes questions like these will make people want to ‘close their doors’
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Faliseus: you never let me answer your question.....you asked,
Faliseus: "why should I bother understanding you",
Faliseus: HERE IS the TRUE and HONEST ANSWER that you DIDN'T want to hear......
Faliseus: "knowledge gained by faith is not just power. it's also a defense, because it's what you DON'T understand that can hurt you the most. That's why you HAVE to learn the wisdom of learning. To PROTECT your life through taking criticism and understanding yourself, so that you don't HURT yourself, from what you DIDN'T KNOW about yourself or others."
Faliseus: so by telling you things that you have never known,
Faliseus: I am respecting your security....with my HONESTY.
Faliseus: but I suppose I should just be disrespectful and LIE to you then shouldn't I?
Faliseus: that would CERTAINLY be the WISER thing to do....wouldn't you agree?
Faliseus: yes, I'll LIE to you, if that's what you want me to do...
Faliseus: I’m sure doing it your way would be the ‘happier way’.
Faliseus: but no....I will never lie...I will never stoop that low.
Faliseus: whether or not, you speak with me or not, you will always be in my heart.
and my last words will always be....love you, and I hope for the best, whatever you do in life.
Faliseus: but I URGE you to keep yours open as my heart will always be open for you
Faliseus: If truth is something that we haven't seen,
Faliseus: and I haven't seen you love and respect me,
Faliseus: then
Faliseus: one day you will truly love and respect me.
to the top110.) Pray for Someone ELSE
“I can’t pray for myself” “I’m not important” “I’m hopeless” “go help THEM instead”
Faliseus: when most people pray they're afraid to ask God
Faliseus: people think that they have to punish themselves for God.
Faliseus: ask for too little.
Faliseus: not believe that He's there for them.
Faliseus: mainly because they're afraid of failure,
Faliseus: but more importantly, afraid of success.
Faliseus: we're all God's children.
Faliseus: and He loves us ALL
Faliseus: so what relationship would that hurt any way?
“what would hurt?”
Faliseus: He's already there for you.
Faliseus: your image, your social life,
“yeah...”
Faliseus: your family life, the way you think, the way you dress,
Faliseus: everything.
Faliseus: but that's really not how it works at all.
“how does it then?”
Faliseus: You don't change from Cinderella the maid to Cinderella the princess.
Faliseus: you are the same person.
Faliseus: you're just doing what's natural.
Faliseus: letting God, your good friend that always watches you, help you like He wants to help you.
“yeah”
Faliseus: God wants the same things that we want.
Faliseus: peace,
Faliseus: love,
“yeah I know”
Faliseus: and achieving your goals.
Faliseus: He wants YOU to be happy like someone ELSE needs to be happy
Faliseus: that’s why you should pray for yourself as well as others
to the top111.) STRUCTURED WALL of TAP w/Faith and Devil is Compromise
Faliseus: now that's where I started TAP with faith
Faliseus: here's what you're doing when you do that.
Faliseus: think of Thank Ask Pray as your bricks for the wall that you're building.
Faliseus: and think of faith as the thing that holds those bricks on.
Faliseus: what are we building a wall for?
Faliseus: to keep compromise (the devil) out of sight and out of mind.
Faliseus: because (I went through some simple Algebra for this) compromise causes a loss of focus,
Faliseus: loss of focus leads to worry,
Faliseus: worry leads to confusion,
Faliseus: (by then you've already forgot what you want in life.)
Faliseus: confusion leads to either insanity or rage or something not controlled by us
Faliseus: now, for the wall.
Faliseus: TAP is the bricks of the wall to keep the demons out from tempting us to compromise..
Faliseus: now when you first start to tap it's going to be hard to do.
Faliseus: I'll put this in another perspective.
Faliseus: imagine there is you on one side of a property line and on the other side is the devil.
Faliseus: In my studies the devil cannot touch you but he can tempt you through your thoughts.
Faliseus: the devil will always try to peek over the fence like a nosy neighbor.
Faliseus: trying to sell you something that's 'better' than what your Father in heaven has.
Faliseus: well you see.
Faliseus: if you make the fence higher and higher by tapping, then there's less likely a chance that he will sell you anything because you're now focused on talking to your Family which you know cares about you.
Faliseus: One thing that I've ran into is people that do 'that thing'
“yeah I know”
Faliseus: you'll see from far away that their fence is up high but when you go up next to it and talk about compromise, it falls right over.
Faliseus: I asked myself, what's the problem with their fence?
Faliseus: what made it fall down so easily?
Faliseus: then I said Thanking god is good, Asking him for wisdom and guidance is good and Praying for other people is good ('help one another as you would help me'-Jesus)
Faliseus: what's missing?
Faliseus: FAITH
Faliseus: you remember what I said was in faith?
“yes”
Faliseus: faithful are those mountain lion cubs that came back to their mother through:
“exactly”
“so its about persistence and endurance”
Faliseus: tolerances.... unconditional love, patience (the biggest one), wisdom ect.
Faliseus: faith.
Faliseus: you cake layers of faith onto those bricks they're not going anywhere.
Faliseus: although starting out is still rough.
“yeah it is”
Faliseus: but finishing and talking to your Best Friend in the end is what we're all after.
“I'm inhibited by a lot of things”
“yeah...”
Faliseus: One thing not to forget though is that Jesus is saviour, because,
Faliseus: he was God's pure born son that He chose to do His work of forgiveness.
Faliseus: When I build my wall I think of Jesus as the foreman, who is all faithful and does what God wants, and me as His under worker.
Faliseus: but don't get me wrong....
Faliseus: I don't work 'under' Jesus I work 'with' Him.
“it’s more comfortable that way”
Faliseus: it's not just the comfort, it's that We both have the same job.
Faliseus: and the same faith
to the top112.) TOOLS: FOR and AGAINST One Foot Apart
Faliseus: MOST thoughts are doubts from the head that speak to you. That is Satan's tool, it's Less than a foot away from God's tool.
Faliseus: Satan's tool is the brain and thoughts,
Faliseus: God's tool is the heart and loving all of your brothers and sisters.
Faliseus: Your brain won't be filled with love, though, just confused and angry.
Faliseus: Confused and angry, only to destroy itself or RUN AWAY.
Faliseus: We can't see the brain, we can't see the Devil's doubts and confusion.
Faliseus: We can't see the heart, we can't see God's love filling it.
Faliseus: don’t THINK and ASSUME bad/angry/deceptive things
Faliseus: that’s why you must LISTEN
Faliseus: to HEAR what your heart is telling you ALWAYS
Faliseus: so that your heart FILLS with LOVE, UNDERSTANDING and FAITH
Faliseus: and your brain is EMPTY of HATE, DOUBT and WORRY
to the top113.) Use What WORKS
Faliseus: I told someone I loved them and they got mad but I did it more
“why'd you keep doing it, then, if they told you they were mad?”
Faliseus: to love isn't bad
Faliseus: to hate is too sad
Faliseus: that's why
Faliseus: I've learned not to let people get me down and to always keep a smiling, loving attitude
Faliseus: that's some wisdom
“yeah, but people take it the wrong way. you should also respect how they feel. if they don't want you to say it, you shouldn't”
Faliseus: I'll say what I need to say
Faliseus: it isn't a crime to love somebody
Faliseus: but there are MANY crimes of hate
Faliseus: use what works
Faliseus: I do what is NEEDED, not what is WANTED, that's what's different about me.
“I didn't say it was a crime to love someone. but you’re saying it obviously didn't work, did it?“
Faliseus: it always works
Faliseus: I'm just saying this person was mad at me every time I said it because this person had a hard time saying it back.
Faliseus: but I'm just drilling into the heart always
“yeah, because it's hard to say "I love you" to someone you've never met”
Faliseus: I'm unconditional w/my love
Faliseus: I have no reason to hate
Faliseus: and I'm certainly not going to stand in the middle of the two
Faliseus: so I choose to use what works....
Faliseus: To LOVE through UNDERSTANDING and having FAITH
to the top114.) BE yourself
Faliseus: you'll find that people will ALL respect you if you give them respect.
Faliseus: I was hated and disrespected by EVERYONE in school
Faliseus: I had next to zero friends most of the time
Faliseus: I just had to find a way to be happier.
Faliseus: BE yourself.
Faliseus: BE pronounced.
“and there'll always be the people that can’t handle it and I’ll have to move on and forget about them”
Faliseus: BE fearless.
Faliseus: don't FORGET about them
Faliseus: otherwise you'll just BECOME them
Faliseus: REMEMBER them and always have them in your heart till the time they become better people
Faliseus: that's what I've done
“I know! I’ve already become a lot of what I hate already though”
Faliseus: there isn't ONE person that hates me.
Faliseus: so stop it.
Faliseus: and start being yourself and honest.
Faliseus: free yourself and you'll become free
Faliseus: "the idea, a breath and a move"
Faliseus: that's how I got through school being myself and I LOVED it.
Faliseus: and it only made me STRONGER SMARTER FASTER and RESPECTABLE by ALL.
Faliseus: people HATE a lie
Faliseus: people LOVE the truth
Faliseus: when you lie, you get smacked twice.
Faliseus: when you tell the truth, you get smacked once.
Faliseus: truth hurts
“yes it does, I’ve been on both sides of that”
Faliseus: but not as much as the lie that's covering of it
Faliseus: so be yourself and tell the truth
to the top115.) Laughing and Drinking chatting w/Alyssa
Alyssa“you need to drink with me :-) I bet you have never been drunk in your life :-)”
Faliseus: I've been wasted before
Faliseus: I get myself drunk with laughter
Faliseus: I'm not much of a beer man anymore.
“*laugh out loud* :-)”
Alyssa“you’re drinking with me sometime :-) *laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: laughing pretty much knocks me on my butt better than a Killian's or a Molson could any day.;-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: *falls down from laughing out loud*
Faliseus: see?
Faliseus: it’s working already
Faliseus: hee hee
Alyssa“*laugh out loud*:-)”
Faliseus: and laughter doesn't take a chunk out of my pay check
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: I only laugh when I GET my pay check
Faliseus: then I cry when I open it.
Faliseus: :-(
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: :-)
there you go Alyssa, now you're IMMORTALIZED...:)
to the top116.) HONESTY
Faliseus: honesty is important
Faliseus: that's love
Faliseus: honesty is TRUST
Faliseus: to forgive and forget the pain
Faliseus: to tell someone 'why' they shouldn‘t be angry at each other
Faliseus: people make some bad mistakes
Faliseus: stay true to your words....
Faliseus: ask for forgiveness
Faliseus: but as HONESTY doesn't 'justify' anything..
Faliseus: it REVEALS that you STILL want and need TRUST
Faliseus: to relate that both people made a mistake and ran into a misunderstanding and fighting doesn't solve anything
Faliseus: that’s REAL TRUST
Faliseus: BECAUSE if there’s no FAITH or UNDERSTANDING
Faliseus: there’s no bond
Faliseus: we need hope, and less doubt.
Faliseus: love and less hate
Faliseus: honesty provides us with that
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“I did something in the past that’s caught up with me and I really don’t know what I should do.”
“Should I tell them it was me?”
Faliseus: a lie will hurt more than the truth
and well, who would want to live with a liar anyways?
Faliseus: if I was a liar........I couldn't live with MYSELF
Faliseus: just start being truthful.
Faliseus: the truth is where you will always stand and always fall, so what's it going to hurt?
“so you'd confess and just take the consequences? that does seem like the best thing.”
Faliseus: you learn things in life FASTER, if you can ADMIT to learning them
“I know it's the best thing. It's going to be really hard because my family is going to feel betrayed.”
Faliseus: you have the leverage.......the truth, the courage to tell it, and the courage to face the consequences
Faliseus: 'full leverage'
“Yeah, that's true. I need to tell them, it'd be better than them finding out about it the hard way.”
“I should have never even did it, but I need to deal with it now.”
Faliseus: the past is the past and the time for the truth is now....remember that.
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OVERALL..........
“HONESTY IS DUMB”
Faliseus: understand that the only purpose for honesty is so that others will be stomped into the ground for being deceitful
Faliseus: What I mean by ‘stomped into the ground’ is to be stomped into the solid, sturdy and supportive ground.....of ‘truth/reality of humanity/common ground’.
Faliseus: Common ground and a STURDY and RELIABLE reality keeps us further away from ‘stress’, ‘worry’, ‘hate’, ‘other liars/cheaters/thieves’........ and common ground, through honesty, will get us CLOSER to a ‘stress free’, ‘worry free’, ‘hate free’ environment with VERY trustworthy people to RELY on.
Faliseus: Why should we be honest?
Faliseus: We should be honest to have a tighter grip and understanding on reality and life in order to more fully understand our own perspective and direction.
Faliseus: We should be honest to be able to cope with life’s problems as they come along and become more complex.
Faliseus: We should be honest ALSO to be able to understand ourselves AND others ‘better’ than we do now.
Faliseus: Honesty will prepare us for the future and will give us a sturdy ground to walk on.
Faliseus: As honesty is NOT dumb for those above reasons, we start to think,
Faliseus: “well what IS ‘dumb’?”
Faliseus: my perspective is that ‘IGNORANCE’ is dumb because an “Ignorant” person would therefore blind themselves from the beautiful texture of our common ground as humans. That ignorant person wouldn‘t have a REALITY of their own, but a ‘DISHONEST‘ and deceitful perspective with no common ground to rely on.
Faliseus: NO RELIABILITIES or REALITIES through NOT being honest will lead a horse off of a cliff without that horse even knowing it because that horse would‘ve just been lying to itself the whole entire time about there being no cliff. Lying so often that horse being ‘ignorant‘, that horse has just lost a very valuable life.....it‘s own.
Faliseus: When a person is ignorant of the truth, or is in hatred of it, that person will miss out on his/her own truths, his/her own dreams and his/her own perspectives. That person will miss out on those things because that ignorant person is in DISBELIEF of their own relativity and THEREFORE, will ‘FORGET’ their OWN DIRECTION.
Faliseus: We don’t need to lie to make life go ’out of balance’ because for one......
Faliseus: We have other liars that make the problems in life complex.
Faliseus: For two, another fact is life in general has enough problems without lying because different people have a ‘different’ perspective/label on the ‘same’ things. Even the HONEST are MISUNDERSTOOD and forgetful.
Faliseus: We should be honest to be happier because we are all corrupted by forgetfulness and blind desire but we are blessed with forgiveness and a community to be thankful for.
Faliseus: Life and the common ground of life found through honesty, is an art, best experienced and/or exhibited when BELIEVED and LOVED.
Faliseus: I love you :-)
to the top117.) HONESTLY Talk About It
“when I get ticked I don’t talk TO ANYBODY”
Faliseus: yeah
Faliseus: it's hard
Faliseus: but it's important to talk
Faliseus: I understand completely
“I know”
“but it’s just a habit”
Faliseus: I just think about what would happen if I DIDN'T talk to anybody
Faliseus: then I'd be MORE ticked if I didn't talk to someone
“I guess”
Faliseus: because I KNOW I'd get myself into a bigger mess and I'd just feel MORE guilty and it'd be harder and harder EVERY TIME I had the chance to talk to someone
Faliseus: so I just talk the FIRST time and AVOID the guilt and pain
“yea”
Faliseus: sometimes talking is even more simple than we think it will be
Faliseus: and sometimes it's difficult to talk
Faliseus: but we grow a bit each time
Faliseus: and it's a shocker
Faliseus: you ought to try it sometime
Faliseus: that's how I understand this much about this stuff
to the top118.) WORTHLESS
“and I’m not good at anything, I’m just a worthless piece of crap”
Faliseus: you’re not worthless
Faliseus: you can't say that unless you've KNOWN everything and every person on the planet and in the universe
Faliseus: until you know everything...
Faliseus: you honestly can't say you’re worthless
Faliseus: because in that case I would be a worthless piece of crap too.
Faliseus: things aren't going good for me
Faliseus: but why say things are going ‘bad’ when I don’t really KNOW how BAD they can get?
“maybe I don’t think I’m a worthless piece of crap, but everyone else does, so what I think doesn't really matter anyway”
Faliseus: it's what you ‘know’ that MATTERS
Faliseus: I know you shouldn’t beat yourself up just cause someone 'thinks' something about you
Faliseus: you shouldn’t do that
Faliseus: THEY don't know,
Faliseus: but YOU know
Faliseus: I know you're a great person
“I really want to go someplace but I refuse to go and associate with any people who I know will bother me and ask why I've ran away and locked myself in”
Faliseus: you’ve just got to take a second glance
Faliseus: that's all
Faliseus: and so do they
Faliseus: they don't know you like YOU know you
Faliseus: they have no right to judge you
Faliseus: but you can't let people get the best of you, because the best part of you is the part they're AFRAID of
Faliseus: confidence
Faliseus: style
Faliseus: strut
Faliseus: smile
Faliseus: and above all...
Faliseus: no worries
Faliseus: if there's anyone that knows this, than that's me
Faliseus: I've had to practice getting respect my entire life
to the top119.) Friend Equals Cushion
Faliseus: *here's a hug*
“thank you”
“hugs are always the best :-)”
Faliseus: That's what friends are for.
Faliseus: They're the pillows, on top of this cold and hard rock we call life.
Faliseus: the more you have, the better a resting spot life becomes.
Faliseus: It's good to have a STURDY pillow though.
Faliseus: not one that'll pamper you so much that it'll drive you insane and you 'sink right in'
Faliseus: not someone to 'fall into'
Faliseus: but
Faliseus: someone to 'lean on' and to ‘hold us up’ when we fall
to the top120.) 'Typical’ Youngster
Faliseus: crawling to stand
Faliseus: standing to walk
Faliseus: walking to carry
Faliseus: carrying to be carried
Faliseus: then to fall and rest
Faliseus: day to day that's our quest
dying slowly,
go on quickly.
must go on...
must go on...
I cannot breathe..
but I can see the light,
my legs are givin out on me.
walk to stumble, until I crawl,
crawling to the crater inside of me.
I walk to stand.
the ground is rumbling.
I am here, my friend,
stumbling to my feet and off my knees.
Feel the energy pulsing,
as I begin to stare...
into the clouds and the mist,
as if it’s blown a kiss.
There is something there.
rise slowly,
you now have the strength.
to the top121.) Fighting and Arguing
Faliseus: ’FIGHTING’ isn't right
Faliseus: but ’ARGUING’ isn't bad
Faliseus: to me...arguing = asking questions
Faliseus: when I argue, I ask questions to LISTEN and LEARN
Faliseus: fighting is just yelling, slaps and punches
Faliseus: that gets people NO where
Faliseus: fighting only leads to more fighting
Faliseus: if only everyone 'understood' everyone else,
Faliseus: then there wouldn't be any fighting
Faliseus: it's GOOD to understand other people
Faliseus: friendships are great
Faliseus: enemies are horrible
“yeah but not with these idiots”
Faliseus: if they UNDERSTOOD you and you understood them...
“nope”
Faliseus: then they might not be the idiots you think they are
Faliseus: do you have conversations w/them?
Faliseus: what do they say? what do they do?
Faliseus: (see #12 Making Friends)
Faliseus: while everybody else fights for the gold that is seen,
Faliseus: I am fighting for the gold that is not seen.
Faliseus: the gold shine of the heart
Faliseus: to fight for the heart is to be stronger than the hate that corrupts the weak
Faliseus: the only victorious men in an unnecessary battle for righteousness are the dead
Faliseus: the living cannot see that true valor is in the eyes of the faithful and the living
Faliseus: it takes strength to hold strong to love and life and to fight for the unseen gold
Faliseus: but those that have fought for love and have held on the hardest will be rich and free beyond belief and beyond what was ever seen
to the top122.) Culture Walk
“walking around where I live just made me realize what’s happening to our culture”
Faliseus: I've thought about it many times all my life
Faliseus: people judge too many people
Faliseus: the world’s definition....
Faliseus: "to love or to change"
“?????”
“explain that”
Faliseus: it's all about faith
Faliseus: an example.....
Faliseus: "I'm right" "you're wrong"
Faliseus: there's 2 things you can believe on this earth. You can believe you're right or you can believe you're happy.
“hmmm”
Faliseus: the faithful are happier
Faliseus: the doubting are more hateful
“that’s interesting”
“faithful in what”
Faliseus: faith in God
“what about yourself”
Faliseus: God wants us to be successful
Faliseus: so it's transitive
“what’s your definition of success?”
Faliseus: no wants
Faliseus: love
Faliseus: happiness
“nice“
Faliseus: very
“most people say their success is ‘kids, money‘“
Faliseus: those are all part of the road
Faliseus: where the road 'leads' to is the IMPORTANT part
“yeah, that’s all true”
Faliseus: lots of times LOTS of cultures REQUIRE change and sometimes FORGET about love
Faliseus: the most important question to ask is 'why'
Faliseus: a question I'm always asking is...'why do I do the things I do?'
“it's odd if you don't find an answer though”
Faliseus: not necessarily
Faliseus: sometimes what 'we' don't see is what 'someone else' sees
Faliseus: there's always an answer
Faliseus: searching for it can be hard but it's there
“no”
“there’s not always an answer, what if the answer you’re looking for doesn't even have a stable question?”
“have you been harassed anymore by those people trying to convert you”
Faliseus: conversion....
Faliseus: there's no such thing
Faliseus: you are what you are
Faliseus: not what you do or what you say
“I guess so”
Faliseus: but people believe otherwise
“you are not your bank account”
Faliseus: they want it to be a cult...a brotherhood....a fellowship..
Faliseus: where as,
“you are not your designer jeans”
Faliseus: people miss out on the full picture, we ALREADY ARE brothers and sisters.
“yeah”
Faliseus: that's what Jesus was trying to get us to understand all along
Faliseus: no man is leader, only the unseen God, we must follow, thank and love.
Faliseus: it's simple, but people distort it into religion and it makes me sick.
Faliseus: religion=repetition
“yeah”
Faliseus: but in some cases, religion can equal culture.
Faliseus: culture isn't bad, because it's life and diversity but
Faliseus: repetition is death
Faliseus: that's my opinion
Faliseus: it takes the ‘walk of faith’ through this culture of ‘LOVE and CHANGE’ to continue the search
Faliseus: to FIND the answer to ANY question
to the top123.) Conversation Souffle
“this person is talking to too many people and screwing up messages”
Faliseus: that's not smart
Faliseus: don't take in more than you can chew
“no doubt”
Faliseus: eyes bigger than stomach is bad
“not always a bad thing“
“you can always eat leftovers”
Faliseus: leftovers from 'prior meals'
Faliseus: I'm saying when you see more than you can eat and try to eat it all
Faliseus: you'll get stuffed and the other food will go to waste
Faliseus: because this food must be eaten now
Faliseus: :-) think of a first conversation as a souffle
Faliseus: it'll go stale if you don't eat it right away and savor every flavor
Faliseus: If you REALLY need to save the conversation till later...
Faliseus: put it in a plastic baggie and throw it in the freezer for later
Faliseus: and when you get it back out of the freezer...
Faliseus: don’t forget to DEFROST it and bring it back to temperature before you serve it piping hot on a platter to your friends and family
to the top124.) Lost Heart
Faliseus: "this heart has been buried in so much grief and pain but dig deep within those soils. Help me find it and we'll find it beautifully preserved and shining in the light of day."
Faliseus: "Life may try to suffocate us with it's soils covering our hope, but hey.... that's why God gave us shovels!"
“thanks”
Faliseus: yep
Faliseus: sometimes we believe our hearts are 'lost'
Faliseus: when they're only 'buried'
“true”
to the top125.) I Win
“you always win”
“:-)”
Faliseus: that's great
Faliseus: but I'm a loser too
Faliseus: we win when we lose and lose when we win
“why’s that?”
Faliseus: so really, no one loses or wins
Faliseus: the Super bowl......
“yes they do”
Faliseus: 2 teams
Faliseus: playing to win WHAT?
“people win the Super bowl”
Faliseus: money
Faliseus: ok
Faliseus: the 'winners' of the 'money'
Faliseus: win 'the money'
Faliseus: the 'losers' of the 'money'
Faliseus: win 'time'
“*laugh out loud*”
“you are too much”
Faliseus: and I am too little
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: :-)
Faliseus: but enough about that
to the top126.) CAN’T beat HONESTY
“You should get a new profile”
Faliseus: why should I?
Faliseus: that's who I am
Faliseus: that's why I wrote it
“it's too unexplainable”
Faliseus: questions lead to answers
Faliseus: anything is explainable
Faliseus: depends on what is believable
“what if someone can’t see color?”
Faliseus: then they can't see color
Faliseus: what if Helen Kellar got on the internet?
Faliseus: but she still can 'communicate' w/me
“there you go, off base again”
Faliseus: I don't understand what you're getting at
Faliseus: the truth about the internet is that it holds no facts, just text.
“You’re not always there”
Faliseus: yeah I am
“no, remember the time you weren’t online to satisfy the pattern because you were ‘watching the news’?”
Faliseus: I'm there
Faliseus: because a person is the equivalent to the words he/she leaves behind
“you’re not Simple, clear and concise”
Faliseus: yes I am
Faliseus: some people tend to 'desire to believe' things are 'more complex' than they really are
Faliseus: I can't control a person's interpretations
“Do you agree that times change?”
Faliseus: time changes
Faliseus: but what is time?
Faliseus: a human concept
Faliseus: human concepts change
Faliseus: I agree
“well, see you should change your profile”
Faliseus: I haven't ran into a legit reason
Faliseus: I only put in things that stay 'true'
“put excerpts from your book in it”
“Oh so your book isn’t true?”
“ah ha”
“I got you”
Faliseus: did I say that?
“yes”
Faliseus: I believe this is what I said.....
Faliseus: Simple, clear and concise. TRUTHFUL and STRAIGHT to the point. That’s who I am. I am the guy.
Faliseus: 'am' meaning 'currently'
“that’s stupid”
Faliseus: but it's 'truthful'
Faliseus: that's who I am
to the top127.) Pointless Guesses of the Future
“Well do you have a guess of what’s going to happen next?”
Faliseus: no guesses
Faliseus: new bits and pieces of wisdom come to me each day
“just because you’re afraid”
Faliseus: why do you say that?
“you’re afraid to guess”
Faliseus: nah
Faliseus: I have 'no reason' to guess
Faliseus: I just go w/the 'flow'
“but don’t you care about OTHERS?”
Faliseus: I do
“then why won’t you guess and satisfy my curiosity of your knowledge of the future?”
Faliseus: I don't know the future
Faliseus: I can only have faith in it
Faliseus: never 'knowing' the future
Faliseus: knowledge is 'fact'
Faliseus: faith is 'believing in what you don't see'
“yes, but I'm telling you there IS a pattern”
Faliseus: all I can do is 'faithfully wait' for the answers
Faliseus: it hasn't 'flowed' through me yet
“just look at the dates you have been contacted”
“and analyze them”
Faliseus: I'm not involved w/processes of the 'human clock', I'm involved w/the feelings of 'God's Clock'
Faliseus: not by numbers and digits
Faliseus: but by feelings and life
“that has nothing to do with anything I'm saying”
Faliseus: you said, 'analyze' the 'dates'
Faliseus: read the above ^
“you don’t like it huh?”
Faliseus: I don't like what I don't need
Faliseus: a 'need' is sufficient for 'my life'
Faliseus: my 'faith' is all I need
“ok”
“but the pattern exists”
“you just can’t figure it out”
Faliseus: I don't 'need' to
“fine fine fine”
to the top128.) STOP IT!!!
“25 is my age to be done for sure”
“my future is far away... I know I'll be ok”
Faliseus: I don't understand why people take age into perspective when 'starting' or 'quitting' something
“I can’t explain it ...... i just KNOW it”
“I don‘t know...... a landmark”
Faliseus: "the future is now"
Faliseus: landmarks are set
Faliseus: but are they reached?
Faliseus: Columbus set out for sail in 1492....
Faliseus: where did he WANT to go?
“:-)”
“I hear ya boy”
Faliseus: and where DID he GO?
Faliseus: he WANTED one thing and GOT another
Faliseus: exactly
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: those that wait to answer the door at 11:00 die at 10:30
Faliseus: "the time is now"
Faliseus: you may not have another chance
Faliseus: or you may be steering straight for America, like Columbus did
“but, life is short........like I said I can get hit by a car tomorrow”
“who knows???”
“so, I'll do whatever till I have more reason than myself to not do it”
Faliseus: you shouldn't leave your life to an 'if'
Faliseus: life isn't reliable that way
“it sure isn’t”
Faliseus: yourself is why we're here
“so we do one day at a time”
Faliseus: we could be gone tomorrow too
“I know”
Faliseus: but I'm saying that smoke builds and smoke destroys gradually
Faliseus: it's not like a sudden change that you notice
“I know”
Faliseus: it's a change that you get used to
Faliseus: my dad smoked for YEARS and thought he was fine, he even FELT fine
“but, if you stop soon enough, you're okay too”
Faliseus: but WHEN is soon enough?
Faliseus: we don't know that for a fact
“some people smoke all their lives and are fine..... some not..... although I am not going to smoke all my life”
“I am quitting”
“one day”
Faliseus: some are and some are not...risky business...but why be in that business if it's not profitable?
Faliseus: TODAY is a great day
Faliseus: I'm here
“some times you’ve got to take risks”
Faliseus: why take this risk?
Faliseus: what good will it do for you to smoke?
“I know.. I hear this all the time and I’m used to it..... and the best I can say is when I am ready and I am not ready”
Faliseus: readiness comes to us when we're afraid
“not always”
Faliseus: fear comes to us through a tragedy
“sometimes readiness comes because it has too”
Faliseus: but I'd like to be PRO active
Faliseus: tragedy...readiness through fear
“I know.... you have a good head on your shoulders and I’m glad I'll never have to worry about you :-)”
Faliseus: you may have to have a discussion like this w/me one day
Faliseus: but till then...I'll live in fear and readiness
“*laugh out loud*:-)“
Faliseus: a fearful person is a strong person
Faliseus: a fearful person is someone that is AFRAID of what they’re CAPABLE of
Faliseus: and a fearful person is WISE enough not to start it
Faliseus: so BE in FEAR and NO habit will control you
to the top129.) DRILLING into the HEART
Faliseus: here's what you do.....
Faliseus: it's what I call DRILLING into the heart....
Faliseus: DRILL IN to what you need to know by asking WHY.....
“good call”
Faliseus: when things get rocky, shaky, and the person starts acting a bit strange...
Faliseus: DRILL OUT from things by asking WHO WHAT WHERE WHEN and HOW...
Faliseus: like MY two favorite questions....’how are you feeling?’ and ‘what are you thinking?’
Faliseus: sometimes you run into hard rocks so pull out and go back in till they're gone
Faliseus: after you've drilled into the heart
Faliseus: there's a big gaping hole there
Faliseus: clean out the dirt
Faliseus: put your post in
Faliseus: and fill it w/concrete
Faliseus: but wait Vern!!! there's more!!:-)
Faliseus: gaping hole...emptiness
Faliseus: extra dirt....some doubt and pains
Faliseus: post....your support
Faliseus: concrete....love
Faliseus: just KEEP YOUR FEET PLANTED....
Faliseus: because YOU are the OPERATOR!
Faliseus: that means don't budge or compromise for ANYTHING
Faliseus: just be there till the hole is drilled and filled
Faliseus: I'm a man
Faliseus: I've got to figure out more ways to solve problems w/power tools!
Faliseus: I fix the house and home
Faliseus: I fix the temple and heart:-)
Faliseus: same difference, different distances
Faliseus: I learned this by drilling holes for fence posts working w/my first construction boss:-)
Faliseus: the questions still hurt, though
Faliseus: even if it’s right, right things take time.
“yeah”
Faliseus: use hope as your tool
Faliseus: 'hope' should hammer time into the ground:-)
Faliseus: too many 'why's can hurt
Faliseus: they are drills to the heart, and if the heart hurts already, give it time
“at the risk of saying it, why is that”
Faliseus: people don't like going to the very center of themselves to answer questions all the time
Faliseus: people mostly just want some comfort
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Faliseus: keep drilling
Faliseus: ask 'why, why, why, why'
Faliseus: eventually with hate.....you'll eventually get to the 'I don't know' answer
Faliseus: if you keep drilling
“you know what Jeremy.. I don't care that much why”
Faliseus: it's important to know why
“why?”
Faliseus: because, if you don't know your 'purpose' or 'direction', then you might NEVER go anywhere because you'll never have understood the way you really wanted to go.
Faliseus: a solid understanding, is a solid direction, is a firm ground to walk on.
Faliseus: firm, is support.
to the top130.) We’re ALL Dirt Movers
Faliseus: cleaning is an art
Faliseus: it's just not one of the more popular ones
Faliseus: and
Faliseus: what's got me weirded out is.........
“what”
Faliseus: an artist like Michelangelo is SO respected for his sculpture...was that 'David'???
Faliseus: and guess what?
Faliseus: that is ENTIRELY made of dirt
Faliseus: as is ANY sculpture or painting
“you are funny”
Faliseus: and a construction man that moves dirt doesn't get the same attention
Faliseus: yep...we're ALL dirt movers
to the top131.) Comfortability
“I can be kind of shy when I’m first around people”
Faliseus: don't worry
Faliseus: it'll be like we've known each other for ages
“*laugh out loud* good”
Faliseus: I'm good at comfortability
Faliseus: cause I've dealt w/the experience of rejection my entire life
Faliseus: so I'll know how to keep you comfortable
Faliseus: no worries
“good”
“how could you have been rejected?”
Faliseus: don't ask me
Faliseus: I don't know
“hmmm”
Faliseus: I suppose maybe it could be that I've opened up a bit more
Faliseus: I'm more confident now
“well, I am so glad to hear that :-)”
Faliseus: but sometimes confidence can't overpower ignorance
Faliseus: so I ignore the ignorant by being confident that they’re not ignoring me
to the top132.) God Didn't Write the Bible
Faliseus: to enter the kingdom of heaven you must enter it in Jesus’ name
Faliseus: the word is only what you believe it is
Faliseus: I believe the word is love and faith
“yes and it’s GOD’S Word His Book”
Faliseus: who wrote the book?
Faliseus: how many books are there?
“God wrote The Bible”
Faliseus: did you SEE him write it?
Faliseus: then how can you say HE wrote it?
“no but it says he did and I believe it how else are you going to know who He is if you don’t read it”
Faliseus: who's names does it say in the first four chapters of The Bible?
Faliseus: Matthew, Luke, Mark and John right?
Faliseus: those were different MEN
“yes but who inspired them to write the books?”
Faliseus: I agree that God inspired The Bible but still....
“still what??”
Faliseus: the men had the CHOICE whether to WRITE or NOT to write
Faliseus: God gave a us a free world
Faliseus: and DECISIONS
Faliseus: THEY made the decision
Faliseus: to write
“Inspired means in Greek or Hebrew "God Breathed" so He breathed into the men what to write”
Faliseus: I don't believe everything I read
“well that is sad“
Faliseus: I'm talking about DECISIONS
Faliseus: let me ask you something.....
“ok”
Faliseus: your birthday....
Faliseus: would it be more exciting to READ ABOUT your birthday party.......or would it be more exciting to be AT your birthday party?
“Dec. 11”
“at the party”
“what are you saying?”
Faliseus: I'm saying.....
“saying what?”
Faliseus: would you read something that someone else wrote that might be PARTLY true and believe it ALL to be true...or would you rather go out and find out for yourself
Faliseus: the thing lacking here is....time to THINK about the things you read
Faliseus: if your pastor was here he'd agree w/me, I'm sure of it
“I believe that God’s word is true He said so 8000 or around that # just in the new testament”
“and no he would not... he believes every thing the Bible says”
Faliseus: but here's the thing....
Faliseus: APPLICATION of the bible
“so your point is?”
Faliseus: apply everything written in the bible to life
Faliseus: and TRY to make it all FIT
“yes, God knows that we will mess up but he will forgive us”
Faliseus: that's why I do not read the bible so much....I live the bible more than I read it
“10 commandments we should try to follow and apply to our life to be successful”
“but you have to read the bible to see what it says”
Faliseus: I don't need to read the bible to learn a lesson
Faliseus: how did you learn to tie your shoes?
Faliseus: did the bible teach you that?
“no come on dude get real here”
“He teaches you how to live your life”
Faliseus: get real?
Faliseus: I am real
Faliseus: yes
Faliseus: but NOT 100% through a bible
Faliseus: I learn my lessons through LIFE
Faliseus: besides
Faliseus: the bible is the BOOK OF LIFE
Faliseus: so I'm living it
“Faliseus: I don't need to read the bible to learn a lesson”
Faliseus: how did you learn to tie your shoes?
“that is not getting real”
“mom but that does not go dude”
“you are off”
Faliseus: the point is.....
Faliseus: you LEARNED something with OUT reading it
“no I have to read the Bible to know how to live and to know who God is”
Faliseus: how do you know God?
Faliseus: have you seen Him?
“no but you can’t see God till you go to heaven! see ? like this tells me that you must not really know Christ”
Faliseus: I know Christ
Faliseus: He's my brother
Faliseus: I love him dearly
Faliseus: that tells me you don't know Christ
“He is there I believe in Him and he has always been there for me when I need him He is always by my side”
Faliseus: there you go
Faliseus: I was just warning you of the wolf in sheep’s skin....the FRAUDULENT bibles
Faliseus: God INSPIRED the Bible but He didn’t write it....
Faliseus: The TRUE bible has got the notes of God written by God’s people
Faliseus: praying gets the words to and from the heart
Faliseus: reading gets the words to and from the mind
Faliseus: reading bout praying....The Bible....keeps the mind focused on the heart
“yeah”
Faliseus: but sometimes people misunderstand WHY something was done and sometimes people forget to define themselves
to the top133.) Christianity: NOT Religion but RELATIONSHIP
“so what religion are you anyway?”
Faliseus: no religion
Faliseus: it's relationship
“ah I see”
Faliseus: Christianity
“so you do believe in God I see”
Faliseus: the common misunderstanding about Christianity is that people think it's a religion
“well then couldn’t that be said for all religions? I mean what really matters is the faith correct?”
Faliseus: faith is correct
Faliseus: religion is materialistic
“how so?”
“or is it the whole tithing thing”
“10% of all the income that you make should go to the church”
Faliseus: religion is repetition
“and the only beliefs that I know of that really aren’t that materialistic are the Shoalin monks and some other things”
Faliseus: I'm out in this world by free will...not RELIGION
“well we've been given that already”
Faliseus: just faith in God and love for all that has a heart is the important part
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continued....
Faliseus: I've been thinking of going into some smaller church groups, and philosophizing the small group leaders, and "STRAIGHTENING THEM OUT"
“hmmm, what church do you go to?”
Faliseus: I really just go to any church I feel like going to
Faliseus: some people that claim to be Christian forget a lot of key things, and those certain people screw it up for everyone else, because THEN, after a 'non-Christian' has talked to them, that 'non-Christian' will have 'biased and MISINTERPRETED views'
Faliseus: the Christian church is alright, but the music for the youth is horribly over exaggerated and repetitive and VERY LABELED.
Faliseus: There were also some things that the pastor/speaker said that I didn't agree with.
Faliseus: I believe that now a days, the youths ‘MISUNDERSTAND’ Christianity because they treat it as a whipping post and a cushion and not the STRIVE for love it SHOULD be.
Faliseus: one thing I'm not very fond of about some people that misinterpret Christianity, is that whole 'come to the front and we'll pray for you to heal your addiction' thing......well.....the fact is....
Faliseus: according to the bible, we're ALL born into sin. So, therefore, EVERYONE should be coming up to the front asking for forgiveness, not just the few, but everyone....then again.....there's also.......
Faliseus: that thing where the certain pastors/preachers/speakers will say "God will do this for you"
Faliseus: and that is ENTIRELY misinterpreted!:-)
“I agree”
Faliseus: because then you've got these people, once again, that CLAIM to be Christians, saying "Oh, well, God will take care of it."
Faliseus: LAZY ASSES!!! :-)
Faliseus: I mean, that bothers me:-) *laugh out loud*
“*LAUGH OUT LOUD*“
Faliseus: God will NOT do your dishes, NOT do your taxes, NOT take your dog on a walk, NOT pay your bills.....God WON’T DO those things!! BUT, the misunderstanding is this.......
Faliseus: people misunderstand the FACT of FAITH. Faith is believing in what you can’t see. Well, the problem here is simply that people want to KNOW GOD and TECHNICALLY, they CAN’T.
Faliseus: But the BIBLE, for the most part, is SUCH a BIASED and misunderstood piece of information and such a labeled book, that people think that they can KNOW GOD (SEE GOD) by reading the bible.
Faliseus: then people of ALL ages MISTAKE righteousness, for just misunderstood proverbs.
Faliseus: Proverbs are in the bible as common sense NOT a command, but proverbs are in the bible as ‘common sense‘.
Faliseus: Often times the proverbs are written so BRIEF, and so COMMANDING, that people often times will FORGET the meaning of it, and NOT CARE about the meaning of it, because it is GOD’S WORD, yet NO ONE has met God, not even Jesus (and THAT, my friend, is IN the bible, the New Testament)
Faliseus: and well, most of the music but not ALL of the music, is very bad, because MOST but not ALL of the music is so mono-tone, that I think MOSES would've fallen asleep while listening to it.......and this music is with instruments that are meant to be PLAYED!!! not stroked!!
“that’s funny”
Faliseus: God, if I needed to be stroked by music, I'd go into a massage parlor with my BIBLE and my guitar!!!
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: but you see my point?:-) the “Misunderstood Message of Faith” is not just a local problem, it's worldwide, and it's very dangerously misunderstood, with those certain biases and possibly more........ worldwide
Faliseus: oh yeah, ANOTHER thing that's been on my mind as well,
Faliseus: ask a Christian this......."Was Christ a Christian?:-)"
“*LAUGH OUT LOUD*!!!!!”
Faliseus: because people often times like to 'follow' Jesus
Faliseus: well, who is Jesus following?
Faliseus: the phrase "WHAT WOULD JESUS DO" falls into this category:-)
Faliseus: Jesus went by his OWN accords having faith in his brothers and sisters and Jesus had faith on his OWN accords with God:-) NOT HIMSELF, BUT GOD!!
Faliseus: and if people answer "NO" to that question, "was Christ a Christian", then they're only saying that THEY are not Christians:-)... ...which is pretty damn funny
Faliseus: therefore, making their entire belief, 'invalid' because they've MISUNDERSTOOD it.;-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“you are too much Jeremy“
Faliseus: I believe I’m too little, and that belief is just too much for those who believe I’m enough.
“you are so random sometimes”
Faliseus: naw, life is random, I'm just perfectly tuned with life:-D
“*laugh out loud* well I Am going to lunch”
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“I will talk to maybe when I come back“
“yah?”
Faliseus: that works for me ;-)
Faliseus: love you bye, bye!
Faliseus: to any new Christians out there, this is my COMMON SENSE perspective of Christianity: it’s FAITH, NOT fact.
Faliseus: It’s BELIEF and LOVE, NOT label and judge.
which draws me to another conclusion,
“Is it RIGHT or CORRECT for a Christian to HATE someone, if that someone, doesn’t worship/idolize Jesus? Would Jesus like for someone to be hated for not loving him?”
The answer is no. Jesus loved EVERYONE, and judged NO ONE. He only wanted ‘love’ and faith in a loving and forgiving God, by loving and forgiving his brothers and sisters, regardless of their personal beliefs or past history.
“The love will open the eyes.”
In my opinion, Jesus wouldn’t want to be ‘idolized’ or SOLD like he is today. Jesus would want his MESSAGE preached, not just his ‘name’.
Gosh, if I was Jesus, I would become VERY ANNOYED with the bunch of people who put my name on everything and yet, those SAME people will STILL misinterpret MY MESSAGE, because ALL PEOPLE WOULD CARE about or APPRECIATE is ‘my name’.
If I was Jesus, I would NOT appreciate having my name on something, that I don‘t approve of.
If I was Jesus, then I would RATHER appreciate someone who would respect my PERSPECTIVE, NOT someone who’ll only appreciate me for MY NAME.
I would NOT want someone with a CLOSED mind or ‘name labeling’ mind.
If I was Jesus, I wouldn’t want someone to FOCUS on ‘how’ I would do things. If I was Jesus, I would ONLY truly want someone to understand my PURPOSE. I would want someone to understand ‘logically‘, WHY I do the things I do.
“Don’t respect the name. Respect the perspective and the logic BEHIND the name.”
another question, “Is it right because it’s in a book?”
No, it‘s NOT right because it‘s in a book, because each and every label can be MISINTERPRETED or MISUNDERSTOOD. Misunderstanding through a label is the quickest way to hate that there is. Jesus only loved. As should WE ALL.
Love is the only thing that is right. With our faithful love, is the only earthly bliss. “Love is universal”
Is it proper to bow your head, close your eyes each time you have to pray?
No, because the true temple is in the heart. This body is just our BORROWED body. Not EVERYONE has hands to pray with and not EVERYONE has feet to stand and SOME people are BLIND and CAN’T EVEN SEE. So the eyes closed, nor the standing or hands together are ABSOLUTELY necessary, because
“the #1 thing you should have TUNED is your ‘heart’ and your ‘faith’, THE BODY WILL FOLLOW”.
If going to a youth group or a sermon where there’s a pastor praying FOR you, then is it proper to be absolutely SUBMISSIVE and OBEDIENT to that pastor‘s prayer?
ABSOLUTELY NOT. One commonly misunderstood thing is that, the pastor, no matter HOW YOUNG, no matter HOW OLD, no matter HOW MUCH EXPERIENCE that pastor has had preaching and praying, NO matter WHAT the case, it doesn’t matter because WE ARE ALL CORRUPT, pastors INCLUDED.
“WE ALL FORGET.”
Sometimes in a time of great need for understanding, a pastor ‘of the book’ might not be able to find the right answer, so he/she will just ‘pick something out of “the book”’ and not deal with the problem DIRECTLY. Why do I believe a pastor would do this? I believe a pastor would do this, in order to ‘take the heat off of himself’ and ‘put the heat on the book’.
“The message should ALWAYS be preached and understood from the heart, not ALWAYS from ‘the book‘.”
The book was CREATED for ONE SOLE PURPOSE, to ‘relate to the heart’. The book was NOT created to BE THE HEART. I was not BORN in a book, and I will not DIE in a book.
“I AM ALIVE HERE AND NOW, only to ‘reflect‘ on what has already been written, in order to give my perspective a new light to see, NOT TO FOLLOW, but to stand RIGHT NEXT TO.”
to the top134.) Could God Make a Rock
“could God make a rock so big that he couldn't lift?”
Faliseus: God is the spirit above all
Faliseus: so there's nothing He can't do
“Could he?”
Faliseus: His understanding isn't ours
Faliseus: this question I'll have to say, "ask Him when you get to heaven":-)
“the answer is either yes or no”
“& I'll analyze of you want”
Faliseus: but WHY would He need to in the first place?
Faliseus: the whole thing is....what is your definition of God?
Faliseus: do you 'know' God?
Faliseus: I don't know Him but I believe in Him
Faliseus: if I knew Him I'd tell you
to the top135.) I Know Boredom
I know boredom.
Boredom is sitting in a room doing nothing but thinking.
Boredom is when you run out of motivation.
Boredom is a teacher that goes on and on about something and won’t stop.
Boredom has the influence of many powerful politicians, yet,
Boredom leaves a bump sitting on a log.
That is me...Boredom I know.
depression/boredom is what I like to call 'Passively Confused'.
to the top136.) FREE WRITING
“I don’t know what to write”
“I’m not sure...what should I say”
Faliseus: when I'm out of conversation
Faliseus: I just start to say something someone else says
Faliseus: like reflecting on a song or something
“yep”
Faliseus: or maybe part of a skit from a show
Faliseus: as inspiration
Faliseus: 1 percent inspiration 99 percent perspiration
Faliseus: that 99% is coming from someone else’s 1 percent:-)
Faliseus: it's best to be a free writer
Faliseus: let it out
Faliseus: thoughts or opinions, write them down
Faliseus: the most brilliant thing about a window is in it's reflection of who is seeing inside it
Faliseus: those are the emotions of the writing....perspective
to the top137.) My Idea Machine
Faliseus: my mind is like millions of horses charging wildly,
Faliseus: I've got the rope,
Faliseus: I lasso on
Faliseus: and hold on for the ride of my life
to the top138.) If They Don’t Take the Life Saver
Faliseus: when a person is drowning
Faliseus: and you're on the ship throwing them a lifesaver
Faliseus: but they don't take it
Faliseus: let them drown
Faliseus: and pour water on them
Faliseus: they choke on their own words
Faliseus: and yours
Faliseus: but fortunately for me I can swim like the Sicilian I am
to the top139.) Thinkers and Feelers
Faliseus: there's the thinkers and the feelers
Faliseus: the feelers feel the emotion in their writing
Faliseus: the thinkers are driven mad by thinking of the emotion in their writing
Faliseus: a feeler can speak the truth as he feels it
Faliseus: and a thinker can think the truth that he’s feeling as he speaks of his thoughts about it
Faliseus: a feeling is a rock that hits us
Faliseus: and a thought is a breath of air that passes us by
Faliseus: an idea reflecting on emotion is a rock rolling down a hill
Faliseus: and an analysis reflecting on an idea is a cloud a million miles away
Faliseus: thinking and feeling combined both reflect the rolling rocks and the clouds in the sky
Faliseus: as we have something to stand on and something to think about
Faliseus: we’re alive as we think we’re standing
Faliseus: thinking is just reflecting on a feeling, where as 'feeling'.....is the inspirational mystery
to the top140.) Reflective Moments
Faliseus: reflective moments
Faliseus: going into a vision
Faliseus: a majestic dream
Faliseus: a feeling too real
Faliseus: a mist or a fog to mind the steam
Faliseus: dream along the waves of our memories
Faliseus: cast out hands upon many shadows and graves
Faliseus: the ground remains the slave
Faliseus: the gravity is the restriction
Faliseus: the jump is for the brave
Faliseus: leave us to our thoughts
Faliseus: to reflect on broken mirrors
Faliseus: to pick up the pieces
Faliseus: and to wipe away mother's tears
Faliseus: her fall is too great
Faliseus: our leap is too far
Faliseus: we've lost track of our feathers
Faliseus: and we can fly through the mist no more
Faliseus: :-)
“hmmm”
“it's good”
Faliseus: cool
Faliseus: what message do you see in it?
“not sure”
Faliseus: want me to tell you what I see in it?
“sure”
Faliseus: I see a mother crying over her son's grave because her son wanted to do something more than what he could handle and a feather flying through the air as symbolicism of freedom
Faliseus: as in, the son is free from the ground
Faliseus: and the mist or fog, is a memory
to the top141.) Stand on Your Words, Don’t Fall
Faliseus: neeto profile
Faliseus: optimism and inspiration....the breaths of life in a dying body
“huh? what are you talking about?
Faliseus: I read your profile man
“thanks”
“late”
Faliseus: it sure is
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: I'll forgive you
Faliseus: I'm Jeremy 20/oh
“later”
“thanks”
Faliseus: I’m an inspirational voice.
Faliseus: Spoken when the ears and eyes are closed,
Faliseus: can still be heard in the heart.
“......”
“yep”
Faliseus: thought you might like that
“don’t make me block you”
Faliseus: but like I've said before, people, including yourself, come back to the place they've run from to learn, teach and grow old with true warmth.
Faliseus: we'll all stray from the lies that we've broadcasted as merely a false act of compassion
“thanks see ya”
Faliseus: and learn to speak the truth before spoken to
Faliseus: but lie as you do and you'll be back to face the truth
“goodbye”
Faliseus: see you when you've found wisdom.
Faliseus: although we've blocked the voice of inspiration from our ears and the vision from our eyes,
Faliseus: the painful voice of regret will be ripping away at our minds and hearts.
Faliseus: In the pains of lies,
Faliseus: the brain is trapped in a suffocating smoke and
Faliseus: the heart is burned with a scorching fire.
Faliseus: You'll scream for help within the blinding inferno of your deceit.
Faliseus: The only way to escape is to run through your burning heart
Faliseus: and
Faliseus: to hold your breath until the smoke is gone and the air is clean.
Faliseus: and that is the guilt of a fiery lie.
to the top142.) Withering Rose
Faliseus: sigh
Faliseus: it's been a long day
Faliseus: too much struggle
Faliseus: and too many things seemingly to shatter
Faliseus: but I'll keep building and hopefully everything will come together
Faliseus: faith sucks but faith is good life lived in advance
Faliseus: so I've gotta go with what works
Faliseus: sigh, yeah,
Faliseus: my mind is blank
Faliseus: just clouds are there
Faliseus: all I can see in my face
Faliseus: is just my hair.
Faliseus: it stands still
Faliseus: doesn't move to the wind.
Faliseus: a simple breeze
Faliseus: would make me move.
Faliseus: patience is what I've been facing
Faliseus: excitement is what I've lacked.
Faliseus: there seems to be a piece of my heart
Faliseus: still intact
Faliseus: but it's no longer beating
Faliseus: for that same life.
Faliseus: it beats a small sound
Faliseus: yelling for me to run.
Faliseus: I may fall to the ground
Faliseus: Panting from running the wheel of a mouse,
Faliseus: I run.
Faliseus: wheezing to enter or leave the house
Faliseus: one thing is greater than I...
Faliseus: the sky, the sky, the sky,
Faliseus: I cannot touch
Faliseus: only can I look at it
Faliseus: and believe it's with me
Faliseus: for me
Faliseus: but alas, it is seemingly not
"you need to stop"
Faliseus: poetry must not ever stop when you feel it.
“you really need to stop”
Faliseus: the emotions run thick as the words you feel flow
Faliseus: only to write
Faliseus: hoping to know.
Faliseus: the feelings the reader gets from your sight
Faliseus: can hopingly take them,
Faliseus: through a glorious flight
Faliseus: but my heart has not flown to the skies,
Faliseus: it is on the ground.
Faliseus: there, in the dust,
Faliseus: it lies.
Faliseus: dear heart, please don't stop beating.
to the top143.) Eyes on the Prize
Faliseus: to worry about not getting something takes away half of the promised prize.
Faliseus: to have faith in getting that prize,
Faliseus: you'll achieve it to the fullest of it's potential.
"yeah"
Faliseus: if you don't get the goal, at least you'll get the respect
Faliseus: for doing what no one else would ever try
"very true"
Faliseus: I wasn't very good at weightlifting until I believed I could lift more and more every day
Faliseus: believe to achieve, simple as that
Faliseus: doubt is our only worst enemy.
Faliseus: I only focus on my future truth
Faliseus: because we can only change what hasn't happened.
Faliseus: I don't doubt myself one bit,
Faliseus: I just wonder how I can go the places I need to go
Faliseus: since I don't have any luck w/anything.
Faliseus: I keep praying for a miracle
“luck”
“:-)”
Faliseus: and although the road looks blocked,
Faliseus: I'm going full throttle
Faliseus: a friend of mine taught me something a long time ago on a sledding hill,
Faliseus: if they get in your way,
Faliseus: plow through them, it was their decision to stand there and they saw you coming a long time ago.
Faliseus: the road is as clear as you make it or believe it to be.
Faliseus: the only chance of stopping that you believe there is, is the only chance that will slow you down.
to the top144.) To See a Dream
Faliseus: #1...grab a piece of paper and something to write with
Faliseus: #2...close your eyes and draw a picture
Faliseus: #3...open your eyes and see what you've drawn
Faliseus: the paper is your entire life.
Faliseus: the pen is your mind and the ink are your decisions.
Faliseus: your eyes closed is the life as you live it.
Faliseus: to see what you've drawn is to see how much you've faithfully pursued you dreams.
Faliseus: Make all the beautiful decisions you can in life.
Faliseus: Stay on the paper when you draw them and turn your mistakes into your strengths so that you will want to hang your artwork when you’re finished.
to the top145.) Head of the Heart-Heart of the Head
“but what I am trying to understand is that a lot of the guys that I was with who were supposedly straight, acted like they really liked showering with other guys”
Faliseus: like I say,
Faliseus: it’s just our interpretation of things
“so it makes me wonder if in a way, straight men are able to fulfill hidden desires with out completely acting upon them”
Faliseus: the truth of things lies behind the eyes and in our own hearts
Faliseus: so no one can truly know or have the best idea of the truth about themselves, but themselves
Faliseus: it all depends on what head they're lead around by
Faliseus: the head of the heart
Faliseus: or the heart of the head
“hmmmm”
Faliseus: To further illustrate...I believe any person can be capable of anything as we are all corrupted with blind desires and forgetfulness.
“yeah”
Faliseus: ‘blind desires and forgetfulness’ being.......the heart of the head
Faliseus: and the head of the heart, is trying to ‘find the deeper answer’ and the love
Faliseus: shame keeps people from bonding sometimes
Faliseus: I think nakedness sometimes purges people of shame
Faliseus: but over all, it’s not the physical understanding of someone that can be hidden as much as the mental understanding we're always hiding
“yeah”
Faliseus: because we tend to hide our thoughts more than we can hide ours bodies
Faliseus: a body is a body,
Faliseus: but is nothing without a mind to think about it and a heart to feel it’s life
Faliseus: a love is a love
Faliseus: but is nothing without a head to think about it and a body to transport it’s emotion in
Faliseus: if the body was caught up in forgetfulness and blind desires
Faliseus: then the corrupted mind would forget all about the love for life that it has
Faliseus: and forget it’s thankfulness and it’s bond between others within the memories they’ve shared
Faliseus: as reality will turn into floating masses of land in the space of separation
Faliseus: instead of the closeness of family in the love and memories that we’ve been rooted in.
to the top146.) Meaningless Argumentive Babble
“and why must you throw this crap around rather than just answer my question? *laugh out loud* it'd be easier”
Faliseus: I’ve given you my answer and you don’t like it
Faliseus: when you want to learn about Socrates, do you ask him to get up from his grave and teach you?
Faliseus: NOW? right this moment because you WANT him to leave the heaven that he’s in?
Faliseus: not going to happen.
Faliseus: speeches that are meant to be written down are meant to be read
“dude if I could that'd be awesome”
“and why study him?”
Faliseus: and once they're read, they can be spoken and heard, just the same
“I cannot compare you to him”
Faliseus: I didn’t ask you to
Faliseus: speeches that are meant to be written down are meant to be read
Faliseus: and once they're read, they can be spoken and heard, just the same.
“or to be said”
“that's why they're speeches”
Faliseus: my point
“dude, no. I want to see your reaction now.”
Faliseus: read:-)
“I don’t want to see it already done”
“there's a difference between interaction and just sitting there reading”
“I want to see that difference today”
“when I ask you the questions”
Faliseus: if you don't want to see it finished as I see it, then you will never see it.
Faliseus: sometimes we get what we want, but we’ll always get what we need.
Faliseus: and I’m giving you what I feel you need... the info, as I see it.
Faliseus: read and review w/me when you’re finished
“what is "it" and what is "finished" in your definition?”
Faliseus: read now
Faliseus: ask later
“(since you know, our definitions of "feeling" are different)”
“no”
“no”
“why do you have a problem with me asking now?”
Faliseus: I don't like to get stuck arguing over the details and the menial things, when I've already made where I stand clear
Faliseus: my answer is there
Faliseus: you just have to see it
“so you’re final in all you think?”
Faliseus: never final
Faliseus: read
Faliseus: respond
Faliseus: ask me after you read:-)
Faliseus: simple as that... 10 minutes ago;-)
Faliseus: without the fuss and mess.
“*laugh out loud* well it'll take me a while, since you know, you write a lot, and I've still got 3 exams and a paper to be concerned bout besides some other assignments and such today... so....”
Faliseus: it'll only take as long as it would here
Faliseus: I only write as much as I need to
“*laugh out loud* you write more than you need to.”
Faliseus: you interpret things as more or less than they are
Faliseus: it's like Van Gogh says
Faliseus: "look too fast, you miss the true beauty of the painting."
Faliseus: :-)there's a smile
“nope. actually. I think you're full of it.”
Faliseus: never full
Faliseus: but being filled;-)
“there's a certain realism in every kind of beauty, that's the best part.”
Faliseus: your eyes aren't wide enough to see my entirety because I'm merely a stranger
“but you dodge realistic comments with romanticism”
“you’re missing something”
Faliseus: of course I'm missing something
Faliseus: we all are
“it doesn't matter whether or not I personally know you”
Faliseus: sure it does
“it's what you say, because I know you choose it specifically”
Faliseus: ‘settling in’ to someone...is key
Faliseus: doesn't matter 'how' because it matters 'why' and that it happens when it's done
“you see? I'm not arguing with you. you choose to argue with an observation. you’re in denial.”
Faliseus: those that throw slanders, are just as guilty
Faliseus: I'm learning
Faliseus: you're learning
Faliseus: that's true, that's all
Faliseus: focus on learning what can be and not what 'might' be
Faliseus: I 'might' be in denial
Faliseus: but it’s not a fact.
“I said "are"“
Faliseus: lets learn what 'is'
Faliseus: do you see my truth?
Faliseus: then you don't know my truth.
Faliseus: you’re misinterpreting me
“I'm starting to think that your "is" is a bunch of fluff.”
“you live on a cloud.”
“right now, I'm trying to study for Art therapy”
Faliseus: I live on the ground
“and I'm getting revved up because you’re driving me crazy”
Faliseus: I'm speaking what I know
“and my one friend is having problems with her friend whose having problems with her soon to live in boy friend”
“*laugh out loud* I'm a little distracted”
“and you don't know that”
Faliseus: and I stand where I stand, never letting the wind budge me.
Faliseus: you didn't tell me that bit of IMPORTANT information till now
Faliseus: thanks for informing me:-)
Faliseus: there's another smile
“*laugh out loud*.”
“informing you of which part”
Faliseus: excellent, we're forming a base
Faliseus: struggles of focus
“if the wind didn't budge you, you wouldn’t be forming your thoughts. they'd be stagnant”
Faliseus: I didn't say I wasn't budged
“yes, I'm a little distracted and frustrated at girls who can't deal with boyfriends.
Faliseus: you misinterpreted,
“Faliseus: and I stand where I stand, never letting the wind budge me.”
Faliseus: I meant, consciously, I stand where I stand, never 'permising' the wind to budge me
“o, Ok.”
“psh.”
Faliseus: sometimes we stand undefined in front of strangers:-)but I can only hope you understand me;-)”
“I'm starting to and I don’t think I'd like to.”
“(understand more)”
Faliseus: it's a definition dispute that starts the fights faster than anything
“dispute, fights, what’s the difference?”
“ah, nm”
“I see I read that wrong”
Faliseus: I don't like the hurts of understanding, but I'd rather not be ignorant
“fine.”
“hurts happen. I deal. that's the way it goes.”
Faliseus: I mean, you say To-mate-o and I say To-motto
Faliseus: different growths, different views
Faliseus: on the same light
“what's the light you speak of?”
Faliseus: redefining is helpful
“and I know there's variations”
“I'm glad you've decided to put a lot of obvious stuff into this conversation”
“that's very nice”
“*eye roll*”
Faliseus: the light, in my definition, is a better idea of the truth
Faliseus: sometimes it's good to remind the knowledgeable:-P
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“yea but if we've different definitions for everything, you must be specific”
“remember?”
Faliseus: “Faliseus: redefining is helpful” (quote on quote)“*“and I know there's variations”*”
Faliseus: thanks for reminding me:-)
“*laugh out loud* that was sarcasm”
Faliseus: read what is already written to feel what is right
“no”
Faliseus: not sarcasm,
Faliseus: reminder
“yes it was”
“if you heard me, it was sarcasm”
Faliseus: if it was sarcasm to you, then that's fine, but to me it wasn't sarcasm
Faliseus: it was COPY and PASTE:-)
Faliseus: remind
Faliseus: and review
Faliseus: my view
Faliseus: contrasts to your view, but we've already said that about a million times:-P
Faliseus: and what are we REALLY learning about each other?
“should I tell you all the voice and eyebrow and body language I go through whenever I'm typing something to you?”
“it was sarcasm”
Faliseus: we are arguing about ‘possible’ state of being and not the ‘definite’ state of understanding
“I don't care what I'm really learning about you”
Faliseus: define please
“I'm more into why are you thinking this way”
“or whatever way you are thinking”
Faliseus: ignorance is bliss, but when we run into what we haven't learned is there, we get a bump on our heads
“explain in real words and how it applies to you”
“I assume it applies to one of us, but mainly you”
“that's the focus, right?”
Faliseus: what is 'it'? please specify
Faliseus: (quote on quote)“*“ I don't care what I'm really learning about you”*”
Faliseus: is that what you wrote? those words say to me that you do not care to learn about me, ignoring knowledge of me
Faliseus: ignoring knowledge
Faliseus: blissfully
“no I'm not ignoring it.”
Faliseus: but that's my perspective
“it's just not my point today”
“then just ask.”
Faliseus: what is your perspective?
“if you’re unsure.”
“on what specifically?”
Faliseus: well, since we've strayed from the subject a long time ago
Faliseus: let's refresh...
Faliseus: read my site about what you wanted to know about me, and instead of asking me now...
Faliseus: ask me AFTER you’ve read it.
Faliseus: if not
“no.”
Faliseus: then don't
“I can't“
“I'm doing too much right now”
“and I've got to get to class in a few minutes”
Faliseus: save till later then:-)
“I've no time for your crap”
“just tell me straight up”
“if that's even possible for you”
Faliseus: if it's crap, then why talk to me about it in the first place?
Faliseus: I write what I write for the reason it's written
Faliseus: to be understood.
“because I'm curious to see if I can get to why you think the way you do”
“but you just dodge it all”
“you dodge the real questions”
“you dodge the real thoughts”
Faliseus: I'm standing where I'm standing
“they're all wrapped up in fluff”
“and I want to know why”
Faliseus: you dodge my answers
“they're not real”
Faliseus: it seems you want me to say 'Uncle'
Faliseus: but all I'm saying is 'my own words' for Uncle
“yea I know that”
Faliseus: same meaning
Faliseus: but you 'prefer' to do it another way
Faliseus: I strive for efficiency
Faliseus: see it, review it, ask about it
Faliseus: when the sculpture has already been carved, don't ask me to carve another one
Faliseus: just ask me to redefine what I've already done.....
Faliseus: AFTER you’ve LOOKED at it.
Faliseus: I'd be obliged to.
Faliseus: :-D
Faliseus: but you've refused to look at my sculpture
“dude I have no time to read this.”
Faliseus: and I've refused to repeat myself
“I have to get to class”
Faliseus: alright”
Faliseus: save it till later
Faliseus: in my writing, are my words as you would see them....as I say them
***********************
Faliseus: now that’s five pages of pointless writing,
Faliseus: when it should’ve only taken ONE SENTENCE
Faliseus: to look at ONE thing
Faliseus: the lessons here are....
Faliseus: don’t argue about assumptions,
Faliseus: argue/ask questions about what is OBVIOUSLY KNOWN.
Faliseus: To REALLY understand somebody,
Faliseus: don’t blame your poor listening skills on their speaking skills.....
Faliseus: keep to yourself until you’ve UNDERSTOOD mutually with this person on every answer to EVERY question
Faliseus: oh and another thing, it's not about 'one person knowing'
Faliseus: it's about mutual understanding
Faliseus: relativity
Faliseus: calmness is a good relativity
Faliseus: there's tension
Faliseus: with heat, air doesn’t stand still
Faliseus: and it's hard to grasp
Faliseus: keep air calm, easier to breathe
Faliseus: when a chess player is swept up into the tempo of the game and the smaller moves but not with his main strategies....
Faliseus: he is lost and loses others.
Faliseus: have a main message when speaking.
Faliseus: one theme. be the speaker:-).
to the top147.) Life Metaphorically
Life is the radiant reflection of our contrasting and complementing thoughts seen through a diamond. The diamond is in the light of the truth in which the source is unseen.
The mind is it’s own catacomb to it’s own view of life. Within your own mind, you take the risk in whatever you do. It is key to view life happily and to keep the heart beating lively. As our essence without the mind and with our lively beating heart is then sealed and delivered to that view.
to the top148.) Reply to Email1. LIVING ARRANGEMENT:
alive, breathing, with people
2. A BOOK YOU ARE READING NOW?
mine
3. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?
my mouse
4. FAVORITE BOARD GAME?
life
5. FAVORITE MAGAZINE?
n/a
6. FAVORITE SMELLS?
sleep
7. FAVORITE SOUND?
Syd Barrett of Pink Floyd's guitar in The Wall concert and snoring that I make but can't hear
8. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN
THE MORNING?
direction
9. WHAT HAPPENED TO #9?
number 9 was swallowed into a vortex of the world's forgetfulness, only to be washed onto the shores of the sea of hope.
10. FAVORITE COLOR?
my favorite color is all of the colors and none of the colors. as the color you see is just the reflection of what color it isn't.
11. HOW MANY RINGS BEFORE YOU ANSWER THE PHONE?
depends
12. FUTURE CHILD'S NAME?
n/a
13. WHAT IS MOST IMPORTANT IN LIFE?
"happiness, true love and a nice Mutton, Lettuce and Tomato sandwich...."
14. FAVORITE FOODS?
taste changes when you've had the best, I'll never know.
15. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
chocolate is just vanilla with cocoa
16. YOU LIKE TO DRIVE FAST?
to pass life at blinding speeds is to pass the beauty of life...blindly.
17. DO YOU SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?
my blanket and my pillow are fuzzy and no I haven't met mariah carrie
18. STORMS-COOL OR SCARY?
drama can be expected and interpreted in many different ways
19. WHAT TYPE WAS YOUR FIRST CAR?
a boat without an oar
20. IF YOU COULD MEET ONE PERSON DEAD OR ALIVE?
me, because I'd like to be able to help myself understand me
21. FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
if any, Bacardi Breezer, but not big alkihol fan
22. WHAT IS YOUR ZODIAC SIGN?
<--this way to happiness-->
23. DO YOU EAT THE STEMS OF BROCCOLI?
I devour everything wholesome in life that helps me grow
24. IF YOU COULD DYE YOUR HAIR ANY COLOR?
die it the color it is
25. EVER BEEN IN LOVE?
if definition of love is 'true love-a love lasting through life', then no
if definition of love is 'love-feeling drawn to glow and warmth of another', then
yes
if definition of love is 'love-having faith and understanding in another', then
yes
26. IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
not focused on what is there, just focused that I'm drinking and that there is something in the glass in general
27. FAVORITE MOVIES?
Spies Like Us-Dan Akroyd, Chevy Chase, Oh God-George Burns, Oh God Book II-George Burns, Oh God You Devil-George Burns, Trading Places-Eddie Murphy, Dan Akroyd, Coming to America-Eddie Murphy, Cuba Gooding Jr., Club Paradise- Robin Williams, Matrix-Keanu Reeves
28. DO YOU TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?
no, I type w/fingers on CORRECT keys
29. WHAT'S UNDER YOUR BED?
not sure, IF I looked, maybe Jimmy Hoffa
30. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER?
me #1
31. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?
the sport that is felt
32. SAY ONE THING NICE THING ABOUT THE PERSON WHO SENT
THIS TO YOU?
you are one funky chica and I've got lizard eyes.
33. WHO'S THE PERSON THAT MOST LIKELY WON'T REPLY TO THIS?
the person I won't send it to
34. Who IS THE PERSON THAT WILL MOST LIKELY RESPOND TO THIS E-MAIL?
most likely, IF I send it to myself, then me
to the top149.) Trademark Icon Phrases
“that's cool”
Faliseus: I'd like to think so,
Faliseus: and let’s hope for the best.
“yeah “
Faliseus: I may have come up with one of my themes
Faliseus: been saying these two phrases a lot lately...... "I'd like to think so" and "let's hope for the best"
“well I have enjoyed talking to you but I should go or I am going to be slurring my speech tomorrow”
Faliseus: can't have that:-)
“so what do those two phrases mean”
Faliseus: I think those two phrases will be my comedic trademark:-)
“oh I see”
Faliseus: or they’ll be my 'dramatic' or 'theatric' trademark...whatever media I use or create
Faliseus: all the greats have their mark:-)
Faliseus: and those are the birthmarks and paintings of their careers
Faliseus: ...the icons
to the top150.) Uniqueness
Faliseus: each person in the world can lift the same stone,
Faliseus: but each of those people will think of the stone differently,
Faliseus: and feel different feelings about the stone, as there’s no fact that there’s one finger print that is alike and no heart that beats in synch with another.
Faliseus: there are no lights that can shine inward, that shine outward.
Faliseus: eyes see into one another, but can’t reflect upon themselves.
Faliseus: The diversity in life is spread outward and growing. Growing diversity can’t be duplicated,
Faliseus: only represented through the eyes of each individual best as it can.
Faliseus: Each perspective is different as there is no true control in the environment and no true definition of what we see.
Faliseus: a reflection of ourselves, on another, would give us a better idea of who we are.
Faliseus: another person has another perspective.
Faliseus: we can only see the ‘reflection’ of who we are.
Faliseus: we are as unique as the reflections of ourselves in another.
to the top151.) What If
Faliseus: closure is something we all need.
Faliseus: If we haven't got that--especially if I myself don’t have that-- then we'll always have that taunting 'what if' on our minds
“I know...”
Faliseus: and I, personally, couldn’t live that way
Faliseus: ‘not following through‘ and ‘not knowing‘, would hurt just the same, or MORE, as ‘following through’ and ‘knowing’.
Faliseus: learned that from my construction boss.
Faliseus: he gave the same advice to his son
Faliseus: a great philosopher once said, “it’s better to have loved and lost then to have not loved at all.”
“but what if while waiting on that closure, as you say, you miss wonderful "what ifs"“
Faliseus: 'just go do it', so that you'll never wonder 'what if'
Faliseus: 'follow through'
“exactly”
“take that advice with others too Jeremy”
Faliseus: I follow through w/what I do and always want to keep my promises to others because, in turn, I’m keeping the promises to myself
Faliseus: I can't just be that guy that'll take the next train leaving for Buffalo, because he couldn't wait for the one going to heaven
Faliseus: the 'what if' heaven is something I could be cheating myself out of
Faliseus: and never know and always wonder
“I hear you”
Faliseus: it would tear me apart, if I couldn't fulfill my dreams as an artist.....just thinking.....what if, all the time, about all the ideas I never followed through with.
Faliseus: and wouldn’t want the burden of another ‘what if’ w/the people I'm with or could meet
“I know”
“what ifs suck”
“but that’s why I don’t understand about you not taking that one opportunity”
Faliseus: and I couldn’t bear it to put pressure on someone else, for something they didn’t do
Faliseus: so I FOLLOW through with the things that I do, so as not to ‘cheat’ myself out of my own promise.....I’ll follow my heart, until it FEELS right and continue in that direction, so others can share that feeling.
to the top152.) Is Life a Dream?
Faliseus: do you have any life’s dreams?
“life is a dream”
“death is awakening“
Faliseus: man, it's all in the '''meaning''' of the words my friend.......
Faliseus: If life is a dream, then what is it that you DO while dreaming and what is it that you DESIRE to do while dreaming?
“what if it’s not you dreaming just someone else dreaming of you?”
Faliseus: man, I'm saying...you....what is it that you desire to 'do' in life?
“save the world“
Faliseus: let’s not get caught up in a perspective if/then battle, that usually doesn’t end up very pretty
Faliseus: cool
Faliseus: how?
“anyway”
Faliseus: most people aren’t very defined in their words and plans in life, which leads to no plans at all
Faliseus: was wondering what your definition of 'saving the world' was
“sacrifice of one self for many“
Faliseus: to gain?
“respect , honor , ect ..”
Faliseus: no happiness?
Faliseus: ect. ...that kind of trails off
“well everything you get in knowing that just before you died you saved the world”
Faliseus: happiness and wholeness isn't important then?
“well you’re happy because you know that what you did is not replaceable”
Faliseus: happiness is ‘believed’ not ‘achieved’.
Faliseus: and nothing anyone does can be replaceable
Faliseus: even brushing my teeth day to day is irreplaceable, because it's a singular action, acted upon by me and no other
Faliseus: why would you need to sacrifice yourself, in order to save the world?
“well many people brush their teeth“
“how many people can say they saved a world?”
Faliseus: everyone can
“or be known as they did“
Faliseus: but they can't truly mean it
Faliseus: if the world is just a dream then does that dream end when you die or does it go on even after you’ve short lived your life because you've sacrificed your life? and what would that, in turn, do for the world, as 'you' aren't there to help it grow?
Faliseus: wouldn't that growing world 'die' without you?
“well I let it keep on growing”
“or at least have the chance to keep on going”
Faliseus: paraphrase please:-)
“hummm. . . .”
“before I sacrificed, the world had no chance to keep on“
Faliseus: how would you know that? this is an ENTIRE world, with an ENTIRE MANY truths.
Faliseus: the only thing that hides our eyes from those truths, is our own doubt and corruption
Faliseus: my definition of corruption is believing that there's no other option but one
“then that is all we have“
Faliseus: what is all we have?
“doubt and corruption“
Faliseus: we have forgiveness and a community, that reminds us, to be thankful for
Faliseus: there's more ends of the spectrum than just doubt and corruption
“but if this is all a dream why have forgiveness and a community at all?”
Faliseus: but for the corrupted and doubting there is more than they can see, when they shield their eyes from other truths
“what I am saying is if what you’re living is a dream then why have such things in your life or even life like rules and communities?”
Faliseus: that's an 'if it was a dream situation', not an 'is a dream situation'
Faliseus: when it's 'if', then you don't know, and we don't know
Faliseus: life may or may not be a dream
Faliseus: I didn't say this was a dream
Faliseus: I think therefore, I am.
Faliseus: I feel, therefore, I can become.
Faliseus: I give what is necessarily needed for others to aspire to live and pass on that love
“my bad“
“he he he”
Faliseus: *laugh out loud* :-D
to the top153.) Prove Me RIGHT!!
Faliseus: put people on the spot
Faliseus: and they'll TAKE you OFF the spot they've put you on
Faliseus: it's all a matter of proving someone right
“*laugh out loud*”
“that's funny”
Faliseus: "hey, I'm on your side, now prove me that you're right and I'll agree with you."
Faliseus: there's no anti-anything in that
Faliseus: and it's all a learning based perspective
Faliseus: challenging BOTH parties
“yeah”
Faliseus: I've done that all my life:-)
Faliseus: that’s how I've learned to give such good advice
“yeah I guess so”
Faliseus: because I've learned how to make people believe in me by me believing in them
Faliseus: instead of being against....I'm for
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: so all I can do is understand someone by talking to them and asking them honest questions and getting honest answers.
Faliseus: MUTUAL understanding is a powerful bond of friendship,
Faliseus: those bonds are shaken, with misunderstandings
Faliseus: those bonds are broken, with doubt
Faliseus: and those bonds are made, with faith
Faliseus: prove someone ‘wrong’ and no one goes home happy or enlightened....
Faliseus: but prove someone ‘right’ and you’ll both learn something and become friends
Faliseus: use the logic and reasoning of absolute honesty and REALLY listen to someone and their answers.
Faliseus: LOOK for contradiction, LOOK for anger, LOOK for misunderstanding, LOOK for doubt, LOOK for words of hate
Faliseus: but, more importantly,
Faliseus: LOOK for the ANSWERS and FIND them......with FAITH and unconditional love.
to the top154.) Image
“have any gay friends?”
Faliseus: I do
“:::nods::::”
Faliseus: but I don't see my friends as 'what' they are, but for ’who’ they are.
Faliseus: like I say, it's not the image I love
Faliseus: :-)
“image?”
Faliseus: close your eyes and hold onto yourself and you can still love me right?
Faliseus: having the belief that I'm there is your faith in me.
“I'm no image, but then, what’s your definition of image?”
Faliseus: ‘image‘... something that isn’t felt at the heart, but is interpreted through the eyes and mind.
Faliseus: and you'll have to check out what my definition of what ‘feeling’ is
Faliseus: #67
Faliseus: there's a paraphrase of it too
Faliseus: the mind forgets and the eyes can be as blind as they can see.
Faliseus: but those that love the spirit/heart and faithfully rely on the spirit/heart will always be reminded and will never fall subject to blindness to true 'felt' beauty.
Faliseus: thank God there's people out there that ask me questions...I'm just too lazy to ask myself:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
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Faliseus: you know.....what's REALLY funny?
Faliseus: I've noticed this about the blindness.....
Faliseus: when you 'look' at something, what do you see?
Faliseus: just the REFLECTION of LIGHT
Faliseus: no TRUE depth
Faliseus: just a mirage
“well yea”
Faliseus: people make JUDGMENTS from a MIRAGE!!!:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“basically *laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: and a light that's TOO bright...........is blinding.
to the top155.) Everything Is An Investment
Faliseus: everything you do is an investment
“it’s going to hurt my finances to make the trip every time, let alone if the manager charges me to be on the team”
Faliseus: depends on what you plan on investing in, when you’re in it.
Faliseus: just ask, "who can this be helping?"
“it’ll break relations because I won't get to see my friends around here”
“it’ll hurt my living standards because I‘ll have to stay at someone else's house and not get to sleep in my own bed”
“if I’m lucky I’ll get to sleep on a cot like I did last time”
“if I’m not lucky, then I’ll have to sleep on a floor”
Faliseus: sleeping somewhere else wouldn't hurt too much
Faliseus: just so long as you can live and so long as you can help someone.
“nah”
“well I don't know that I will really be helping anyone by being on this team”
Faliseus: what would this opportunity do for yourself then?
“this opportunity would just allow me to be with a group of people who have the same passion for being on this team as I do”
“it’d allow me to make new friends”
“I’d get to go on a few trips and get to perform at a high level”
“but I’d have to bust my ass to get there”
“and plus coming in this late, I’d have to work even harder to catch up”
Faliseus: what would you do with those new friends?
Faliseus: and what would you do or advertise with you in those performances on that team?
Faliseus: WHAT PURPOSE?
Faliseus: will your reason for joining be for business, pleasure or for acquaintances?
Faliseus: if the investment is for ‘BUSINESS‘, then you should expect it to be long-term and change jobs or incorporate your career with an emphasis of it....
Faliseus: if the investment's for ‘PLEASURE‘, then you should expect it to be short term and just think of it as a vacation or just something to help reminisce
Faliseus: and if the investment's for ‘ACQUAINTANCE‘, then you should only expect the investment to be a periodical one and it should just be used as an opportunity to find something and/or someone to remember and keep in touch with.
Faliseus: it all depends on what kind of an investment you're going to make it into.
Faliseus: what kind of investment would you make it?
Faliseus: hope that helps:-)
“kind of”
“I mean if you were ever on this kind of team, then you’d understand”
Faliseus: I've been in football, it's kind of a club.
Faliseus: so I understand.
“yeah“
Faliseus: IF I was to go play football, for ‘BUSINESS‘....then I'd better make some money and a living
Faliseus: IF I was playing football for ‘PLEASURE‘, then I wouldn't make it a serious routine but I would treat it like a vacation or a free day
Faliseus: IF I was playing football for ‘ACQUAINTANCE‘, then I’d maybe play it for a few weeks or so...just to remember it and keep in touch with the people and the passion.
“well this is serious but I’m not going to make money by doing this”
“lots of times being on the team is fun but being on the team is also very stressful because you have to be so serious”
“well if I decide to do this I’ll be in it for a while”
Faliseus: in your case, it sounds like it’s an acquaintance investment:-)
“and I have to drive many hours every time I go”
“but it isn't just something I can start and now finish”
Faliseus: some acquaintance investments can be long, but aren't constant and routine but they‘re optional.
Faliseus: I mean...
Faliseus: like, if you just wanted to do it for one year or one period of time and have the option to quit or pursue it, then, in that case, that would be fine.
Faliseus: mainly...... an acquaintance investment isn’t ‘mandatory‘ but it‘s ‘optional‘.
“ok”
Faliseus: if you've got the options that work best for you.....and you’ve got a good reason to do it......then go for it.
“yeah”
“the only part I don't want is the drive”
Faliseus: sounds like you just want to become reacquainted:-)
to the top156.) Decision to Drive
“I just don't want to drive it again”
Faliseus: you mean the drive in the car?
Faliseus: or do you mean the drive in the spirit/heart?
“the car”
“yeah I know as soon as I start it I’ll have the drive to do it”
“I just don't know if I feel like busting my ass again though”
Faliseus: well buddy, if you don't want the drive, either way, then you shouldn't be in it at all.
“I mean it’s really almost like training for the Olympics”
Faliseus: keep in mind,
Faliseus: it's not the process that matters.... it's the end result that counts at the end of the day.
Faliseus: busting ass is nothing when you're standing still at the end of the day, to see what you've accomplished that you couldn't see through your sweat and tears.
“yeah I know”
“that's why I do it”
Faliseus: so don't worry about the process...
Faliseus: Just worry about the purpose:-)
“at the end of the season you have this great sense of accomplishment”
“and you have so many friends”
Faliseus: well good:-)
Faliseus: if you have a reason to do it..... then knock it down.
“I’ll just have to think about it some more”
“maybe I should come back one weekend and tell the person in charge that I just want to have one trial weekend”
“and if I don't like it then I won't do it”
Faliseus: I'd gladly go back to football, doubts or no doubts.....ESPECIALLY if I knew I had the opportunity to invest myself without crippling my long-term finances or friendships.
Faliseus: because if the investment is just short-term, it couldn't hurt me much
“well this’ll hurt my finances”
Faliseus: when I say ‘hurt’, I mean CRIPPLE
“not in the long run, I guess”
Faliseus: I don’t mean putting a scratch in the finances, but I mean CRIPPLING them, as in, SERIOUSLY...owing the govt. or some agency tons of money-- DEBT
“*laugh out loud*”
“yeah well I guess that won't happen”
Faliseus: so if that doesn’t apply to you....and the FBI isn't hunting you down after a show:-)....then I think you'll be alright
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“you sound like you want me to do it”
“but you don't really even know me”
“or what it’s like”
Faliseus: in everything you do in life, you've got to represent someone.
“yeah”
Faliseus: so it's all about how representing that someone, can help advertise you and help you live.
“but deep down I just don't think I want to do it this year”
“I’ve enjoyed not having to worry about it this year”
Faliseus: but if it's bothering you this much, then it's just best to find closure with the people you know that do it.
“closure”
Faliseus: just ask the questions and get the info.
“yeah I am having the info sent”
Faliseus: lots of times, the only thing holding us back and confusing us from the answer is ‘Man’s Worst Enemy’.......our own doubt.
Faliseus: eliminate the doubt with the facts and/or the inspirations, and you've got your answer and for the most part....your closure
“and I’ve seen our director this past summer and I like him”
“but when I’m working with him, I can't stand him”
Faliseus: hey, he's just doing his job.
Faliseus: :-)
“he’s just mean to us sometimes”
Faliseus: just so long as you know his purpose
Faliseus: then you know or have the best idea of what's in his heart
“well he wants us to be the best that we can be”
Faliseus: there you go...best you can be...who could ask for more?
“I just think that sometimes he could be a little nicer and a little less slanderous”
Faliseus: slanderous?
Faliseus: explain...
“I mean sometimes he just makes false accusations”
“like he thinks that people are doing something to hurt the team, when really they’re not”
Faliseus: ah
“or he over exaggerates mistakes that people make”
“or he tells you that you did something wrong that you didn't do”
Faliseus: well, misunderstandings happen all the time......but the only person to blame, is no one.....the answer, is to be specific and communicate everything.....equally
Faliseus: it's good to keep your team worried though....
Faliseus: it’s a good tactic to keep the team worried and on their toes because it motivates persistence and reaching goals.
“yeah, he lacks communication a lot”
Faliseus: lots of times, the team has to coach along with the coach.....
Faliseus: and constantly keep a mutual bond of understanding to keep things flowing steady.
“it’s very stressful being on his team”
Faliseus: that's okay
Faliseus: learn to cope.
Faliseus: build yourself in areas you're afraid to build yourself in.
“I have“
“but just by talking to him tonight reminds me of a lot of reasons why I don't want to go join the team”
Faliseus: 'having done something' and 'doing something' is very controversial.
“what do you mean?”
Faliseus: experience isn't the future, it's restriction to future knowledge:-)
Faliseus: experience, is now.... that's what I'm saying
“I see”
“well I guess I’ve got to talk to a few people soon then”
Faliseus: past experience is not future knowledge....learn and see....
Faliseus: that is most important, ‘live and know’.
Faliseus: just get back into your roots and find out the most important reason behind you doing what you do.
Faliseus: the reason knowing the 'purpose' of something is important, is because it's the 'balance' and 'comfortability' that we need to find.
“and I know that I need to decide whether or not I am going to let the difficult stuff stand in the way of the reason I do it”
Faliseus: in math, science, nature and life....
Faliseus: "support the center of something’s gravity and it will sit in the middle, comfortably and doesn't fall to pieces as it sustains it's life and balance."
Faliseus: it's in my profile and at the top of ‘Phrase For Life‘:-) “aim for the heart”
Faliseus: remember.......not process.....
Faliseus: but PURPOSE.
Faliseus: end result.
Faliseus: heart.
Faliseus: you take a risk no matter what you do in life
Faliseus: but just ask, “is the PURPOSE worth the risk?”
Faliseus: and you’ll find your decision to drive.
to the top157.) WHY do we LOVE?
Faliseus: love teaches.....it will ALWAYS educate us better than any human being:-)
“I know”
“just the heartache education part sucks badly!!”
Faliseus: well yeah:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: you know the saying:-)......If it don't hurt....then you ain't
Faliseus: trying hard enough
“I know”
“I’m trying too hard then *laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: it's okay though :-) that's why we have each other
Faliseus: life is pinball
Faliseus: the ball rolls when it's hit
Faliseus: but it's got all four walls keeping it in, and the glass to keep it from jumping out
Faliseus: eventually, we'll all come back to where we started from.....except, this time.....more associated with the machine
“yeah, yeah I know”
“but still the pain and weird emotions don’t go away”
Faliseus: of course
“and what’s worse is when you cannot control those feelings”
“or even explain them”
Faliseus: feelings in general can't be controlled.
“it’s like why me??? why is this happening to me?? for someone so stupid?”
“I know that”
“I wish I could though”
Faliseus: because feelings and emotions....are what GUIDE our love.
Faliseus: but, still, WHY do we love?
Faliseus: it's the sense that we've got something to 'move us', when we can't move ourselves
Faliseus: when someone is pushing us behind our first bike, sometimes we wreck...but eventually we learn.
Faliseus: then we 'feel the breeze' of the ride....and then eventually....'WE' are the ones pushing.:-)
“I know”
“I know”
Faliseus: you've just got to understand the positive aspects of love....'the end result'
“like?”
Faliseus: the 'end result being'.... completeness, fulfillment, clarification, the 'knowledge of the truth' and some one to talk to in the end.....
Faliseus: that's the end result.
“yeah”
“but what if you don’t have that?”
Faliseus: and like I said, we can't learn how to ride, unless we learn to fall down.
Faliseus: you might not....have it.
Faliseus: but you MIGHT end up....'having it'.
Faliseus: it takes faith to have it...either way.
Faliseus: Life's Twisted Spine, the only thing perfect about life, is that it isn't....we're always building.
does that help clarify any?
Faliseus: :-) I always do my best
“yeah- I know this stuff”
Faliseus: it's always good to remind the knowledgeable
to the top158.) TEXTURE
Faliseus: softness is flexibility
“it doesn't feel good though”
Faliseus: oh well
Faliseus: the feelings of love, in life, are like the pinch in the arm, that reminds us that we're not dreaming, but we are alive...and real.
“my mind is soft or flexible”
Faliseus: feelings are texture to this painting of life.
Faliseus: and, well there's nothing wrong with texture and personality:-)
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“AHHHH!! WHAT I DON’T WANT IS THESE SCREWED UP FEELING THAT I HAVE, WHICH I’VE NEVER HAD- I DON’T KNOW ANY OTHER WAY TO EXPLAIN THIS TO ANYONE, NOBODY UNDERSTANDS. NOT EVEN I- THIS IS MESSED UP!”
Faliseus: no one will ever understand feelings
“AND WORSE... I CAN’T EVEN CONTROL THEM?”
Faliseus: feelings will always be there, uncontrollably
Faliseus: there is no shut off valve or switch to turn on feelings and turn them off:-)
Faliseus: feelings have got their own personality.....just learn to cope with feelings, grow with feelings, don't try to shut feelings off....and don't try to temporarily ’fix’ feelings by doing something off the wall or crazy, just work on handling feelings
“MAKE THEM GO AWAY!”
Faliseus: life is it's own feeling........you can't make life go away.....otherwise you've given up all that you've worked for
Faliseus: :-)
“YEAH, YEAH”
Faliseus: I believe feelings are there because you NEED texture, to feel real and grow strong.
Faliseus: to give us some substance and to teach us things
“DEFINE?”
Faliseus: define 'what'?
“TEXTURE”
“THANKS, LATER”
Faliseus: texture is...the difference between good and bad.......the contrast between light or dark......heavy or light weight........up in contrast to down....roughness in contrast to smoothness...texture is the result of your choices.....textured memories
Faliseus: ....are the dearest memories to hold.
Faliseus: textured memories are the dearest memories to hold, because of how you can look back on how much you've grown and how much you've learned and ‘feel’ the texture of your life:)
“I know”
“okay”
“thank you”
to the top159.a) ‘FATE’ and ‘FAITH’- two common misunderstandings
“God wills because He is”
“you know”
Faliseus: just want to be absolutely clear on this....how exactly do you think God is planning your life?
Faliseus: and how can you tell if it's ‘His’ plan?
“I think He knows it ALL”
“He knows who I am going to marry, my kids names”
Faliseus: I remember when I first became Christian, I was hounded with philosophical questions
“how I am going to be proposed to”
“all that”
Faliseus: so, you're saying that God knows the future?
Faliseus: or are you saying that, if you SEEK that future, earnestly enough,
Faliseus: then he will GRANT you that?
“the first part yes”
“the thing is that I think God will show us the way with very little uncertainty”
“and for me right now, I have too much of that”
Faliseus: so, if God knows the future, then that means that the damned are damned right?
“I don't want to question God at all”
“yes”
“I just know God doesn't want me stumbling about it right now”
Faliseus: so that means, no matter how hard I try, I CAN'T save someone, because God, has damned them?
“and I am just emotionally drained”
“no, it’s not that”
“it’s that He knows already that they will or will not be saved”
Faliseus: then god doesn't know the future, but he can grant you what you seek, earnestly then right??
“you can and should still try”
“but ultimately God already has the script”
Faliseus: that's what I was saying, God has already damned them...if he already knows the future
Faliseus: ?
Faliseus: doesn't make sense to me
“he prompts believers to witness”
Faliseus: I believe that I can make ANYONE believe in God's love
Faliseus: not 'fate'.......but 'faith'
“well that is hopeful of you”
Faliseus: 'fate'......the concept that god knows the future, is VERY limiting.....as the limiting concept it is.
Faliseus: and 'faith'.....
Faliseus: the concept that God can grant you what you are after, if your heart is sincere enough, is a WISE concept
Faliseus: I believe in faith.......not fate
“right”
“I agree with that”
“BUT God is all knowing too”
“you HAVE to acknowledge that”
Faliseus: being faithful........I believe, God, knows what is.....‘now‘......not in the ‘future’
“interesting”
Faliseus: so, God doesn't know the future....He needs us as much as we need Him.......we've got to work together.....against all odds, and believe that we can achieve what 'fate' has told us we couldn't
“hmm”
Faliseus: there's a movie that I appreciate for it's good values, 'Oh God' w/George Burns
“yeah?”
Faliseus: sure:-)
Faliseus: there's actually 3 different flicks with him in it
“yeah I have seen a click or two”
Faliseus: Oh God, Oh God Book II, and Oh God, You Devil
Faliseus: they are all very true
Faliseus: because I question everything:-)
Faliseus: I BELIEVE in FAITH...not fate.
to the top159.b) ‘FATE’ and ‘FAITH’- two common misunderstandings
Faliseus: why do you believe the things you believe?
“I believe in purgatory and reincarnation”
Faliseus: define purgatory please:-)
“Purgatory is a place where people go when they die for judgment--if you have lead a good life you get to live another and if a bad life then you stay there forever, or until you have redeemed yourself“
Faliseus: do you believe in forgiveness?
Faliseus: your own faith is your own judgment.
“depends on what needs to be forgiven”
Faliseus: I believe your own faith is your own judgment
Faliseus: why is forgiveness 'conditional'?
Faliseus: isn't forgiveness suppose to be 'unconditional' to be 'true forgiveness'?
“there are some things that can't be forgiven“
Faliseus: why can‘t certain things be forgiven?
“like hurting a child mentally emotionally physically etc.”
Faliseus: and........'who is the one that is supposed to forgive'?
“the victim and the victim's family“
Faliseus: I'm talking about 'after death'
Faliseus: a victim’s family can't necessarily 'send you to purgatory'.... with a shiny red button or anything like that
“true“
Faliseus: no person has true common knowledge of ‘purgatory‘ or ‘reincarnation‘, which brings forth the concept of ‘FAITH‘, believing or hoping in what we can't see........I just don't understand what gives people that hardcore belief, that THEY can be the judges of their own torture
Faliseus: why torture? when there can be that light of the future, and not of the past?
“purgatory forgives”
Faliseus: well then:-)......explain that
Faliseus: why go through 'purgatory' to be punished, when ’purgatory’ has ALREADY got forgiveness there, ISN'T there OTHER possibilities other than 'purgatory' or repeating ourselves through 'reincarnation'?
“you’re not repeating thru reincarnation”
Faliseus: again, the concept of 'faith' falls in here, faith and 'fate' are 2 different things
“you come back as someone different with a different personality and different choices”
Faliseus: faith is 'seeing' that something isn't there, but believing there IS something there......and 'fate'....is believing that what you see.......is your own limitation......it’s believing that’s where the buck stops
Faliseus: but again, you come back as........a person........again.
“not always”
“you can come back as an animal”
Faliseus: in essence....we're all looking for the same answers
Faliseus: animal or human, we search for purpose......above all other choices and personalities, we search for purpose.
“yeah”
Faliseus: understanding......or MIS-understanding of purpose is the root of the choices and personalities of EACH person.
Faliseus: :-) hope you're understanding all this
“an animal accepts who and what they are”
Faliseus: it's my simple philosophy.......'aim for the heart'
“humans seem to have a problem with that”
Faliseus: can you prove that an animal accepts who and what they are?
Faliseus: animal's concepts might be WAY different than a human's concepts, but we shall not know that until we've BEEN an animal.
“I had a dog who was happy as a dog”
Faliseus: why do dogs run away? why do dogs bite their owners?
“she seemed more human than any person I've ever met”
“they're not happy with the owner”
Faliseus: dogs biting and running, don't SEEM to be accepting.
“doesn't mean they aren't happy with themselves”
Faliseus: which doesn't compute into that logic
Faliseus: if you can't be happy with yourself, then you can't be happy with another
“therefore since I accept myself as I am.....I’m very happy in current relationship”
Faliseus: acceptance of self.......
Faliseus: is the same in ANY being......like I said, with EVERYONE, as the understanding......or MIS-understanding of purpose is the root of the choices and personalities of EACH person.
Faliseus: it's a reoccurring theme, you can be ANYBODY or anything, but still have the search for purpose
Faliseus: do we REALLY know why a tree will grow 'upwards' and not 'downwards'?
“has an animal ever asked why we are here on earth--the purpose to life”
Faliseus: another question to answer your question........does an animal speak and understand our language?
Faliseus: :-)
“just as we learn what certain looks sounds and movements mean”
“they learn our language”
“my dog learned how to spell”
Faliseus: does an animal speak and understand our language?
Faliseus: is that FACT?
“yes I never taught her but she picked up on certain words being spelled”
Faliseus: the fact that we can't be INSIDE another being's mind.......is the simple fact that, we can't KNOW what another being is INTERPRETING something as
Faliseus: which brings me to a point,
Faliseus: "we......don't......know."
“yes so you can have your belief and I can have mine because we don't know which is the truth and which isn't”
Faliseus: that's faith. believe what you want, but will it certainly benefit you in the end? and if there IS a SOMETHING more to believe in, then why limit ourselves in believing in only what we've SEEN as ‘fate‘(reincarnation and purgatory)?
Faliseus: I believe in what I can't see.
Faliseus: that's faith:-) I believe I have NO LIMITS
“I don't worry about the end of the world because I doubt it will happen in my lifetime”
Faliseus: I will certainly benefit more than a person that isn't faithful
Faliseus: doubt is man’s worst enemy
Faliseus: the things that we don't know, are the things that will hurt us the most.........ESPECIALLY if we doubt them.
“let me say this then”
Faliseus: :-) sure thing
“whatever happens at the end of the world will happen no matter what anyone tries to do to change it”
Faliseus: duh:-)
Faliseus: let me say this then
“go ahead”
Faliseus: when someone that is READY because that someone believes and has a perspective of READINESS, then they are less likely to be 'shaken and surprised' in an answer that they've doubted because that someone was READY.
Faliseus: therefore a person that is NOT READY, in that situation......will be more likely to lose GRASP on what they 'originally believed'......believing in 'fate' can shake us....believing in fate is as bad as assuming that things aren't going to get better, therefore, that person will be MISSING OUT on the party.
Faliseus: they were shaken by that surprise from the very belief ‘in fate’, they were holding onto, all because they've expected something else in contrast to what they‘ve received,
“I don't go to parties”
Faliseus: please, be metaphorical with me this time:-)
“ok”
Faliseus: when people set themselves up to be run over on a road, instead of choosing to stand OFF of the road, then there's more likely a chance that they'll be run over
“only if the person driving isn't paying attention to the road”
Faliseus: can I follow through please?:-)
“go on”
Faliseus: when people......'faithful' people, will believe that they won't be run over, they will believe there is a place they can stand, that is SAFE, and they have had faith......that even though they couldn't SEE that safe place, they could STILL believe it's there, and eventually BE there and BE safe.......instead of committing the suicide of 'fate'
Faliseus: ever see the movie, 'The Matrix'?
“yes”
Faliseus: pay CLOSE attention to that movie......and SEE what 'faith' did for Neo (Keanu Reeves)
Faliseus: that movie has got a LOT of philosophical principles
Faliseus: and they all make perfect sense
Faliseus: Neo thought he was living in a real world, but it turned out to be fake, he eventually had to realize, that it was........but because he had believed his reality for such a long time, instead of believing there was MORE.......he came to a realization through his own 'doubt'....that struck him hard
Faliseus: he had to learn faith.
Faliseus: because he was easily fooled by his very own eyes.
Faliseus: :-) hope all this makes sense
“yes it does”
Faliseus: takes time ;-)
Faliseus: and like I've said, I've taken 5 months on it.....and many critiquing deep conversations
“however as I said before -- no matter what we believe in we cannot change what will happen on judgment day”
Faliseus: that's.......if you believe there's a judgment day, and believing in your own judgment, you have then turned the knife on yourself, EVEN if you didn't have to
Faliseus: and the faithful people, standing on the safe spot on the road, won't be run over painfully, because they've believed and HOPED in something more
“I'll go with this philosophy-- shit happens”
Faliseus: :-) now that's the spirit
Faliseus: *laugh out loud* :-P
“I'll do my best to make the right choices for myself”
“as I have always tried to do”
Faliseus: so you see, above all, the most important thing to remember is to 'have faith'......have hope and faith....because we're all technically right, and we're all technically wrong......but we must understand ultimately, we can be technically forgiven....only if we’ve HOPED to be forgiven, shall we truly be forgiven.
“knowing that along the way I may make the wrong ones and again do my best to fix it my mistakes”
Faliseus: I say, you are as right as you are happy........"not happy that you're right, but 'right' that you are happy"
“I live either way”
Faliseus: but, of course, the main cup of beans that I've been talking about is on the rest of my web page
Faliseus: ultimately, we'll have to choose to accept forgiveness.....and 'hope' for it, in ANY case, in order to be FORGIVEN.
Faliseus: there's nothing wrong with hope
“no, I hold onto hope as much as I can”
“I have many of them”
“hope goes along with dreams”
Faliseus: ;-)
Faliseus: here's how I hope faithfully,
Faliseus: like when someone complements me on something or says ANYTHING to me, positive or negative.....universally.......I just say, "I'd like to think so, but let’s just hope for the best."
Faliseus: because I haven't seen the future, but I have faith that the future can be better
“lots of people do that”
Faliseus: but THAT is the purpose behind that choice:-)
“it's the same as my we'll see”
Faliseus: ???
“someone says they hope something (whatever it is) happens and I say "we'll see"“
Faliseus: why don't you hope?
“I do hope”
Faliseus: we'll see, seems to be a very neutral answer, I say, agree with them fully on not at all
“I usually say "we'll see" when I don't care much one way or the other”
Faliseus: still, hope, in general, heals every emotional ache and pain
“not every single one”
Faliseus: that hasn’t been proven yet, because not every person is hopeful:-)
Faliseus: but for those that are, they are 'happier'
“I agree with that”
Faliseus: and that's what I mean:-) hope through faith
Faliseus: maybe I don't see it with my eyes, but.......I still see it:-)
Faliseus: like in the movie, ‘The Matrix‘, "Neo, there is a difference between 'knowing the path'.......and 'walking the path‘."
to the top160.) My Philosophical Backbone
“what’s your philosophical backbone?”
Faliseus: it’s in my profile, but here:
Faliseus: “I will always be there. You'll always need me there. One thing you have to remember in life
Faliseus: "Aim for the heart and you'll ALWAYS hit your target."
Faliseus: Simple, clear and concise. Truthful and straight to the point. That's who I am. I am the guy.
Faliseus: link to my words....link to me
“why are you all of those things?”
Faliseus: I am striving to be all of those things because, with a true direction, I must be true to others.
Faliseus: otherwise, without a true direction, my soul, will scatter into a million lies, in a million directions
Faliseus: I need to feel whole.
“why?”
“will your soul scatter?”
Faliseus: as a lie is an uncertain thing, ripping apart people’s minds and spirits in worry,
Faliseus: the soul feels that worry, but the soul/heart is brought together by the mind, and by compassion.
“could you be whole without having so many people to talk to?”
Faliseus: reflections, help us see who we are.......and as many perspectives as I can get........is as good as possible.......to see who I am.
Faliseus: so 'maybe' I could be whole, if I didn't talk to too many people
Faliseus: but 'the concept' building into my mind........of 'myself', through the 'reflections' of myself, shall help me to determine, who I am.
“do you think the first man was satisfied?”
Faliseus: is there knowledge that there was just a first person?
“cool”
Faliseus: that is the past.
Faliseus: this is now
Faliseus: :-)?
Faliseus: arf arf?
Faliseus: :-P pant pant
to the top161.) Lord Only Knows
Faliseus: first off, no one knows God
Faliseus: not even God knows the future
Faliseus: but all we can do is HOPE
Faliseus: :-)
Faliseus: technically......that's all we can do
“God does know .. he knows all too well”
Faliseus: nope, nope
“and even if what we think is right isn’t ... god knows what he’s doing”
Faliseus: I have a FREE WILL...........that is what God has blessed me with..........MY OWN CHOICE.
“I think life is just a preparation ... for what is to come later on in life”
“yep, yep”
Faliseus: GOD does not have the decision on where I am to go.....................I DO.
“God blessed with the ability to CHOOSE ... but GOD KNOWS ... which choice we will make in the end”
Faliseus: nope
Faliseus: If God knows what choice that we’ll make in the end, then I guess that would therefore make us ALL DAMNED, because NO ONE can change their mind!
Faliseus: damned in the end..........due to the fact that..........GOD has damned us........because GOD ALREADY KNOWS
Faliseus: I tie my own shoes in the morning...........brush my own teeth......play my guitar when I want to
Faliseus: and it wouldn't make any sense at all that God would be ‘in control’ of all of my own decisions
Faliseus: this is why I know I've got a free choice
Faliseus: like I said, I tie my own shoes in the morning...........brush my own teeth......play my guitar when I want to
Faliseus: God doesn't tell me to do those things...........I DO.
“GOD KNOWS!!!! we HAVE the choice... if god let us all pick the right CHOICE ... this would be a perfect world ... our faith in God can only guide us ... THE CHOICES ARE UP TO US ........ BUT....... HE knows WHICH choices we will make... free yes ... but known ... yes too”
“NO ONE SAID GOD TELLS YOU Anything”
“I choose my own way”
Faliseus: free is NOT known.............the BIRDS are free.......................they fly in an UNKNOWN direction
“I KNOW it is not the "ideal"“
“but I chose my way”
“in some sense thus far”
“God KNOWS”
Faliseus: there's no such thing as ideal...............just technical.
“that is the key“
Faliseus: remember, NO ONE knows God
Faliseus: God knows NOW
Faliseus: not FUTURE
Faliseus: WE choose to make our own future
Faliseus: NOT god
Faliseus: God has given us FREE will
Faliseus: the CHOICE to make ANY direction we want to make
Faliseus: TO him
“GOD KNOWS what we will choose ... he lets us be our own bird and fly where ever ... we can only "PICK" our path”
Faliseus: or FROM him
“right? maybe.. . wrong maybe”
“God KNOWS”
“is my point”
Faliseus: God does NOT know the future
Faliseus: NO ONE does
“of course he gave us free will”
“No ONE does ... GOD is all being ... god is not "anyone" ... GOD is above all that ... that is why he is GOD ... therefore he DOES KNOW”
Faliseus: hmmm
Faliseus: prove me that:-)
Faliseus: I say.......God does NOT know the """"future"""".
sngbrd222: Prove me otherwise
Faliseus: but God knows what happens......."""""now"""""
Faliseus: hold on..........let me untie......then TIE my shoes by my own FREE WILL........to prove you that I’ve GOT free will, and decisions.
Faliseus: :-)
to the top162.) Makin’ Copies
Faliseus: the reason I’ve written my thoughts down is because I don't waste my time repeating myself.
Faliseus: this is why I've got my thoughts in WRITING.
Faliseus: honest, I've only got 2 hands, and 1 mind.
Faliseus: the mind is clearest and most efficient.........when the 2 hands have already written down it's thoughts.
“I KNOW my stuff”
Faliseus: I understand you know your stuff:-)
Faliseus: I ALSO understand that the mind...........................is corrupt
Faliseus: people forget the 'stuff they know'..........ALL the time
Faliseus: this is why I take notes
Faliseus: so I have a way.....of 'reminding' myself.......of the 'stuff I know'
Faliseus: it's not so I can look smarter..........it's so that I can REMEMBER......how smart I really am.
Faliseus: that's why I have people read the paper.
Faliseus: reading the paper is the most clear answer you can get from
me.....because it has been touched up and redefined...and everything
on there.......is from pure memory......that's why I take notes and have people read them
Faliseus: the notes......are where I stand.
Faliseus: if you don't take notes............then you might forget what you know
Faliseus: I would NEVER risk forgetting what I‘ve worked so hard to learn.
“why take notes? I don't need too .. all I know is in my head and that isn’t going to change”
“sorry”
Faliseus: why take notes?
Faliseus: you’re right
Faliseus: why take notes?
Faliseus: we know everything we need to know
Faliseus: and NO ONE in the entire world forgets........a THING
“technicalities seem so beyond you”
Faliseus: we are PERFECT
“oh but aren't we though?”
“HOT DAMN!!!!!!!!!”
Faliseus: EVERY SINGLE being on this planet........can recall EVERY single last EXPERIENCE and THOUGHT......because.....our memories....are PERFECT
Faliseus: we don't forget:-)
Faliseus: no one forgets anything:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“you so contact EVERYTHING IN THAT ONE STATEMENT!!!!!!!! *laugh out loud*!!!”
Faliseus: no one forgets
Faliseus: in fact,
Faliseus: I can tell you EVERYTHING about what I did, while I was in the womb!!!
Faliseus: *LAUGH OUT LOUD*:-)
Faliseus: because MY memory is SO perfect
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“oh but......... thoughts are NEVER, NEVER manipulated, right?”
Faliseus: yes, there's NO corruption in my mind
“*LAUGH OUT LOUD*”
Faliseus: ha ha ha ha.............
“THEN YOU so have the perfect mind”
“god bless you”
“whoever your god is”
Faliseus: let me be NON-sarcastic for one moment..........:-) ......thoughts are ALWAYS manipulated......because thoughts are NEVER seen........thoughts are the tangible things in our minds, that we can't even see, can't touch, can't move around physically, or anything
Faliseus: people can MESS with the things that no one else sees.
Faliseus: which is the reason, WHY I take notes
Faliseus: so that people can mess with all the thoughts and opinions in my head as much as they want.........
Faliseus: but I can ALWAYS go back to my notes........to remember...and build:-)
“take notes all you want”
Faliseus: that way.....I'm not lead astray
“all we know is what people tell us”
Faliseus: what is your grandmother’s brother’s home address?
Faliseus: where does he live?
“like people don’t make their own lives”
Faliseus: what are the EXACT roads you've passed to get to where you‘ve gotten today?
“their own realities”
“oh dear boy”
Faliseus: how many birds were flying in the skies as you were driving or walking today?
“you are too innocent”
Faliseus: :-) where is Delaware, Ohio?
Faliseus: where is Ohio?
“I am so not touching you”
Faliseus: what is latitude and what is longitude?
Faliseus: you can't touch, what you don't understand:-)
“you get screwed over as I have and then we talk about your perfect world!!!!!!”
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: and you can't understand......what you've forgotten:-
Faliseus: so, why can't you see what I'm saying?
Faliseus: I'm being honest here
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: answer me all those questions...........from your........'memory'
“why can't YOU see what I AM SAYING?”
Faliseus: I DO see what you're saying
“*laugh out loud*!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”
“OH BOY”
Faliseus: you're saying that we don't NEED to take notes to remember EVERYTHING
“I pray for you”
Faliseus: and I mean.......EVERYTHING
Faliseus: so.....you're saying that our minds.......are PERFECTLY remembering
Faliseus: you are saying that NOT ONE person forgets.
Faliseus: and that is proven STRONGLY incorrect
Faliseus: focus here:-)
Faliseus: and don't forget the focus
Faliseus: take note of the things I‘m saying;-)
Faliseus: we all forget.
Faliseus: we are not machines
“JEREMY”
Faliseus: we are humans, with free will............a will so free, that we often times forget.
“you have no clue what I AM saying“
“*laugh out loud*”
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: :-) If I have no clue what you’re saying, then TAKE NOTE of what you're saying......and WRITE a paper, so that I CAN have a clue
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“ok”
“if you say so”
Faliseus: I want CRYSTAL technical clarity........otherwise......I won't understand very clearly
“I will print it all out and write it”
“BUT”
“it isn't going to change what is”
Faliseus: and another thing
Faliseus: have random people on the internet criticize your work.
Faliseus: a steady perspective, deserves unsteady testing;-)
Faliseus: and I've had a LOT of unsteady testing
Faliseus: when I say ‘unsteady’, I mean.......people of all different races, ages, sizes, colors, everything and then some........
Faliseus: I've had all those people criticize my works.
Faliseus: which is why I've got confidence in it.....and which is why I am very open for criticism in it
Faliseus: I want......to PROVE people RIGHT:-)
Faliseus: but when someone misses the 'technicalities'.....and the 'details' in things, that are FINE TUNED detail.......then those people miss the ENTIRE POINT.
Faliseus: which is why it's good to have and MAINTAIN........an open mind........with note taking.
Faliseus: don't get caught in the 'ditch of popular thought'.
“ok”
“ok”
“ok”
Faliseus: :-) most people do get caught in ‘the ditch of popular thought‘...... just spinning their tires.....in the SAME PLACE, never going ANYWHERE.......because......no one person has the TRACTION and steady ground to go anywhere
Faliseus: spinning their tires and losing themselves angrily because no one person has TAKEN NOTES of where they’ve driven
Faliseus: take notes.....stay out of the ditch and know where you’re going and what you’re saying
Faliseus: visibly ESTABLISH understanding
to the top163.) Spurt of Philosophy‘ with RRD123 from AOL Instant Messenger ‘
“my perspective on life can be summed up in 1 word...”
“whatever”
Faliseus: what do you mean?
“it’s like, you're dealt with a hand and you live with the talents and weakness you're born with”
Faliseus: purpose and direction is basically believed
Faliseus: I always believe there's more than meets the eye
“what exactly is purpose? how can you pursue something unless you can be absolutely certain there is a purpose to it?”
Faliseus: I agree
Faliseus: on both terms, I agree
Faliseus: purpose, is the direction you choose to go.......simple as that.
Faliseus: certainty, is about as certain as uncertainty.
Faliseus: what is solid knowledge?
Faliseus: think, therefore am.
“it’s like that whole "God" thing, I find that to be a total lie”
Faliseus: do you know?
Faliseus: I don't know.
Faliseus: hence, the concept of faith.
“can you ever fully know someone or something? The search of truth goes above and beyond what it may seem, my friend”
Faliseus: I agree, which is what I've been saying, in the past, with this previous statement.........
Faliseus: I always believe there's more than meets the eye.........certainty, is about as certain as uncertainty.
Faliseus: what is solid knowledge?
what is the purpose in behind not believing?
Faliseus: as you can tell, I've been at this for quite a while.......it's grown to be a fun fancy of mine.....clarification:-)
Faliseus: new inquiries?
“what's your take on materialism?”
Faliseus: what do you mean by 'materialism'?
“things that people don’t necessarily need to survive, but have anyway”
Faliseus: ashes to ashes, dust to dust.
Faliseus: old dude with long white hair taught me that.......I believe his name was.......
Faliseus: oh yeah.......ZZ-Top
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: (Socrates, I think)
“what's the deal with musicians names?”
Faliseus: I've got to be an entertaining student/teacher you know? ;-)
“entertaining is not a requirement in an educational encounter”
Faliseus: sure it is......what is ZZ-Top without the dust?
“the time one spends entertaining detracts from the time one spends educating”
Faliseus: what is Sigmund Freud without his patient's mother?
“unpaid?”
Faliseus: but you forget......educational is not far from entertaining
Faliseus: entertainment of the intellectual mind, comes easiest through the childhood spirit
“in a sense, that’s like saying one can be educated by going to a strip club”
Faliseus: it all depends on your own perspective.
“I’m hands on with many forms of woodwork”
Faliseus: if you can like it, then you can learn it.
Faliseus: cool
“but no one can fully understand any one concept”
Faliseus: I never said anyone does
Faliseus: which is why all my writing is always a rough draft
“precisely, that’s why you are the guy”
Faliseus: as of now....I hope so:-)
Faliseus: you write?
“negative, I spend much of my day pondering the philosophical thoughts of each and every idea that comes to mind. Yet, I never manage to pick up that # 2 pencil :-)”
Faliseus: ;-) you're reading and writing a book right now my friend
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“you're writing a book with this conversation in it?”
Faliseus: I thought that's what you were doing
Faliseus: :-)
Faliseus: oops, random thinking, not too good for someone from Ohio
Faliseus: :-D *laugh out loud*
“no, Mr. D enjoys just percolating about the wonders of the world. Maybe someday I'll share my insights with the rest of the plebeians, but not at this point”
Faliseus: share as forgotten, fields of despair, ideas rush through the air, you've fallen reaching only what has been forgotten but where?
Faliseus: yes, writing.
“I can see by your website that you enjoy sharing any thoughts you have with everyone”
Faliseus: (that will take both of us some thinking to understand)
Faliseus: :-) sure hope I do......glad you could reflect
to the top164.) The Extremely and Boringly Overrated-INVALID RESPONSE
“just beware of misfirings”
“:-)”
Faliseus: a misfiring is just a 'misunderstanding'
Faliseus: and well.....for a guy that defines himself as much as I do......
Faliseus: do you REALLY think I'm going to have any real problems with misunderstandings as I understand a LOT:-)?
“not always”
Faliseus: always strive.
Faliseus: yes always ;-)
Faliseus: remember who is the credible source of philosophy here:-)
“you understand what you THINK you understand”
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“what you may THINK may vary from what IS”
Faliseus: no, no.......concepts are as concepts are
Faliseus: not solid in form........but solid in direction.
Faliseus: I understand 'direction'........not form.
Faliseus: understanding is 'knowledge' is 'seeing'
“ok, Jeremy”
Faliseus: we can see direction:-)
Faliseus: gosh I'm such a philosophy nerd *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: I'm sure there will be a TON of this stuff going on my web page :-D
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“philosophy is purely subjective”
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: tell me what 'philosophy' means to you:-)
Faliseus: DEFINE philosophy.......PLEASE:-D
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: EVERYTHING is subjective
Faliseus: but then again......'subjective' is 'subjective'
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO”
“I AM NOT A DICTIONARY”
“*laugh out loud*!”
Faliseus: if you're not a dictionary then why should you use big words that you can't define, if using big words you can’t even define......then doesn’t that just make things HARDER to understand for you? ;-)
Faliseus: (for arguments sake:-D)
“OH Jesus! :-) *laugh out loud* you are impossible”
“please”
Faliseus: I'm very possible.
“I can define anything cause "EVERYTHING IS SUBJECTIVE"“
Faliseus: if you can define ‘anything’ then what's stopping you from telling me 'what you mean'?:-)
“so if I want "grass" to mean "fat and ugly" then it is”
“because that is my subjective opinion of it”
Faliseus: if you choose to have a 'subjective opinion', then your opinion is UNCLEAR and UNJUSTIFIED......making it 'INVALID'.....due to the lack of 'paraphrasing' and 'narrowing down of definition':-)
Faliseus: whew........long philosophical technicality:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: if you really want someone to ‘get your point’, then ‘use paraphrasing’......say the same thing, with DIFFERENT WORDS...DEFINE yourself.....otherwise.......don’t argue :)
to the top165.) MORE RELIGION Mumbo Jumbo
“ may I ask a personal question?”
Faliseus: all questions are personal:-)
“quite so”
“are you religious?”
Faliseus: define religion
“do you believe in God, Buddha, Allah, Mohammed.. etc.?”
“or just a greater power?”
“or nature?”
Faliseus: depends on what you mean by 'God, Buddha, Allah, Mohammed.. etc.’
“or Karma?”
Faliseus: people have a different label on a different thing
“a Supreme being or beings.”
Faliseus: but, if you must know..... :-)
Faliseus: Thursday, January 24th 3:26PM
My Belief
-by Jeremy Dinovo
Faliseus (3:21:00 PM): I plan on finding that which I've not seen........ nothing of this earth or the stars, nothing of my eyes, but greater by my spirit's surprise
Faliseus (3:21:12 PM): my victorious wondering land.
Faliseus (3:21:38 PM): the great beyond of the great beyond
Faliseus (3:21:46 PM): wandering ships never flew so far
Faliseus (3:21:58 PM): casting planets out like spaceships,
Faliseus (3:22:10 PM): they blast and ride, but can never reach this star
Faliseus (3:22:16 PM): this is a place that I've never seen
Faliseus (3:22:25 PM): a picture that has never looked so keen
Faliseus (3:22:34 PM): my eyes cannot imagine it's delight
Faliseus (3:22:46 PM): nor can my mind, once thought is out of sight
Faliseus (3:22:56 PM): my spirit will see it's true beauty
Faliseus (3:22:59 PM): by feeling
Faliseus (3:23:01 PM): by heart
Faliseus (3:23:12 PM): by absolute joy and victory,
Faliseus (3:23:24 PM): my victorious wondering land.
Faliseus (3:23:33 PM): (that is my belief:-))
Faliseus: does that answer any questions?
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“no...I don't catch it. you are agnostic?”
“(I don't spell so well)”
Faliseus: Agnostic/Gnosticism is in ‘doubt’ of religion.
Faliseus: I don’t doubt religious labels and then again, I don’t BELIEVE that someone is right, but all I can do is ‘hope for the best’ and ‘love’
Faliseus: so no, I am NOT agnostic
Faliseus: from the poem ‘My Belief‘...... "my eyes cannot imagine it's delight"
Faliseus: and love/faith and understanding will help me find what I can’t imagine
Faliseus: I'm an unlabelled box.......sent to a country that doesn't exist to the eyes.
“okay”
Faliseus: religion....an overrated, overcomplicated subject, with too many people.
Faliseus: labels of religious biases have taught us to hate
“no, evil has taught us to hate”
“and separate”
Faliseus: I said.......'labels'
Faliseus: people misinterpret labels
Faliseus: misinterpretations have taught us to hate.
Faliseus: so, think about it....what I said was true:-)
“yes”
“example: ??”
Faliseus: case example....."YOU'RE GOING TO HELL IF YOU DON'T DO THIS!!!!"
“or: you're going to hell if you do this”
Faliseus: "gosh, mom, I was just going to sleep with ten hookers on my wedding night, I mean, there's nothing wrong with that right?"
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: depending on your 'belief structure' and your 'moral settings'......... there MIGHT NOT be something wrong with that
Faliseus: like I said, 'labels' blind us from something deeper
Faliseus: labels are just curtains blocking a window to the ‘unimagined‘ :-)
“correct”
to the top166.) JUST HOPE!!!
Faliseus: all you have to do is 'hope'.
“I'm hoping for lots of things”
“happier life”
“to find love”
Faliseus: don't even hope for that
Faliseus: just hope..........'for the best':-)
Faliseus: because often times.....if we label our hopes, we limit ourselves
Faliseus: just hope for the best:-)
“ok”
Faliseus: either way
“I'll try”
Faliseus: no, no
Faliseus: you'll hope:-)
“ok”
Faliseus: trying and hoping are two different things;-)
“yes, but you can do them both at the same time”
Faliseus: but, if you forget to hope, because you were 'trying to hope'...... then you've just lost the whole point of them both
Faliseus: so, 'hope', lets us 'hope to try to hope'
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: but 'trying', only lets us 'try to hope to try to hope'
“that’s getting confusing”
Faliseus: trying isn't good enough:-)
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: hoping is;-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: so you see my point?:-)
“yes”
Faliseus: good
Faliseus: I hope:-)
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: when I was 9 or 10 years old, I used to tell my dad to always EXPECT for the worst and HOPE for the best:-)
Faliseus: don’t limit your hopes by ‘LABELING’ them.....just hope..........'for the best':-)
to the top167.) Yep, Married With Children
Faliseus: this is kind of a rough question.....and please forgive me if I'm intruding, but why did you marry him?
“I was young... I wanted to be married.. I was fat and ugly and felt I'd never find anyone else, all my friends were getting married....”
Faliseus: did you understand what the priest was saying, when you were 'being married'?
“of course”
Faliseus: and if you understood.......did you answer 'yes' to those questions?
“I didn't know all that at the time”
Faliseus: that's faith
“hindsight is 20/20”
Faliseus: no marriage in guaranteed to be a 'dream'......no marriage will 'be' a dream...unless you 'faithfully make it work on your end'
Faliseus: believe to achieve, an age old saying.....but a very powerful and true meaning
Faliseus: marriage is a business and a career in itself.
“can I quit?”
Faliseus: you can't start working a career, expecting things to just 'happen by themselves'........you've got to make it work...no matter WHAT business you work for
Faliseus: if you quit, then will that look good on your resume or application?:-)
Faliseus: this career is 'different'
“oh well”
Faliseus: because the retirement benefits, offer, the great feeling of achievement through all odds and disbelief, a good lifelong friend, many lessons on how to cope with problems instead of running from them (skills and experience), many hobbies/interests, education and references:-)
“no offense, Jeremy.. but you've never been married”
Faliseus: you're absolutely right
Faliseus: but I do live with a family, and I have grown up in one, as I've also had to do some 'raising' of my own
Faliseus: I argue MANY TIMES with my mom about household issues, and 'things to be done'....and make many good points and have been successful in keeping the family 'more calm'
Faliseus: you are right though......I've never been married.....but if marriage, is a family, and I've got a family of my own.....then yes, transitively, I've been married.
Faliseus: I don't know though, I could be wrong.
Faliseus: but one thing that I do know, is family.:-)
“it’s different”
Faliseus: explain
Faliseus: I need to understand more, to get more credibility
Faliseus: I mean......I'm not sure how different a marriage is from a household
“it’s very different being the kid or the parent”
Faliseus: or in the case that, 'the kids are the parent'
Faliseus: my dad was in a nursing home for the past 2 years or so.......
Faliseus: I had to be the man of the house
Faliseus: mom and sis, two women, I had to live with, and mutually deal with
Faliseus: the heat and pressure was put directly on me]
“wow”
“that must have been hard”
Faliseus: it must've been like marriage:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: there are people with different or the same working schedules, living under one roof......they have to share everything, support each other, love each other through thick and thin........have talks with each other to understand each other better, eat, sleep, read, play and go places with each other........ it's about 'each otherness' and 'togetherness' and 'getting through problems.....together'
Faliseus: as I see it.....that's family
Faliseus: I've been forced to grow up.....but unlike many teens who are forced to grow up....I take to my growing 'responsibly' and 'sternly' with a firm, supportive and 'faithful' attitude
Faliseus: so that might give me just a hair of credibility:-)
“that’s good”
Faliseus: dad passed away on February 3rd of this year, 2002.......and that wasn't that easy to deal with....but I've gotten through it
Faliseus: and am getting through it
“I'm so sorry”
“:-(“
Faliseus: so when you say, marriage is different.....I'm not too sure what you're talking about.
Faliseus: because I've had to grow as the man of the house.....among dealing with other things
Faliseus: sis used to yell 'constantly'......she used to hate my guts and throw things at me all the time, just because I stood my ground when I gave her advice.....because I loved her
Faliseus: stand your ground for those you love......and you'll find that same support for you, when you're not thinking right
Faliseus: one day, she just got tired of yelling, because......no one likes to yell at someone that isn't wrong, forever
Faliseus: eventually, yells and screams tire down because they just get old and finally learn that someone is and has always been there as support
Faliseus: I introduced my sis to 'faith', and 'hope'......she's loved me more than ever and has looked up to me, ever since then
Faliseus: it TOOK faith to teach her that.....because I'd gotten things thrown at me, screaming in my ears, for a LONG time, I didn't think it would be possible that she would ever listen
Faliseus: but one day, when I kept telling her I loved her and that no matter what, I would always be her brother.......she did.
“that's awesome”
“you've been through a lot”
Faliseus: that's nothing:-)
“but still, its not being married”
Faliseus: tell me what being married is
“how do I put it into words?”
Faliseus: you can
“it’s the one on one relationship.. “
Faliseus: ok
Faliseus: what do you mean by 'one on one relationship'?
“it’s not the same as dealing with your mother or sister... its about the sex.. and much more”
Faliseus: tell me about things.....I still don't understand......what do you mean by 'much more'?.....because sex, isn't the key to a good relationship, it's only an accessory to a good relationship
“yes, but an important one... you need to feel wanted.. needed...”
“like you are the most important thing to someone”
Faliseus: but you've got to feel that for yourself first, because if you don't feel it for yourself first, then you're not going to feel it for anyone else.
“maybe”
Faliseus: :-) what?
“maybe you have to feel it for yourself first...”
“I don't know”
Faliseus: I take notes from experienced people, my mother was happily married for 26 years;-)
“but it’s not the same.. unless you've experienced it.. it’s hard to explain”
Faliseus: my mother 'is experienced in it':-)
Faliseus: I take notes from her
“cool”
Faliseus: do you think that I think of all of this advice I give in my own head?
“maybe”
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*:-) nope, my mother and father have been good teachers;-)
“that’s good”
Faliseus: maybe
Faliseus: he, he
“:-)”
Faliseus: now, who's got some credibility?:-)
“me”
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: yep, me:-)
Faliseus: okay, now tell me, what seems to be the problem
“huh?”
Faliseus: tell my 'why' you want to 'quit' your career?
Faliseus: how long have you been married?
“11 yrs”
“I don't love him”
Faliseus: why don't you love him?
Faliseus: refresh me:-)
Faliseus: just so that we're both 'clear' on why you don't love him
“ready?”
Faliseus: always:-)
“He started making threats... If I leave him he was going to work as hard as he could to get the money, kids, house.. etc”
“so.. I gave in”
“he moved back in... I got really depressed”
“I stopped exercising.. stopped making good food choices”
“put back on a lot of pounds of what I lost”
“then finally this past month... I said ENOUGH IS ENOUGH”
“I got back on my program and I'm about a few pounds away from my goal weight again”
“but he never really changed... he has a terrible temper”
Faliseus: don't try to say anything that'll make him mad......just stay away from things that would make him mad.....he should try to stay home with the kids more and then you could take an evening job, because it sounds like you guys aren't evening the time-out with the kids evenly
“oh please.. I'm NOT walking on egg shells for him”
“and it’s usually the kids that make him mad”
Faliseus: it's not just for him....it's for you also
“I don't agree”
Faliseus: what are your and his schedules?
“he works all day, till the evening or so”
“I'm home most days”
Faliseus: by the evening, I imagine he would want peace and quiet
“don't try to make excuses for him”
Faliseus: I'm not making excuses for him. I'm making the point......it's a two way thing......because ALL people DO have stress that they don't want to deal with, not just you, not just him.....but 'all people have stress'
“yes, well he needs to deal with it better....better than yelling at 2 small kids”
“and it’s not just during the week.. it’s on the weekends too”
“worse on the weekends”
“you know, we better change the subject”
“I'm not enjoying talking about this”
“don't you want to ask me what size bra I wear?”
“if I'm shaved”
“ha, ha”
Faliseus: believe me, I think it's helping
Faliseus: but what size bra do you wear?:-)
Faliseus: just kidding ;-) never mind....back to the conversation
Faliseus: this is important
“no”
Faliseus: not just for you, but for me, also to understand things....when I get married
Faliseus: do you have a best friend, near you, that you can talk to, when you‘re feeling down and out and need advice?
“hopefully you'll stay in love with the woman you marry”
“but honestly, I don't know if it’s possible”
Faliseus: I have 'reason'.
Faliseus: and I've got 'direction'......with reason and direction, love is ALWAYS possible.
“because people change as they grow”
Faliseus: exactly:-)
Faliseus: people do change, because somebody has to give in.
“34B”
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: thanks:-)
“yes, I am”
“*laugh out loud*”
“ha, ha, ha”
“(trying to change the subject)”
Faliseus: I'm trying not to be a bad husband when I'll get older.....so I'm trying to understand how to be a better husband..... when I DO become a husband.
“respect your wife and kids”
“control your temper”
“show them how important they are to you”
“remember those things, you'll do fine”
Faliseus: shouldn't the same be for yourself?
Faliseus: respect your husband and kids, and find 'understanding' with them both.........
Faliseus: sometimes people do 'lose their temper', you've got to understand ways of keeping them calm,
Faliseus: show people how important they are to you......
Faliseus: remember those things, you'll do fine:-)
“ok.. change the subject”
Faliseus: because mom, used to tell dad what us kids used to do before he came in the door, and that made him mad, because he worked 14 hours a day and that's not fun
Faliseus: I haven't got a bra:-)
“good!”
Faliseus: 26 years of experience.....you should listen well;-)
Faliseus: hmm
Faliseus: what do you think?
“I can't give him any more understanding... I've tried for years and years.. he isn't going to change.. that’s it..”
Faliseus: do you remember if you guys were ever really 'friends'?
Faliseus: reminiscence, will help a marriage get back into it's roots
“we were young”
“we met in high school”
“I'd REALLY rather not talk about this any more”
“anything else would be better”
Faliseus: well, you know me.....always trying to learn something new:-)
Faliseus: now.......do you feel drilled?:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“yes”
“to death”
Faliseus: didn't I tell you yesterday that 'tomorrow, you'll feel drilled'?
Faliseus: :-D
“yes you did”
Faliseus: it's strange how I can predict the weather......and I'm not even a meteorologist;-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: what's on your mind now?
“sex”
“laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: why?
“other conversations..”
Faliseus: what do you mean?
Faliseus: :-)
“well, I don't block ALL those people with the perverted questions”
Faliseus: yeah but they're just pervs
“maybe I'm a perv too”
Faliseus: hmm, maybe......there's an answer:-)
“:-)”
Faliseus: maybe there's some relativity going on there;-)?
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“huh?”
Faliseus: well, you're talking about marriage again, you can't seem to change the subject.........because you mentioned sex as a part of marriage......and according to you, sex is a part of marriage right?
Faliseus: :-) oops
“it is part of it.. but it’s also part of life in general... get yourself some and you'll see :-)”
Faliseus: but you're married.....and talking about sex, I am single and talking about it, there's a difference.
Faliseus: :-D
Faliseus: hope you’re not speechless now;-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“maybe I'm looking to get some somewhere else”
Faliseus: what do you mean and why?
“never mind... I'd rather not go into it”
Faliseus: but you were the one that brought the subject back, because according to you, sex was a part of M*******
Faliseus: :-)
“uh, uh”
Faliseus: if you want, I can go and show you where you 'wrote that':-)
“no”
“thanks anyway”
Faliseus: always welcome;-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: what's for dinner tonight?
Faliseus: :-)
“no idea”
Faliseus: no idea?!!?
“fish maybe”
Faliseus: maybe:-)
“or chicken”
“I'll decide when I actually have to cook”
Faliseus: rice too?
Faliseus: or maybe pasta?
“potato”
Faliseus: hmm
Faliseus: mmm
Faliseus: :-)
“hungry?”
Faliseus: mmm?
Faliseus: you'd better believe that I'm going to take notes from this conversation;-)
“ha ha ha ha”
Faliseus: chat rooms have been my 'college', ever since I've been in them
Faliseus: it's almost like being in a class, because of all of the questions I ask:-)
Faliseus: it's like a CO-ED college
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“best kind”
Faliseus: and we're already writing out thesis's:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: *jeopardy song playing in the background*
“:-)”
Faliseus: *internet crickets tired of cricketing, so the internet crickets fell asleep because it was too quiet, even for them*
Faliseus: :-)
Faliseus: well
Faliseus: aren't you going to make conversation?:-)
“I'm drilled, remember”
Faliseus: none the less.......I receive my 'own' daily drillings......but that's no excuse for ME not to make conversation:-)
Faliseus: I do my best, and shine like a diamond.......even against all odds and under all strains;-)
Faliseus: yes ma'am:-D
“:-)”
Faliseus: you know.....even when my dad was in the hospital,
Faliseus: even when he seemed like he WOULDN'T make it,
Faliseus: even when he doubted himself.......he still did his best....to keep a smile on all our faces:-)
Faliseus: ;-)
“that’s great”
Faliseus: I'd hate to say it, but most of my conversation revolves around my parents and how they raised me and what I learned from their strength
Faliseus: undying and unconditional love.....after 26 years......wouldn't you agree that's made me a better person?
Faliseus: :-)
Faliseus: I try to look at it from many angles......but it's not too arguable, because I've tried to argue it myself.
Faliseus: hmm
Faliseus: 34B you say?:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“yes”
Faliseus: just kidding;-) just making conversation
Faliseus: yes to what?
“34b”
Faliseus: so, my parents haven't made me a better person by showing me a good example then?
Faliseus: I'm psycho, :-) not psychic
“I'm sure they have”
Faliseus: is that a yes?
“well, I don't really know you”
“but I'd say yes”
Faliseus: that's the conclusion of the conversation, from the strength of the parents, the child will grow stronger:-)
Faliseus: hmm
Faliseus: since we've concluded that.........hmm.......:-)
Faliseus: now what do we talk about:-D?
Faliseus: that way, if another married man or woman comes to me with their problems, then I can whale on them with philosophy and mutually experience and perspective:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: (you know.....so that you don't feel alone;-))
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“thanks”
Faliseus: always welcome:-)
Faliseus: yes, I agree that it's hard to make conversation and find the right questions, but it's quite simple really:-)
Faliseus: who what where when why and how and why again:-)
Faliseus: mix up those questions and you've got about a kajillion questions you can annoy me with ;-)
“kajillion at least”
Faliseus: or perhaps do some drilling of your own
Faliseus: :-) I am always up for a good drilling
“I prefer to be "drilled"“
“ha ha ha”
Faliseus: "I Really Need To Be Rammed Hard"
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“really?”
“*laugh out loud*”
“me too”
“ha ha ha ha”
Faliseus: in the 'mental sense' of it all:-)
Faliseus: I always need a mental drill, you'll never know how much stuff I've got clogging my mind;-)
Faliseus: feels GREAT when your mind is clear:-D
conclusions,
MARRIAGE IS A CAREER.
Marry for LOVE and UNDERSTAND that marriage will only work, if you MAKE it work........believe to achieve. Understand that ALL people, not just yourself or your spouse but ALL people are stressed.
Understand your partner, not only for CREDIBILITY but also to make the bonds of love STRONGER.
When overwhelmed with work and the such, find YOU time. THEN find YOU and YOUR PARTNER TIME....to spend together, ALONE and UNDISTURBED, because once you marry, you become “ONE“.
FEEL special about YOURSELF first, otherwise you’re not going to feel special about anyone else.
ASK OTHER married people for ADVICE.
HAVE reason, direction and unconditional LOVE when in ANY situation.
REMEMBER the beautiful past, to HOPE for a beautiful future.......because reminiscence, will help a marriage get back into it's roots
Being RAISED ON undying and unconditional love will make ANY ONE stronger.
Try to look at it from many angles......and you’ll see that it's not to arguable.
From the strength of the parents, the child will grow.
CLEAR your mind of the NEGATIVE PAST......OPEN your mind to the POSITIVE future..........’keep positive’.
Faliseus: RESPECT your spouse and kids, and find 'understanding' with them both.........
Faliseus: sometimes people CAN and DO 'lose their temper', you've got to understand ways of keeping them calm.
Faliseus: HAVE family meetings, in order to ‘come together’ and ‘STAY TOGETHER’
Faliseus: show people how important they are to you......
Faliseus: remember those things, you'll do fine:-)
**********************CONTINUED**********************
“our talk about marriage was rough yesterday”
Faliseus: afraid a 20 year old who takes notes from his mother, happily married woman of 26 years, will say something you might not like:-)
Faliseus: it'll only be the truth
Faliseus: ;-)
“my parents have been married 50 yrs”
Faliseus: depends on the circumstances
Faliseus: my dad had cancer his last few years, and all he ever did was work all his life and lay in a hospital bed when he wasn't working
Faliseus: mom stayed home and watched us kids, but when dad retired on disability, she had to get a job
Faliseus: we had to struggle our entire life
Faliseus: it was not easy, and it was surely a lesson.......a lesson in itself
Faliseus: now, if your own parents have gone through those similar struggles, then I'm sure they could give as good advice
Faliseus: quality, not quantity........because most people can go their entire lifetime, and not have to solve one problem, where as, a person who's gone their entire life SOLVING problems, will therefore have more experience, than someone who hasn't
Faliseus: not to say that no one has problems
“everyone does”
Faliseus: just to say that, my mom, my dad, my family, has had a VERY large share.......and VERY traumatic each time due to the poverty my dad had to work through
Faliseus: mom had to raise us through miserable times, because dad, would always be in the hospital or he'd always be working, he would come home angry and tired
Faliseus: mom found ways of calming him down, and finding time to be with him
Faliseus: and dad didn't really find the faith and joy he'd found, until after he'd went into the nursing home
Faliseus: where he had to find 'faith'
Faliseus: my brother, was very against and rebelled against dad, which didn't make things easy
Faliseus: sis and I were always fighting, and dad, although he'd had a long day, would stop to tell us not to fight..........mom would always find a way to calm dad down
Faliseus: they had their arguments of course......but they both learned one things............you can solve NOTHING, with yelling.
Faliseus: fix the problem by discussing it....don't MAKE the problem worse by YELLING about it
Faliseus: If you yell, then BE THE ADULT. Grow up and maturely discuss things.
Faliseus: find reason
Faliseus: miracles happen everyday........but the only catch is that you have to believe in them in order for the miracles to work.
Faliseus: otherwise they won't
Faliseus: if you run from your problems, then your problems.......unsolved........will only jump up and bite you in the ass
Faliseus: (:-)) sure.....in my busy day;-)....I'll hang on
Faliseus: as I was saying, family meetings are important, but you're not just in it because you're a 'couple'......because you're in it.....because you're now a FAMILY.
Faliseus: and although people are hard to struggle with, you have to understand another perspective and understand that you, yourself aren't that easy to struggle with as well, because just because we don't see something, doesn't mean it isn't there, it just takes a different perspective to see.......just because we don't see ourselves doing something, doesn't mean we aren't seen doing that something by someone else's eyes
Faliseus: now if that's not good house cleaning philosophy that I've learned from my cleaning boss at Nippert, then I don't know WHAT is:-)
Faliseus: the fact remains, a good hearted person, MUST understand where themselves, being the good hearted person, has 'misunderstood'
Faliseus: I ALWAYS say that I could be wrong.........which is how I've become so right:-).....but I could be wrong!
Faliseus: don't LAUGH at my jokes......LEARN from them!:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
MORE conclusions,
UNDERSTAND that you ‘could be wrong’ or ‘mistaken’......have FAITH and BELIEVE for the marriage to work out, otherwise if you don’t BELIEVE in the miracle, then do you think that’s REALLY going to make the miracle happen?
The answer to the above question is ‘NO‘ because miracles OF faith only happen THROUGH FAITH.
A weak and/or separated couple, makes for a weak and/or separated family.
Grow your kids with faith, through all odds. You’re a FAMILY, NOT a couple.....but a FAMILY.
to the top168.) Lost FAITH
Faliseus: how's the philosophy game going?
“oh, umm..... well it’s not. I have not thought bout it to be honest”
Faliseus: what do you mean?
“huh”
Faliseus: what do you mean.......by “well it’s not I have not thought bout it to be honest”
Faliseus: 'why not'?
“I don’t know I just have to many things to deal with to think bout it”
Faliseus: there's always time for faith:-)
Faliseus: a quick prayer of wisdom each day will ALWAYS help out........God will make time, if only you believe ;-)
Faliseus: remember, the sick and blind, were ONLY healed, because they BELIEVED that they would be healed:-)
Faliseus: that is faith.....when a blind man can't see, yet he BELIEVES that he will
“yeah I know but the problem is that I don’t make time for Him any more”
Faliseus: nonsense
Faliseus: he makes time for you ALL the time
“I do believe with everything in me but I just put Him in a room in my heart to just sit and not take over me”
Faliseus: you can sit down and pray......and it's certainly it's not going to hurt you to do so:-)
“yeah but I don’t make time for Him”
Faliseus: what do you mean by 'time for him'?
Faliseus: you don't have to go to church to be a good person
Faliseus: let me ask you something.......
Faliseus: where did Jesus preach?:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“I don’t read my Bible any more, talk to Him, and well it sad to say but I’m not sure if I want to talk to him or deal with Him”
Faliseus: why not? what's the risk?
“it’s not the church I have a great one”
“there is no risk but I just feel like I am always failing him“
“so why try anymore”
Faliseus: let me ask you another thing
Faliseus: can you SEE GOD?:-)
“ok”
“no”
Faliseus: alright, then that means you don't 'know' God, because 'knowledge' is based on 'sight'
Faliseus: NO one knows God
Faliseus: now, here's my point......
“ok”
Faliseus: HOW would you know if you're 'failing God'......if you can't 'SEE God'?:-)
Faliseus: and on the flip-side, HOW would you know that you're 'succeeding for God'........if you can't 'SEE Him'?:-)
Faliseus: you DON'T KNOW:-)
Faliseus: THAT.....my fine-feathered friend........is faith:-)
Faliseus: believing in what you can't see
Faliseus: to make it work
Faliseus: that's why faith is important
Faliseus: not because you're out to fulfill some holy task, or serve something in any way,
“because I sin on purpose. It’s almost like I want to sin and I am going to do what ever I want no matter what”
Faliseus: but to make things WORK for you, and to see yourself SUCCEED and to believe, not only in God, but ALSO in yourself:-)..... as we believe God believes in us
Faliseus: let me tell you something,
“ok”
Faliseus: "the more perfect you try to act, is the more IMPERFECT you'll find out you are."
Faliseus: stop dragging yourself around on a leash of guilt and worry
Faliseus: just be FREE:-) of worry and BE comfortable being YOURSELF.
Faliseus: PRAY that you're heading in the right path......PRAY for help
Faliseus: that's what faith is all about:-)......it's self-help
Faliseus: be THANKFUL for what you have
“yeah I know that is what I need to do but I don’t want to”
Faliseus: just don't keep your hands empty, keep your hands full of work
“I have no desire any more”
Faliseus: tell me.........'why not'?
Faliseus: why don’t you have the desire anymore?
Faliseus: I believe your faith is being tested now
“I guess so”
Faliseus: faith is not easy, but by golly:-).......faith is beautiful to have succeeded in
“:-)”
Faliseus: it's as simple as being a blind man, and believing to see:-)
Faliseus: do you know how often I read my bible?
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“no”
Faliseus: I HAVEN'T read my bible in like a year!!
“oh”
Faliseus: and I didn't even get through but like 40 pages of it:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: ALL of my advice comes from my own heart
Faliseus: from my own experience, just as Jesus has ‘his own’ experiences of faith and faithful and faithless people.....I have my own
“yeah but it needs to come from the Word”
Faliseus: Either way, either word, we are all brothers and sisters struggling to love each other and have faith in each other some how.
“yeah”
Faliseus: let me tell you something sista, :-)
“:-) okay”
Faliseus: 'the word'......is only a PART of what you need to know
Faliseus: there are more lessons in life than what's in the bible
Faliseus: and there are also more bibles than just 'the bible'
“that is true”
Faliseus: the most important detail to remember when doing 'anything'....... is to remember WHY you are doing it.
Faliseus: if you don't know 'why'.....then you HAVEN'T got a purposeful direction:-) and you're just as lost as the other people
Faliseus: but for a person who 'knows their direction', and knows WHY they are going in that direction and doesn't just go that direction because 'everybody else on the bandwagon is going in the same direction'......THAT person......my fine feathered friend:-)......
Faliseus: will see the light:-) of faith
“wow, you make it all sound so sweet and easy”
Faliseus: don't do it, if it doesn't feel right
Faliseus: 'understand' why it isn't feeling right when you do it:-)...... and then DO IT RIGHT
Faliseus: believe me, I feel GOOD:-)
“that’s great that you do”
“I just want that love for Him back”
Faliseus: that's the problem with ‘A Bible‘ or a 'The Word' or a ‘The Book‘.......because that's ALL it is...........it's a WORD, a bible or a book!! It’s not a meaning, but a 'word', a ‘bible’ and/or a ‘book’
Faliseus: people don't understand........there has to be a meaning behind 'the word'.......or it's just a meaningless 'word', ‘bible’ or ‘book’
“true, true”
“okay how bout this I don’t want to go back to Him”
Faliseus: and you've got to UNDERSTAND 'why' the word is the word and THEN understand 'other people's' 'the Word'...........mix and match, compare and contrast.....but don't just jump on the bandwagon with everybody, just BECAUSE.......'everybody else is doing it'.......don't treat it as a drug............TREAT it, as 'an enlightenment of perspective'
Faliseus: and you will feel better
Faliseus: the ONLY person that can give a group of words ‘meaning’ or ‘intention’ is YOU
Faliseus: believe me:-), I know
Faliseus: you kind of have no choice:-)
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: you're either 'with us'....or 'against us'
Faliseus: faith will make your life easier to handle
“yeah I know but I don’t care to have it I can live with out faith”
Faliseus: I mean....faith, is believing in what you can't see.........well, in the case that you decide that you don‘t ‘care to have faith‘, then "what is a life dream?", “what is security?”, “what is family?” “what is love?”
Faliseus: EACH thing in your life, EACH person in your life......do you HONESTLY think that each thing will become BETTER if you 'don't believe in them'?:-)
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: you've got to be kidding yourself if you answer ‘yes’
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“*laugh out loud* I was going for the NO”
Faliseus: because, in order to read what I've typed, you've got to BELIEVE that I'm typing those things
Faliseus: and in order to FEEL that I care, you've GOT to BELIEVE that I care
“yeah :-)”
Faliseus: and in order for things to work out in your life, like av life's dream.......well.......he, he:-)....you know the answer.......rather, you know you should BELIEVE that you care to know
“:-)”
Faliseus: it's okay though;-) I forgive you for FORGETTING your whole life's dreams by NOT having faith:-)
Faliseus: we all forget!!
Faliseus: even I do!!:-)
Faliseus: but,
“and there is a BUT.. *laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: praying will help you remember your goals....keeping your eyes on the prize will help you GET there
Faliseus: (it was a positive but:-))
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: NOW!!........
Faliseus: I hope to GOD that you understand 'MY WORD':-)
“I do thank you for sharing”
Faliseus: duh
Faliseus: *laugh out loud* :-P
“hehehe”
Faliseus: remember one thing........the temple is not in a church, and the word is not in a book,
Faliseus: the temple AND the word, are in your heart. IN FACT, ironically and commonly misunderstood, it says that in the New Testament and in this chat room.
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: just speak it, just hope it, and just go to the temple, as freely as you would like:-)
“okay:-)”
Faliseus: I'm not going to stop you.......and neither will God;-)
“yep”
Faliseus: man, I wished someone could understand ME like I understand the common problems of the youngins
Faliseus: back then, there was NO ONE like me to 'clarify' for me:-) but thank God I'm here
“back then is how long??? ;-)”
Faliseus: ‘back then’ was and is my entire life of learning 'my word'
Faliseus: I learned that my own word, in my heart, is love
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: technically, that's the ONLY word you have to remember.....and the rest will follow:-)
“God’s word is love, hope, joy, peace and so much more”
Faliseus: where do you think the REST of those words come from?
Faliseus: hello?? duh!! *laugh out loud*
Faliseus: :-)
Faliseus: LOVE
Faliseus: DEFINE love and you get 'faith'
“okay I’ve got ya *laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: love ;-)
“:-)”
Faliseus: people can make things WAY complicated sometimes!! that's why I'm not a big fan of the bible, but yet, that's why I am a big fan of the bible
Faliseus: and 'other bibles'
Faliseus: people forget that KEY element out of EVERYTHING else!:-)
“geeeeeeezzzzzz”
“yeah they do at times”
Faliseus: other people of other book/bible studying groups say, 'live this way', 'live that way'...........well tell me something geniuses.............WHAT ABOUT LOVE?????
“yep”
Faliseus: it's not the books that are to blame though
Faliseus: it's the 'labels' of the book that blind us
Faliseus: because people can misinterpret a label
“yep, yep”
Faliseus: and most of the times, that's what happens
“yeppers”
Faliseus: then through misunderstandings, people start to fight and argue that one person is more right than the other
“*laugh out loud* so true”
Faliseus: and they all find themselves in the SAME unhappy spot each and every day......STILL ARGUING!!:-)
Faliseus: imagine that!!?:-)
“hehehehehe”
Faliseus: of course it’s not so much the ‘arguing’ for me:-)
Faliseus: mostly from me it’s just...............
Faliseus: LOVE.
Faliseus: ;-)
“*laugh out loud*”
Faliseus: although, it all depends on what you mean by 'arguing'
Faliseus: what I mean, in this case, arguing would be 'fighting senselessly'
Faliseus: alright, well,
“yeah that is also true”
“okay well I have to go see ya round GOODBYE YOU!!”
Faliseus: do me a favor, love:-), when you read something or see something from someone else, like a book or if you go to a different church. .......don't become a part of a cult or something. Just sit and 'think about it' and think about ‘why you and the others of that church are expected to do the things you’re expected to do‘.....’think about it‘
Faliseus: ......and either way, just have LOVE and just be our sister:-)
Faliseus: and I'll be their brother;-)
Faliseus: the world is a congregation:-D
“cults? nooooooooo way never”
Faliseus: good idea:-) subscribe to the cult of one....the cult of the individual
Faliseus: and have faith babe;-)
“I will always be on God’s side just a little messed up right now”
“*laugh out loud* okay”
Faliseus: funny you mentioned that:-)......you can't see God.
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“buh byez”
“*laugh out loud*”
“byez”
Faliseus: love ya;-)
Faliseus: bye, bye!
“love ya too GOODBYE YOU byez!!!”
*************************
The key points:
Rely on faith and love over logic........
and
Remember that everything else follows ‘love‘.
Faliseus: the mind......as logic powered as it can be, and as much direction it can ‘logically go in’
Faliseus: can be VERY confused.....and forgetting or.....as computer hackers like to call it......'corrupt'.
Faliseus: that’s the difference between machine and man...‘machine’ is programmed and runs mechanically and logically uncorrupted, until it’s dead
Faliseus: humans are programmed logically but are corrupted....till the point they remember again through ‘hope’ and ‘love‘, resulting in LIFE.
Faliseus: love and hope are the unquestionable support because even though there are logical questions, the corrupt mind will forget the logical answers
Faliseus: this is why LOVE and HOPE are MORE important than LOGIC.
Faliseus: because when you ‘hope’ that the answers will come back to you, then you will STILL be alive,
but if your mind LOGICALLY decides that it’s corrupt......then it is LOGICALLY dead.
Faliseus: this is the importance of FELLOWSHIP. Fellowship or ‘friendship’ or ‘togetherness’ will act as your own backup copy of your own thoughts and perspectives. Your fellowship will support you with the faith that you’ve lost as you will do that for them in the future, when their own corrupted minds forget and you must remind them.
to the top169.) Excessive Happiness
“what’s with the smiles”
Faliseus: what's wrong with smiling?
“it is beginning to annoy the shit out of me”
“nothing wrong but its a lil excessive”
“maybe once in a while”
Faliseus: one moment.
“but over and over”
Faliseus: have you seen the movie with Robin Williams, “Patch Addams“?
“no”
Faliseus: if not, then you should;-)
“whatever”
“you are annoying me now”
“bye”
Faliseus: love you
Faliseus: your loss
Faliseus: hate
Faliseus: forget
“whatever”
Faliseus: why?
“why what?”
Faliseus: why leave?
“I don‘t know...you hit a nerve”
Faliseus: explain to me what I'm doing wrong?
Faliseus: I will correct myself.
“you are too perky, it’s sickening”
“and those excessive smilies”
“are annoying me”
“sorry”
Faliseus: tell me what is so grossly horrible about happiness, guru.
“I’m not in a happy mood?”
Faliseus: so?
“so you are annoying me”
“that’s all”
“it’s good for you that you are SO happy”
“that’s peachy”
“but I don’t want to deal with that”
Faliseus: you think I don't have to put up with a few of YOUR attitude problems?
“My?”
Faliseus: I'm a real friend.
“Oh God”
“you know whatever”
Faliseus: I don't drop out on people because I'm 'annoyed'
Faliseus: “who that tooty fruity chick”
Faliseus: yep, her.
“huh?”
“excuse you?”
Faliseus: I don't drop out on people because I'm 'annoyed with them'
“don’t play games here”
Faliseus: that's stupid
“well I didn’t feel like dealing with this”
Faliseus: don't worry.
“about?”
Faliseus: don’t worry about the past
Faliseus: what are you in the mood for?
“umm ok”
“whatever”
“Mr. know it all”
Faliseus: what is it with people that get angry for no reason at all?
“good”
“no reason?”
Faliseus: I don't get it
Faliseus: no reason.
“you are smug”
Faliseus: speak for yourself, hypocrite
“me?”
Faliseus: sure,
Faliseus: I mentioned that FIRST thing in the conversation
“what did I do?”
Faliseus: read your profile.
“mentioned what?”
Faliseus: I mentioned 'hypocriticism'
“what about it?”
“make your point?”
Faliseus: ironically, look where we're at
Faliseus: read your profile.
“I don’t have to”
“because it’s from me”
Faliseus: often times, we forget our own words
Faliseus: your profile says you’re open minded
“and maybe it’s just a profile and I was shitting around”
“you took me too serious”
Faliseus: it is SMUG to disregard criticism
“so your loss”
Faliseus: hehe
Faliseus: good joke
“I don’t need to be criticized”
“not by some stranger”
“that never met me?”
Faliseus: ah yes, mutual feeling.
“well ok then”
“so this is where we stop talking”
Faliseus: lets start from scratch then?
“because we are not getting anywhere”
Faliseus: hold up
“why?”
Faliseus: there's no WE
“you already hurt me”
“too late”
Faliseus: how?
“how?”
Faliseus: you misunderstand me.
“you call me a hypocrite?”
Faliseus: your own misunderstandings are your own pains.
“and I’m supposed to smile”
“ok it’s all me”
“you know what I’m the bastard”
Faliseus: you tell me to STOP smiling, and I'm supposed to STOP SMILING?
“so don’t talk to me”
“ok”
“I am SO bad”
Faliseus: heh, that's the only reason I like ya
“so don’t talk to me”
“I think I feel worse now”
Faliseus: I can only hope for the best.
“I’m leaving”
Faliseus: remember, I still love you.
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Faliseus: remember, I still love you.
“what is your deal?”
Faliseus: you said you want to learn about inner self right?
“and?”
“you think you know me?”
Faliseus: why are you constantly jumping to conclusions?
Faliseus: why can't you ever give me the chance, with an open mind, to EXPLAIN things?
“I am asking you a question”
Faliseus: I'm waiting for an answer
“what”
“explain then”
Faliseus: read then
“I have an open mind”
“you just annoyed me”
Faliseus: if you have an open mind, then why'd you leave?
“I am reading!”
“because you were annoying me”
“I had to”
“didn’t want to have a freaking migraine”
Faliseus: so, is that an 'open mind'? a closed door?
“I had to”
“you were in my ass”
Faliseus: not ass, but mind
“umm you don’t go towards fire you go away”
“whatever?”
Faliseus: wait
“you take things too serious”
“bah”
Faliseus: first of all, what do you mean?
“I dislike people like you”
Faliseus: “I” take things too seriously???
Faliseus: “You” don't know how to joke!
“you said my profile is smug”
Faliseus: what are my options?
“I don’t?”
“I’m a very goofy person”
Faliseus: hmm? let me think? no
Faliseus: could've fooled me
“you just shitted on me”
“and my ego”
“and no one does that”
“here you go again”
Faliseus: maybe I was joking, maybe that's why I was smiling.
“derogatory”
Faliseus: think positive.
“I do”
“please stop “
“well I can’t tell if you’re smiling can I?”
Faliseus: :-)<-------
“you are very negative”
“that’s why I had to leave”
“because I’m sensitive”
Faliseus: point out a word negative word.
“and you were hurting me”
Faliseus: I am sensitive, I respect your sensitivity
“I’m too tired to point out”
“never mind”
Faliseus: take a deep breath
“I don’t want to drag this”
“don’t tell me what to do”
“blah”
Faliseus: arg:-(
“whatever”
“you don’t know me”
“and you wont”
Faliseus: you know, I'm doing my best
Faliseus: I see more of your jumping to conclusions.
“then quit going arg”
“or whatever”
Faliseus: again, more conclusions
“that makes me feel better?”
Faliseus: I understand you’re sensitive, but don't you understand I'm sensitive too?
“what? I’m not concluding”
“you just said arg?”
“what the hell?”
“you are so weird”
“GOD”
Faliseus: you don't even listen
“I am”
“you don’t”
“you just said arg”
Faliseus: “what ever what ever what ever”
Faliseus: is that listening?
“and what the hell”
Faliseus: with an open mind?
“I am listening”
Faliseus: thank you
“but you aren’t even making sense”
Faliseus: whew
Faliseus: I’m not making any sense because I'm trying to stop an argument:-)
“you called me names”
Faliseus: focus on now.
“this isn’t arguing”
Faliseus: don’t focus on ‘then‘, but focus on ‘NOW’
“I’m defending myself”
Faliseus: I'm defending you too!:-)
“don’t tell me what to do”
“whatever”
“just stop”
“you are soooooo !!”
Faliseus: prove it
“I’m not even going to say”
Faliseus: don't
Faliseus: but
Faliseus: hold on a second.
“whatever”
Faliseus: listening?
Faliseus: nope...that wasn't listening
“what”
“the hell”
“I am?”
“I can do a lot at once”
“I am listening”
Faliseus: you're looking for inner self? I want to know HOW you’re going about doing that, if you can’t even open your OUTER SELF.
“I’m not a 2 year old”
“that you have to tell me to listen”
“why does it matter”
“life isn’t all planned out”
“I can’t explain to you that”
Faliseus: I never asked you to explain that to me, nor did I even NEED you to explain that to me:-)
“inner self is a continuous thing”
“again with the fucking faces”
“geez”
“I’m cringing”
Faliseus: you're doing good at driving me nuts
“so are you”
“some people aren’t meant to be near one another”
Faliseus: that's why we've got the internet;-)
“:-P:-P:-P:-P:-P:-P”
“take that :-P:-P:-P:-P:-P”
“here :-P:-P:-P:-P:-P”
“see how you like it :-P:-P:-P:-P:-P:-P”
“yeah yeah”
Faliseus: I love it
“fuck off then”
Faliseus: who are you looking for?
“who?”
Faliseus: yes.
“what do you mean who?”
“who the hell are you?”
Faliseus: are you going to stop to listen for me?
“and do you know me?”
“and why did you even Instant Message me?”
“I am fucking listening you dummy”
“quit telling me to”
“I’m not a kid that has to be told”
“what to do”
“ok”
“I appreciate that”
Faliseus: seems like you're doing all the talking, because a listener would simply wait to 'listen'.....not proclaim that he/she is listening by TALKING
“I am listening”
“but you aren’t talking”
Faliseus: are you waiting for me?
“yeah”
Faliseus: thanks
“you aren’t saying anything are you?”
Faliseus: no, I'm not saying anything
Faliseus: I'm TYPING
Faliseus: which takes LONGER
“well ok”
“I know that”
“geez”
Faliseus: someone forgot then
“I was waiting”
“maybe u type slow”
“:-P”
“I didn’t forget”
Faliseus: can you blame me?
“don’t assume”
Faliseus: I’m not assuming, because we all forget
Faliseus: general fact
“NO shit”
“thank you”
“for telling me”
“blame you for what?”
Faliseus: you can't blame me for not being able type as fast as super man
“who says you had to?”
“I don’t care about that”
“so no worries :-P”
“here more faces for u :-)”
“YAY :-)”
“:-P”
“:-P”
Faliseus: = - O you said no worries
Faliseus: I say that all the time
“fuck you”
“well goody”
“:-P:-P:-P”
“:-):-):-):-):-):-)”
Faliseus: what's on your mind?
“:-P:-P:-P:-P”
“why are you typing to me”
“if I drive you nuts?”
“hmm”
“then just don't”
“easier for you then”
“don't you think so?”
Faliseus: I'm an Ohioan, I'm trying to find things that don't remind me of boredom.......that's why I type to you, for that reason.
“I’m thinking that”
“*laugh out loud*”
“aww”
Faliseus: easier, isn't fulfilling
“but I drive you nuts”
Faliseus: sure ya do.....that's life...real and crisp....I like that
“so oh well”
“haha gee thanks”
Faliseus: always welcome
“well you drive me nuts too :-P”
“so there”
Faliseus: aww, we're making our first mutual bonds
“it’s reciprocated”
Faliseus: oh baby
“haha”
“you’re a dork”
“I’m sorry”
“but you are”
Faliseus: no need to be sorry
“definitely an Ohian”
“:-P”
Faliseus: don't worry, I'm evolving
“in NY they will eat u alive hun”
“I’m nice compared to other new yawkas”
Faliseus: they can try;-)
“haha”
Faliseus: cool
Faliseus: heh
“you are something else”
“dorky”
“but enduring”
Faliseus: and what's crazy is I can't even smile about it:-)
“why?”
“what?”
Faliseus: I like your integrity
“how do you know about my integrity?”
“haha”
“you are funny”
“now I’m laughing”
to the top170.) Depressing Memories: Pattern of Loneliness
“my foot is falling asleep”
“my mind is very out in space today”
“sorry.”
“I’m not being a good listener”
“just feeling bad”
Faliseus: it's okay, you've been mule kicked around everywhere this week
Faliseus: hope next week is more promising for you:-)
“yeah I hope so“
“blech -_-”
Faliseus: yeah I know
Faliseus: what are you doing?
Faliseus: you're probably really tired
“I'm wallowing”
Faliseus: can I help?
Faliseus: *hugs*
Faliseus: sigh
Faliseus: you should go to bed
Faliseus: feel better in the morning you know?
“sorry.”
“I’m just being pestered”
“there’s no way I’ll feel better in the morning”
“because every morning will be the same as every other morning”
Faliseus: why's that?
“because as hard as I try I can‘t change anything, that‘s just how it is”
Faliseus: how's each morning?
“a beginning to just another meaningless day”
Faliseus: oh that philosophical catch thing
Faliseus: gotcha
Faliseus: hey you're just having a bad day
“right”
“bad day after bad day “
“never mind”
“ok?”
Faliseus: just a few days ago, I was super cranky, and when people tried giving me advice, they eventually told me off because they couldn't stand me constantly being rude to them
Faliseus: bad days....they will pass in time
Faliseus: but they'll always come back too
Faliseus: that’s all part of being human
Faliseus: your best option is to just shut down and relax, you're just under a lot of pressure that's all
“sure“
Faliseus: too much thinking can be lethal
Faliseus: if you let it
Faliseus: but hey, no matter what I tell you, it'll be your ‘own choice’ of what you want to do
Faliseus: that's just how it is on those bad days
Faliseus: that day I was cranky, I couldn't do anything but make a frown by clicking on it, typing ‘*sigh*’even got very annoying, especially when people asked me 'what’s wrong'
Faliseus: just took some time for it to wear off
Faliseus: music helped me out a bit
“there is a difference between what you‘re going through and”
“*sigh*“
“never mind”
“there’s nothing that will wear it off”
Faliseus: I'll just give it sometime and not worry about arguing it tonight
Faliseus: when there's a bad day, you just can't see it any other way, as hard as you try, that's the rules I guess
“ARGH!”
“don't dismiss what I'm feeling as "just a bad day"“
Faliseus: if you want, we could talk about it
“there's nothing to talk about”
“I'll say what I'm feeling“
“and you'll try to dismiss it”
“everyone else does”
Faliseus: I will listen
“no offense towards you“
“it's an automatic response”
Faliseus: I may not see what you are saying now but I will always listen and do my best to understand
Faliseus: if you can explain it, then I can understand it
Faliseus: it helps to talk about your feelings, especially when you've got a guy like me to understand it, as complex as it may get
Faliseus: what ever works for you, you know I'm here to help
Faliseus: that's what friends are for right?
“I figure I need to redefine my definition of friendship”
Faliseus: we can sort everything out on the phone if you would like
Faliseus: typing takes too much effort compared to speaking, sometimes typing itself can be stressful
Faliseus: do what you want though, I'll still be here
Faliseus: working on my web page
Faliseus: alright
"you know, I'm lonely, I'm unhappy and I hate what my life is becoming"
“I hate trying to pretend I‘m happy when I‘m not“
“But I feel have to because if I don't then people will feed me the usual, "Oh, you're just having a bad day. You need to rest. Things will be better in the morning."“
“but I still feel the same each morning I'll just try to think of why I‘m here in the first place.“
“I can‘t stop thinking of when life was good. I miss everyone and I miss everything I used to do“.
“I want to be happier with the way I was. Things have changed. I'm afraid of being forgotten. I’m almost convinced I already have been.“
“I don’t remember how to be happy like I was but I keep thinking back to try to find some answers.”
“that's how I’m feeling”
Faliseus: ok.
Faliseus: thinking of the past too much
Faliseus: is that it?
Faliseus: I mean, for me, thinking about the past sometimes....
Faliseus: the past drags me down repetitively
Faliseus: or sometimes I’m just reminded of the bad things society has shown me lately and it usually gets me down
Faliseus: I'm not sure if that's what you're going through, because you mention, 'the way things were', 'being forgotten', 'being lonely', ‘hating what you’ve become’
Faliseus: and the past, and memories can pattern themselves in your everyday thinking, reminding you of the good times, then all of a sudden you see that those memories are just that, memories and not current reality.
Faliseus: those memories will always be there, but the people and the places from them won't always be there, and it's a big shock when they aren't......it makes me shake when I think about my memories
Faliseus: that shock can make you very quiet and very 'not yourself'
Faliseus: I don't know if that's what your situation is, but I know that what I'm describing is what I go through
Faliseus: forgetfulness just comes through struggle and preoccupation, struggle just comes from courage, leadership and exploration, it's perfectly normal to feel lost when you're a leader
Faliseus: struggle is life, life’s got to hurt to feel better , that's all you can honestly say about it
Faliseus: that's the beauty and disgust of life, that is reality. A blissful and stinging feeling at the same time
“well yeah”
“I know that”
Faliseus: you're just working very hard
“you think that’s supposed to make me feel better?“
Faliseus: it wasn't supposed to make you feel better
“.....working very hard...”
Faliseus: its just the analyzation of what I think you're going through, even though an analyzation doesn't fix someone's problems........to have someone to understand those problems can help more than not having that someone at all, maybe not instantly, but over time having someone that understands can really help
Faliseus: that's why it's always good to work yourself up to talk about it
Faliseus: even though it sucks and it hurts more than anyone else would ever know, it's still good to talk about it
Faliseus: lets off steam, puff by puff
Faliseus: whether you notice it or not
Faliseus: the thought that someone else understands, gives a mutual feeling that fills the empty void that keeps you from doing your normal everyday thing and keeps you from being you
Faliseus: I know that when someone relates with me on a subject, I give a second thought about them, although they may not perfectly know what I'm going through, they do have an idea and they do listen and stubborn or not, you can’t help but to appreciate that.
Faliseus: hell, I may even feel guilty that they understand my problems because I may feel too stubborn to go through with the solution
Faliseus: I may not want them to understand the solution either
Faliseus: because I wouldn't want them to be the first to agree with me about a solution or goal that I really do want to achieve, but really don't want to go through the work and stress to get there
Faliseus: At that time I don’t want to be wrong because I’ve been feeling sad, and I don’t want to be right because then someone would see me crying and I’d feel worse and everything would be ruined.
Faliseus: still not sure if that's what your situation is, but in detail, that's about how deep I can think of my own
“I'm tired of staring at the screen“
Faliseus: the only solution I see to feeling lost or stubborn or overworked or feeling ‘not yourself‘, is relaxation, clearing your mind, meditation if you can, don't think about anything, take a breather, unlock yourself from whatever unhealthy habit you're doing and just let go for a little bit
“my eyes ache”
Faliseus: for me, my solution was to 'go to bed', 'stop playing solitaire', 'stop chatting', 'get myself worn out and go to sleep'
“don’t know if it's the screen or the crying”
Faliseus: so, am I anywhere in the vicinity of what you're describing?
“I’m just going to go”
Faliseus: just so I know if I'm off key or not?
“yeah I guess”
“although I don’t agree with your solution”
“but *shrug*”
Faliseus: that's a yes for sure, it's okay, those moods will do that
Faliseus: relax
Faliseus: breath in, breath out
Faliseus: drink a nice hot cup of tea, do something to get your mind 'unclenched'
“uhm”
Faliseus: try something different, out of the norm
“not gonna happen”
“out of the norm?”
Faliseus: yes
Faliseus: something outside of 'the pattern'
“ooh I really need to get out of here”
“I'm going from being depressed to be annoyed”
“trying something out of the pattern is what I have been doing for the longest time”
“trying something new”
“trying to stop thinking”
“ok I gotta go”
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“look, I'm sorry if I'm being a total bitch”
“I do thank you for listening”
“but when you're in a mood like I am”
“you don’t want to hear solutions”
“or suggestions”
“because they seem impossible to you”
Faliseus: you're welcome, I think I understand, I think I felt the same way two days ago
“and listening to people make them just angers you because it feels as though they don't even understand”
Faliseus: you know, no matter what, even if you turn into someone that nearly kills me, I'll still support you
Faliseus: so, just so that I end on a note that I'm not giving you advice......I'll just say this, do what you need to do
“and what I need to do”
“is get some sleep”
“so that tomorrow I can start all over”
Faliseus: I'm not going to offer encouragement or anything else.....just go for what you feel you need to
Faliseus: encouragement sucks when you're in a mood like this
Faliseus: good luck girl
“actually I think that's the difference between most men and women”
“men always have to offer solutions”
“women usually just listen”
“odd.”
“hmm”
“anyhow, good night”
“bye”
Faliseus: goodnight
Faliseus: bye
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Faliseus: bad days are just when you have very good feeling memories that creep up to you and you wished you still lived in that memory but you don't, hence the stress and the denial of ‘current happiness’
Faliseus: those cases, you just have to take some time to yourself, let those memories pass over you like a thunderstorm, wait for them to gradually quiet down to see sunrise again
to the top171.) Do I Get Lonely?
“you get lonely sometimes right?”
Faliseus: doesn't everybody?
“what do you do to snap out of it or do you just ride it out, probably write?”
Faliseus: loneliness
Faliseus: wear yourself out, get sleepy
Faliseus: write, it's purely inspirational and builds strength when you can sulk up enough to do it each time
Faliseus: teaches you to look at yourself and how well off you really are, through your words
Faliseus: go for a walk, talk to yourself and ask yourself questions and laugh at the things around you
Faliseus: or talk to yourself whenever possible
Faliseus: find some upbeat music
Faliseus: watch an awesome movie and curl up with some goodies to munch on
Faliseus: just sing that music that you can hear in your mind
Faliseus: cry all the tears you have to cry
Faliseus: keep asking questions and be ready for the answers to knock you flat on your back
“you have ideas from all angles, I like that”
“I figured you’d be the one to ask, anything you favor doing?”
Faliseus: most importantly, find someone to ramble on to endlessly and ask them not to say a thing in return
Faliseus: depends on how I'm feeling and depends on what's more convenient
“sometimes I drift off and day dream about the future”
Faliseus: praying helps too, it's another way to ramble hopefully, best before bed
Faliseus: and yes ideas from all angels:-)
“cute”
“so how’re things going in your life?”
Faliseus: can't say specifically
Faliseus: but in theory, like living in a foggy dream with no sunlight but no gloom.....just rain
Faliseus: yet it's not raining
Faliseus: past few weeks have felt like that kind of a dream, I hope it's a sign of good things to come
“sometimes a little rain isn’t bad”
Faliseus: it's the kind of rain like the drool on your pillow, comforting and mesmerizing until you wake up in it
“*laugh out loud*”
to the top172.) The Secret Answer of Happiness
“I need to go find a genie to answer my questions and solve my problems”
Faliseus: you'll figure it out
Faliseus: if I told you the answer, you'd think I was crazy
Faliseus: and you'd go and find out by yourself anyways
“nope”
Faliseus: hey
“I want to hear it anyways”
Faliseus: I happened to be your age before, I know how this kind of thing works
“*laugh out loud*”
“okay”
“spill, I want to hear this magic answer”
Faliseus: I'm not some old sucker that falls for that, "Oh but really I'll listen this time" youngster
Faliseus: *laugh out loud*
“I'm serious!”
“I'm ready to listen to anyone at this point”
“except myself of course”
Faliseus: you're not ready to hear it because you have to understand it and see it to hear it
“please...”
“oh c'mon”
“please tell me”
Faliseus: okay, here's the secret of life and finding all the answers you're looking for..........
Faliseus: quit begging.
Faliseus: and there you go:-) the knowledge and wisdom of all the sages wrapped into two little words
“is that seriously what you were going to say?”
Faliseus: see what I mean? now you're just going to go off by yourself, mumbling and cursing at me for giving you my side of the story.......just like I said you were
Faliseus: quit begging.
Faliseus: apply those two words to everything you say, do, question, (etc.) in life and you'll have your fully valid and functional answer
“who do you talk to when you have problems you can't face on your own?”
Faliseus: it'll come to you.
Faliseus: *laugh out loud* that's a good one
“you have no clue how much I have thought about it and how frustrated I am at this point”
Faliseus: I blab my problems to who ever is listening and who ever isn't listening......I don't get answers, I get ideas, I don't find truth, I find perspective and I eventually learn to live with it and share it and laugh at it
Faliseus: it's change.
“I just can't take it anymore”
“I feel like I'm going to explode”
“don't you ever feel that way?”
Faliseus: sure all the time
“so what do you do?”
Faliseus: I do whatever I feel like doing but mainly, I plan for the future and tell everyone else who believes otherwise to have a nice day and a nice life.
“yeah I know”
Faliseus: most importantly,
Faliseus: I.....
Faliseus: quit begging.
Faliseus: when you beg, you suck the life out of life
Faliseus: so quit begging!
Faliseus: you suck!
Faliseus: :-)*laugh out loud*
Faliseus: you won't realize this any other way, except for on your own.
“grrrr”
Faliseus: meowwwww
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